Dear me,

You thought being alone brings you solitude. But you didn't know that being alone and being lonely are two different things.
Now, you're lonely. It's your fault. You shouldn't be clingy, and shouldn't expect anything from anyone. You shouldn't forget that you're supposed to be there for everyone, without expecting them to be there for you.
How could you be so selfish?

You're the harbour. Ships will always dock at the harbour, they'll feel safe there. But they won't stay at the harbour forever. They'll leave, they'll go on their own routes, for important tasks and people. You are not important. You just exist. You're supposed to make everyone feel heard, loved and important.

It doesn't matter if you feel unheard, unloved and unimportant. You don't matter.

I know everything and everyone makes you feel like that. I know it's difficult. Please hold on a little. Hold on just for your dreams, just for what you want to achieve. Because when you've achieved something, people will love you. Even if it'll be fake, it'll be better than what you have now. You will matter someday, to someone. Even if it will be fake.

Just until then.

Yours truly,
Kim Namjoon