Okay so this os is basically a request by shilpi87.❤️
This starts after that weekend ka vaar where sana was demanding to leave the show and salman sir scolded her too but after that he came inside hugged her and went outside but we saw that Salman sir showed the clips of the housemates hitting each other for fun purpose but how it was looking wrong outside so he told to keep themselves in control and where he showed that clip too where sana slapped Sid so many times hardly but siddharth didn't minded it but salman sir said to them to keep their hands in control. Even if they were doing it as fun it looked bad outside. So this starts from when sana was normal again but she became a soft target and easy target for everyone after that weekend ka vaar thing. (I haven't watched that episode as i boycotted that episode just i have saw a few sidnaaz moments that's it so it's completely imagination don't try to connect it with the real episode as i have completely no idea about what happened in the episode)❤️
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Sana was sitting on the garden sofa alone hugging her knees with a blanket over her thinking about all the events that happened today.

"Salman sir se disrespect se baat ki bhot bura lag raha hai maine mafi to maang li aur unhone maaf bhi kar diya hai but still regret to ho raha hai mujhe bhot mujhe nahi karna chahiye tha aisa but kya Karun wo ek lafz us ek lafz se meri bhot buri yaadein judi hui hai"

"Kisiko nahi pata hai lekin jab meri Himanshi ke saath controversy hui thi tab Himanshi ke support mai pura punjab tha aur mere support mai koi nahi tab uske supporters mere dm mai comments mai har jagah mujhe jealous insecure ye sab kehte the aur is wajah se mai dedh saal tak depression mai thi zinda laash ban gayi thi bhot mushkil se khud ko sambhala Maine"

"Yaha mujhe logo ne bhot kuch bola characterless physcho obsessed one sided lover cheap flipper aur pata nahi kya kya but still maine kabhi unhe dil par nahi liya aur sare tags ko Haske accept kiya par bas ye ek lafz ye ek shabd jise mai accept nahi kar sakti yaar na jaane kitni raatein akele baith kar royi hoon mai is shabd ki wjah se aur ye log use mazaak samajhte Hain"
Sana thought all this when siddharth came to her and sat beside her handing her a mug of tea which sana politely quietly accepted. They both were sipping their tea and there was a uncomfortable silence between them so Siddharth broke the silence.

"Sana ab bhi us sab ke bare mai soch rahi hai kya" siddharth asked politely looking at her while sana nodded no with a straight face and again started sipping her tea.

Siddharth took the cup from her hands and kept their mugs on the table and laid down on the sofa taking sana in his arms. He knew sana needed someone to comfort her and only he can comfort her. Sana hugged him tightly and started sobbing in his chest.

Siddharth was caressing her hair and was patting her head softly and he let her cry so that she don't feel heavy inside.

"Sana baby baat karna hai share karna hai" siddharth asked lovingly

"Abhi nahi aise hi rehna hai please" sana said sobbing cutely while siddharth nodded yes and hugged her more tightly covering them with a quilt.

After a few minutes siddharth could feel that her sobs have become quite he looked at her to see her sleeping cutely with creases on her forehead so siddharth kissed her forehead affectionately and the creases faded away.

Siddharth carefully took himself out of her grip and went inside taking their cups and went inside to set their bed so that he could make sana sleep there but as soon as he left sana opened her eyes yes she was pretending to be asleep. She sat up on the sofa quietly thinking

"Siddharth bhot acha hai usne bhot kiya hai mera Mera itna khyal rakhta hai mujhe itna jhela hai usne par usne ye sab kiya kyun ki vo mujhe apna best friend maanta hai aur mai in sab ko pyaar samajh rahi thi aur usse pyaar kar baithi"

"Usne mere saath khul ke 2 baatein kya kar li mai uspe haq samajh baithi siddharth Apne sab dosto ka aise hi saath deta hai arti ne bhi bataya tha ki vo apne close friends ki bhot care karta hai aur is Ghar mai uski sabse achi dost mai hoon isliye vo mera itna khyal rakhta hai aur mai in sab ko pyaar samajh rahi thi"

