After yesterday's disappointment i have locked in my room just thinking about everything , it all seemed impossible and i felt like my head was about to explode.

" It felt like everything was going to be solved i don't understand" Fahriye was also furious about the situation , she was very happy at first but later on when she found out she completely changed .

" It doesn't mean no it's just that we have to wait" i said trying to make it look normal before i go crazy from overthinking .

" Mahidevran sultan would do whatever it takes to take him away from you .. i just know" she said putting down the dresses she was folding " Trust me your highness , the first thing she would do once she's in manisa is search for another grandson .. it will not work in your favour"

" But , i am marrying him for love not to battle with other women who'd get a son first" i stated but asked at the same time , it was confusing how things worked here

" It's not the same here , having a prince is everything . even if you're married to him . you have to birth a son , a crown prince" this was all unsettling and i had a hard time digesting it.

" Mahidevran sultan without mustafa is nothing .. this is a truth your highness , this has to be quick before sehzade mustafa has a son from another woman  " i thought deeply about this and i felt the anger take over me once again.

Their logic was absolutely horrendous , instead of giving women their true value they just use them to have kids . i didn't even want to think about this anymore , it made me sick .

"This is the difference between her and hurrem sultan , look at them now . Mahidevran sultan no matter her status or her bad relationship with his majesty she still holds the winning cards , she has the advantage that not even hurrem sultan can dream of" She was right , it was the main reason why they hated each other , both had something that the other one didn't .

I supposed that Mustafa was still grounded in some way in his room , the only thing he could do was go to his training and come back but i wanted to see him , i wanted comfort , i wanted him to tell me everything is going to be alright but now everyone was against us and this idea , i am sure that by now everyone in the palace knows .

Suddenly someone knocked on my door revealing a girl with a letter on her hand , she bowed down to me and handed it to Fahriye while whispering something to her .

" What is it ?" i asked trying to catch a glimpse of the letter in her hands , she smiled and handed it to me " His highness has sent it to you" i smiled , he thought the same thing as me .

She handed me the letter and i didn't hesitate to open it and read it .

My heart is the one that wrote this , i didn't even had to think twice about writing . you know that i can't go out freely and much worse see you after what happened , but i am willing to cross everything for you . i crossed the sea and borders but now i am crossing my parents will , Meet me at the secret garden . Yahya will bring you here so you don't get lost as every second without you is a torment"

I closed the letter and put it down , i knew that by now my face was red and the biggest smile was written in my face . Fahriye sat down next to me and asked me for permission to read it .

By the time she finished it , i was already serious now . "Your highness .. this is beautiful , i don't think anyone would walk out and leave this love behind" she shyly said closing the letter and putting it in my hands .

" You have to go , don't hesitate or think twice » she said looking at my eyes with so much determination . « I will » i said smiling and getting up from my seat

I quickly looked at myself in the mirror , everything could be erased but not the smile i had on my face . I opened the door and indeed saw a guard there who accompanied me to meet with Yahya .

After walking a little bit between hallways , we stopped in one where yahya was standing . I approached him and looked around not recognising this corner .

«  Your highness » He whispered while extending his arm for me « I am here to escort you to the prince , if you may go this way » he guided me towards a narrow alley , i followed him inside .

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He couldn't do it , he just couldn't . his devotion and his determination to assist his prince was so much more important to him and not less than securing the golden throne to him .

Yahya was ordered by Mahidevran sultan to get rid of Princess Stella without anyone knowing or just invent something to indicate that she left and gave up on everything .

He recalled the helplessness and pain of Mahidevran sultan , the call of help to get rid of Stella whom she considered as a simple distraction giving that she was bringing only problems and disasters upon their heads

But he knew , he knew way more than anyone else how much the prince loved her , he didn't want to hurt his prince and disappoint him . Because he knew how much it would damage him and hurt him , he didn't want to kill the princess nor make her dissapear .

Yahya was the only one who saw that she gave him strength and determination to give more , to do more and be a better man and a powerful prince . But they didn't think so , at least not his parents or his brothers .

The only one that was fond of this was Hurrem sultan because it served her just right , she thought stella was the missing puzzle piece in her game . Bring her in to the game to distract the enemy and strike at the given opportunity .

Yahya looked at the princess one last time and brushed these thoughts away from his head , he couldn't do it . he wasn't ready to hurt her because it would damage the prince more than anyone else so he let her go see him . Hoping that he wouldn't regret this

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I followed yahya , feeling like a kid all over again . i recalled when i used to prepare to play with mustafa weeks prior before he visited , the same excitement came back to me now .

Yahya opened the secret door by pushing the wall , leading to another path but a short one . until my vision became clear , my eyes couldn't believe the beauty of the garden

I walked in admiring the beauty of it , the scenery was insanely beautiful. Before i could approach a flower dangling from the tree , i felt someone touch my shoulder .

