i don't know if i failed as a friend or not.

i don't plan to make entries like this often, but i really don't like this and need advice.

i feel like one of my friends is spacing away from me, and no matter how hard i try to talk to her or get her attention, she always seems busy with someone else or gives me a very flat answer.

i'm not sure if she actually even likes me anymore..i'm not trying to be clingy, but i remember when i used to be one of her close friends.

i think change is fine, but the way she changed, i just...hate it. i wish it would disappear, but it won't.

is this why i'm trying to go out of my way to talk to others more or something?

ugh...i feel like such a bad person...my feelings are being so played right now by people leaving, coming back, leaving again, making drama that never existed, sudden bad terms, deliberate ignorance-

i wish my feelings would stop getting played with.