"Par ab kya karun ab to hogaya pyaar lekin mai siddharth ke upar apni feelings force nahi kar sakti vo mujhe sirf dost maanta hai to mujhe bhi usse ek dost Jaise hi behave karna hai kuch aur nahi vo itna bada celebrity hai itna jaana maana naam hai aur maine national television pe uspe hath uthaya usne mujhe Kuch nahi kaha par mujhe pata hai bahar uski reputation hai aur salman sir ne bhi to aaj yahi kaha na ki bahar ye sab acha nahi lagta to logo ko meri aur siddharth ki nazdeekiyan bhi galat lagti hongi aur Mai nahi chahti ki siddharth ki game meri wjah se weak pad jaye aur uska naam kharab ho"

"Mujhe usse door hona hoga chahe kuch bhi ho jaye mujhe usse dur hone padega jaanti hoon mushkil hai par yahi sahi hai uske liye bhi aur mere liye bhi haan yehi sahi hai"
Sana wiped her tears thinking all this. Siddharth came there to see a lost in thoughts sana. He stood in front of her
"Sana chale andar bhot late hogaya hai sona Nahi hai" siddharth said

"Nahi Siddharth vo aaj mai yaha akele sona chahti hoon please" sana said making a excuse

"Abe chal na yaar kyun dimaag kharab kar rahi hai chal na" siddharth said trying to pull her but sana took her hand back and said
"Hamari nazdeekiyan theek nahi hai siddharth salman sir ne kaha tha na aaj ki hame thoda control rakhna hoga to i think hame dur ho jana chahiye taki ye bahar galat na lage mai nahi chahti ki meri wajah se tera naam kharab ho ya teri image kharab ho" sana said not meeting his eyes while siddharth was standing shocked seeing this avatar of sana

"Ye sab kya bakwaas hai sana kya bole ja rahi hai tu Kuch pata hai tujhe" Siddharth asked not being able to believe his ears

" Mujhe ache se pata hai siddharth mai kya bol rahi hoon aur yahi theek bhi hai hame ab alag ho jana chahiye Jaise ham bakio ke saath rehte hain vaise hi ek dusre ke saath bhi rehna Chahiye" Sana said in a straight voice making Siddharth's heart broken. He could not believe her.

Siddharth pulled sana and made her stand and held her by her shoulders holding her shoulder tightly.

"Tu sach mai yeh chahti hai ki ham alag ho jaye haan sana" Siddharth asked in a heavy voice while sana just nodded in yes. Siddharth gripped her shoulders more tightly and asked in a high voice

"I need words sana this is not some joke meri aankhon mai dekh kar bol"

Sana knew she was hurting him but she was ready to hurt him more if it was for his welfare. She gathered courage and looked in his eyes and said

"Haan mai chahti hoon ki ham alag ho jayein"

"Tere liye itna asaan hai yeh mujhse dur ho jana ya mujhe khudse dur kar dena bol sana jawaab de tu reh paegi mujhse dur hoke" siddharth asked in a cracking voice

"Aasan to Nahi hai par kabhi na kabhi to ye hona hi tha na siddharth to aaj hi kyun nahi haina" sana said

"Matlab tune ye pehle se decide karke rakha tha ki tu mujhe khudse dur karegi right tu chahti thi mujhe hurt karna Jaise maine tujhe kiya tha tujhe bhi badla lena tha na wow shehnaz kaur gill wow maan gaye kya sahi gamer ho yaar tum to"  siddharth said clapping his hands slowly. Sana knew he was misunderstanding her intentions but if that's what makes him hate her then she's ready to take his hate also. Sana tried to say something but siddharth looked at her and said

"Agar tu yahi chahti hai to yahi sahi aajse tu mere khilaf mai tere khilaf aajse no sidnaaz only siddharth and shehnaz alag alag abse na meri tujhse koi emotional attachment aur nahi meri tujhse aajse tu meri dushman aur mai tera only game from now only game good bye shehnaz good bye" siddharth said with tears in his eyes and left from there and shehnaz fell on her knees crying out loud.

