"Would you like to play?"

I looked up at the boy who spoke, his unnatural hair and eye colour causing some interest. I saw that he was playing with everyone else and shook my head.

"What are you doing?" He asked another question, sitting down beside me.

I showed him my drawing of a flamingo, it being a bunch of scribbles but you could tell what is was.

"Oooo, personally my favourite animals are owls." I stared at him intensely, Jim looking forward.

"Owls can turn their heads 180 degrees, most people get it wrong and say they can 360 degrees but they can't... no animal can."
I covered my face after that, not feeling confident enough to stare him in the eye.

"That's interesting, what else do you know?"

He was willing to be the dumber one for me...

"RinRin wear...?" I held up a dirty daisy flower crown, it seemingly about to crumble.

He leaned his head towards me, allowing me to place it on his head. "So how do I look?" He asked, fishing it on his head.

"Preetty..." A red tint was shown on my face, trying to cover my face with my hair.

"Wow really? Maybe I should make you one since you'd look beautiful with it."

Made me feel special...

"Hey Would you like to come to my game?"
He turned to me, his ball in my lap while I tried not to fall from the tree.

"Really?" I tilted my head, rolling his ball from my chest to my knees.

"Yes, you can also see nii-chan play for the first time!" His eyes lit up at the thought.

"Okay..."

He'd make sure to include me...

"Aapple ice lolly..." I stood on my tippy toes, trying to peek over the counter.

"Alright..." Sae paid for the favoured ice and I just waited patiently. Of course, Rin was watching his brother happily since this was a common tradition for the brothers.

We were such happy kids...

"Just leave me alone." He glared at me since I had sat on the end of his bed.

"Why? You're obviously upset—"

He smacked away my hand which I had reached towards him in hopes of giving him comfort.

"So what? I don't need some illiterate girl to tell me how to solve my problems."

'Illiterate...?' I knew I had issues speaking but being called out on such by someone I trusted made my heart shatter.

"Okay... I'll go." I whispered, my eyes downcast to hide my tears.

He just looked away, seeming to not care at all.

I made my way out of his home, feeling so much nostalgia at the similar feeling.
But Rin always held me as I cried here; not bring the reason for my heavy emotions.

"Is everything okay de—"

"I'm fine Mrs. Itoshi." I smiled at her, my eye twitching ever so slightly.

"Okay..." She whispered, letting me leave without anything other commentary.

I nodded to her and left through the front door.

(With Rin, 3rd person)

His mother pushed his door open, avoiding the broken picture frame.

"Rin, what happened?"
"Nothing."

"That's obviously a lie since you of all people would never let Shiku cry." She sighed, taking a seat on the bed.

Rin uncurled from the ball he was posing as, raising an eyebrow. "She wasn't crying."

"She was."

"No, she wasn't." He denied. He had always been the reason Shiku stopped crying; not the reason she was.

"Just think about it..." His mother, knowing she won't be able to get through to him, left his room.

He did just that, his hands curling into a tight fist once he realised.

He stood up, grabbing his shoes and coat.

(Back with her, 1st person)

"Why are you watching this..."

"American TV save me..." I whispered with my hands together like praying to God.

I was wearing one of Rins shirts, that I had taken from his wardrobe, and some slipper socks.

My mother just deadpanned, I had come home sobbing and went straight to my room but when I came out I was talking to myself. "It can't save you."

"It will! Trust me." I turned to a gameshow since I liked to let out my frustration by telling people on TV that they made the wrong choice. Although, I was rarely correct.

I found that all the shows I watched didn't work and I threw the remote onto the sofa just for it to bounce back and hit me in the face. "Fuck... does that happen in real life...?"

I heard a knock on the door but my mother, who had gone to her room after about three episodes, was probably sleeping.

I rushed to pull on my trousers, eventually falling and hitting my head on the TV unit.

I heard the door open... I swear I locked it. Unfortunately my face was pressed to the rug with my head bleeding a little.

"What the fuck are you doing?" Although I couldn't see, I could recognise voices.

"Rin... what're you doing here?" I spoke, sitting up and wiping the warm liquid off my head.

He crouched infront of me, grabbing my face to examine the injury. "How did you do this..."

"Hit my head on the TV unit... so why you here?" I leaned into his hand. Even if I felt upset because of him, he was still the person I trusted the most.

"Did you actually cry because of me?"
"No... well yes—"

"I didn't mean what I said." He spoke, his voice losing its recent cold tone. "I don't know why I said it."

"It's fine! I'm over it." I smiled up at him, putting my fists on my hips in a superhero position.

"You're not." He deadpanned, seeing that I was a few words away from more tears.

"I am! It is the truth so i-i'm fine..." my voice became the quieter the more I spoke before I let my arms go limp aswell as my neck. "You're right..."

"How can I make it up to you?" He asked, changing positions to sitting.

"I don't know... just don't leave me. Ever." Underneath my eyes there were large black circles, making me look more serious than usual.

"Why would I leave you...?" He moved his hand on my head to my cheek.

"Because I'm such high maintenance." I leaned into his touch, closing my eyes.

"Yeah but it's worth it when you love someone..."

I froze at that, my eyes shooting open and I sat up straight. "You love me?"

"Yes...? I feel like it was obvious." He mumbled the last part, remembering all the times he did things considered 'romantic.'

"Really?! You're not messing with me right?!" I took his shoulders into my hands, shaking him back and forth as if trying to pull the answer from him.

"Why would I mess around about that, now stop that." He grabbed my hands and pulled them off of him.

"I love you too!" I yelled, smiling like a kid in a candy store.

"I know."

My smile dropped. "If you knew why didn't you tell me?"

"Because it's not a very nice conversation to have." He grimaced.

I raised an eyebrow. "Saying that you love me back?"

"Yes. It's awkward."
"Right now is awkward?"
"Yes."

I felt a lightbulb flicker above my head. "What if we kissed?"

"No. That's even more awkward." He scrunched up his nose in disgust.

My cheeks puffed out in irritation. He noticed that and squished my cheeks, making my lips pucker like a... "Like a pufferfish..."

"WHAT?! DONT COMPARE ME TO A FISH!"

"You look like a fish though."

I sighed, accepting my fate. "So will you be my boyfriend or did you tell me that to ruin my life..."

"I thought I already said I was." His eyebrows furrowed.

"No? You said that you love me an—"

"Yeah, I said I was, see." He cut me off.

"That's not how that works... wait I'm smarter than you at something?!" I gasped, my eyes lighting up in obvious joy.

"I can say no..."
"Wait no! I'm sorry..."

"Good." He took his hands off of my face and patted my head. "Do you want some food."

"Can you kiss me?"
"Why..."

"I don't know, I've never been kissed on the lips before. I wanna know what it's like and you said you love me back so... if its alright with you..."

"I guess I also wanna know so okay." He mumbled, his face slightly red once again.

He moved his hand to my chin tilting it up. I think he was sick of bring slow and he just pulled me into a rough but also nice kiss.

He pulled back and turned away immediately in seemingly embarrassment.

I scooted closer to him and smirked. "Hehe, are you embarrassed RinRin?"

"No."
"You aree...!"
"I'm not."
"You are though!"

"Okay fine I am but shut up it makes it worse." He grimaced.

"RinRin I'm hungry..."
"Seriously? I did offer you food."
"Well i want it noww..."

"Jesus christ, you're a pain." He grumbled under his breathe.

"So mean?!"

Note: shit chapter but I rewrote so many times and I cannot stand writing another 1.5k word chapter after 4 failed attempts

I hope this makes sense I'm just very tired since its 3am and I have school so bye bye