« You're here » i heard mustafa said making me turn around , i felt like my heart was about to explode when i saw him . He stirred my heart in a very good way.

« I am , and you are here too . There is no way you'd call for me and i wouldn't come » he admired me slowly taking my words into consideration before reach his hand out to touch my cheek .

« My springtime , my merry faced love The most beautiful among the beautiful , My constantinople , My camaran the earth of my Anatolia . My Badakhshan , My baghdad and Khorasan » I could immediately recognise this poem , the poem his father wrote under the name of Muhibbi , his pen name .

He looked at me with so much love and affection, i saw my whole universe in his eyes .

« I should have spoken with you yesterday but it was very complicated for me to do so , you already know about the tight supervision . I told them i was going to train just to see you » I laughed , but quickly regained my seriousness again .

« I know .. it's all my fault don't try to defend me here . I have made a terrible mistake bringing you into my problems » I said feeling sorry for what he was experiencing because of me .

« I don't regret , i don't regret any of what i did and if you would put me back in the past i would do the same thing all over again . I will owe up to the consequences of my actions , you did nothing because i willingly came for you » He brushed my cheek gently as he explained what he was thinking .

" I just want this to be over , i want you to go back to Manisa and resume building the future you've always dreamed of" i grabbed his other hand and intertwined our hands.

"If i leave , i don't want to leave without you . there is no future for me if you're not in it" I smiled , he knew how to word himself just right .

" I won't give up on you , i don't know what the outcome will be but promise me that we're going to make it work together  no matter what life throws our way" i said holding my pinky finger , last time he was the one who told me this and asked me to promise him but now , it was my turn .

" I won't , and you know that. even if you leave or decide to go back to your brother i would chase you and if not i'll start showing up in your dreams" i was taking him serious until he finished his sentence .

I sighed feeling relieved , knowing that both of us were in the same page . i looked around me and walked towards the railing who gave us the perfect view of the sea .  I grabbed his hand and put it on the railing

"How did you find this spot ? i feel like i'm missing out on so many places here" i said looking down at the scenery .

"I've lived here too long , but actually this garden was built my ancestor . a very special one , Sultan mehmet . it was his favourite place to be and now only the royal family gets to come here and whoever steps here without permission gets executed " my eyes widen at his words " don't look at me like that , you're my special guest"

" You almost had me there" i laughed feeling relieved "it's really pretty , thank you" i said feeling thankful that he was willing to show me around .

" i can build you one that's much better" he teased and i immediately gave him a confused look " well you better keep your word , i don't play when it comes to stuff like this" i said jokingly .

We both stared at the scenery infront of us , it was honestly relaxing and peaceful. for the first time in a while i felt like i was home .

Mustafa suddenly wrapped his arm around my shoulder pulling me close , i put my head on his shoulder and hugging his waist .

"I wish we could stay like this forever" i looked up and laughed "you'd get bored of me" he shook his head .

" I want god to blind me from both eyes if i think like this" i jokingly hit his chest " don't say that again" he put a hand on his chest acting like it hurt .

" You're really discarding my gentleman card here » he said putting his free arm on his pocket . « I am afraid this will be the last time we see each other in a while » i looked up at him confused , my body immediately started to feel numb .

« What ? how ? why ? »i asked a lot of questions at once making me untangle from his grip at once .

« I am leaving for Manisa tomorrow , my father has ended my punishment and sent me back and i know for sure who is behind this , they want to separate me from you »

My heart shattered , it was discarded and was no longer able to function properly.

« Why didn't you tell me ? I - I what willl i do ? » I said starting to feel the panic rush through my veins « I didn't want to ruin this moment but i wanted you to know »

He looked at me this time cupping both my cheeks raising my head slowly « I wanted to enjoy this moment with you one last time before i take you forever . And i promise i won't come back if i am not coming for you , god curse me if i do so » I fought back my tears and the sadness that was suffocating me .

« Don't , don't cry . don't you let those pretty eyes of yours shed a tear , please don't torment me and let this be the last memory i have of you here »i tried to fight my tears back , i felt upset but i didn't want to ruin his memory .

« Look , don't cry i will be back for you . you said it yourself and i stand by my word , i will come back for you wherever you are » he kissed my forehead for a long time before looking at me again .

« I will , i will wait but don't dissapear. if you stop sending me letters i would just assume you forgot about me and  go mad okay ? » i asked still trying to hold back the pain i was feeling .

« Yes , absolutely you just wait that's the only thing i ask for » he kissed my cheek while wiping away the few teardrops i shed at the beginning .

« This will be our goodbye , i have to leave and i suppose i will not see you tomorrow » i hugged him , really tight knowing that this will be our last meeting .

« My very own queen , my everything , my beloved , my bright moon . My darling with that lovely hair , brows curved like a bow , eyes that ravish : I am ill » He broke the hug and stared down at me fixating his eyes on mine .

« If i die : yours is the guilt . Help I beg you my love from a different religion/Muhibbi . »

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