"I am sorry siddharth I'm really sorry mai ye nahi karna chahti par ye karna bhot jaroori hai mai jaanti hoon tera sapna hai ye trophy ye tittle aur mai teri kamzori banke tere is sapne ke beech nahi aana chahti I'm sorry mujhe maaf kar dena please" sana said crying

Here siddharth was laying on their bed, his bed 💔 and was thinking about her words
"Aisa kaise kar sakti hai vo kaise mujhe khudse dur kar sakti hai hamesha mai uski sunta hoon uski bakwaas sunke bhi kuch react nahi karta par aaj to had hi hogayi mai maanta hoon vo abhi tensed hai stressed hai par iska matlab ye nahi haina ki vo Kuch bhi bolegi aur mujhe hurt karegi"

"Kya matlab uska ki hamari nazdeekiyan theek nahi hai agar dur hi jaana tha to itna kareeb aayi hi kyun thi agar dil todna hi tha to is dil mai jagah banayi hi kyun agar haath chhodna hi tha to thama hi kyun"

"Vo aisa kaise Soch sakti hai ki vo bhi mere liye bakio ke jaisi hai baki mere dost hai par vo to mohabbat hai meri pyaar kiya hai maine usse jaanta hoon maine kabhi confess nahi kiya par vo isliye kyun mai yaha kuch nahi kehna chahta i wanted to make it special for both of us but usne ye sab kehkar sab Kuch mitti mai mila diya"

"Kaha to usne bhi kabhi clearly nahi ki vo mujhse pyaar karti hai par mai uski aankhon mai vo pyaar dekh sakta hoon vo pyaar padh sakta hoon fir vo kyun nahi dekh pati meri aankhon mai Apne liye pyaar feelings care emotions kyun nahi feel kar pati"

"Nahi sana is baar nahi is baar tune mujhe bhot jyda hurt kiya hai you broke my heart is baar to mai tujhe itni aasani se maaf nahi karunga maaf is bar bhot hurt kiya hai tune tujhe bhot manana hoga is baar moti ab to neend bhi nahi aari iske bina kya karun yaar haan uska dusra blanket jo maine chupa ke rakha tha aisi situation ke liye vo odh leta hoon shayad tab neend aa jaye"

Siddharth took her blanket out and hugged her pillow covering himself but he wasn't able to sleep without glancing at her for once, he went out to see sana sleeping on the garden area bed hugging his t shirt tightly close to her heart and her blanket was not over her but on the floor.

Siddharth moved his head in disappointment and covered her nicely with the blanket and caressed her forehead

"Mujhe khudse dur bhi karna hai aur fir meri t shirt ko hug karke bhi sona hai kya Karun mai tera Moti. Kab samjhegi tu meri feelings kab tak khud ko aur mujhe hurt karti rahegi meri jaan" siddharth kissed her forehead and went back to his bed looking at her for the last time.

They both were so close yet so far. They both needed each other but their minds over powered their hearts.

She thought that her being with him is his weakness but little did she knew that she was his biggest strength.

He wanted to tell her that he is the strongest when she's with him but her words pierced his heart and he kept mum.

He wanted her to understand his unsaid feelings but here she was still figuring out did she even deserve him.

Sometimes you yourself don't know what you're doing or what you have done. You let your mind overpower your heart knowing that it's gonna make you REGRET.

Next part coming up tomorrow maybe that will be the last part as it's just a two shots.

shilpi87 do tell me how is it

I don't know if i did justice to their emotions or not but i tried

Fan fic will be updated by tonight and this will be updated tomorrow

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