After fahriye finished brushing my hair , i had my breakfast inside my room . I was mentally preparing myself for what was awaiting me especially when it comes to questions , i just hoped this subject would be closed at once and that no one would be ask me about what happened .

" You should see how devastated Mahidevran sultan was , especially when she didn't get any news from his highness . You better not come across her because she will not be so kind" Fahriye was trying to warn me about his mother , since he was her only child she would be mad about it and i didn't blame her .

"I don't think i will ever see her , i guess they're leaving to Manisa if i'm right" i said after swallowing the food .

Fahriye looked over from what she was doing and responded "You're right but you never know" she said resuming her activities .

Before i could ask her about what she means my door opened without a single notice , i immediately looked at the door and found Mahidevran sultan standing at the entrance .

Fahriye immediately bowed down to her and left the room leaving us both together .

" Your highness ?" i said confused on why she barged inside my room uninvited and why she had the furious expression on her face.

" Princess Stella" she spelled my name with such a sharp tone, i stood up from my seat and walked towards her giving her a head bow from respect .

" I am not here to exchange a lot of words with you but i want you to keep my son away from your personal problems" she warned with such attitude " He has a future ahead of him and i won't let you ruin it , you will go away one day but he" she came closer .

"He has to stay , he has to be on top and not do such silly mistakes . Even worse for a woman" i felt disrespected for a reason but i kept listening to her

" Sultana , you got everything wrong . I don't intend to ruin Mustafa's future or anything" she interrupted me and raised her hand to stop me from saying anything.

" He shouldn't risk his life , he crossed borders with enemies for you . This alone is a big mistake, Leave him alone and we will be fine" I stayed there baffled from her words but at the same time i understood her .

I didn't want to fight her back or say anything , she had the right to be angry at me but her choice of words was what i didn't like .

She gave me one last look and stepped out from my room leaving me there standing confused

" Your highness" Fahriye entered the room few moments after and closed the door behind her . " Şehzade mustafa wants to see you"

I raised my eyebrow still processing what happened but immediately snapped back to reality when i heard her speak .

" Here ? Now ?" i got surprised by his sudden visit , she nodded and grabbed the door handle .

Before i could get time to say anything else , he walked in . Something about him was mesmerising and i still couldn't point it out

" Your highness" i smiled when i saw him , he approached me with a little smile and put both of his hands behind his back .

"How have you been? did you get some rest" he asked not taking his eyes off of mine , i chuckled at his question .

" I should be the one asking you , you're wounded" i looked at him and he looked away before meeting my eyes again " You're right , i am good you can say i'm a professional at hiding my injuries"

" What happened after i left yesterday ?" i asked hoping i was not too intrusive or straightforward, but he gladly answered .

"It's complicated .." He sighed but then proceeded to shake his head in disbelief " I will stay here , you can say that i was banned for some time from Manisa due to my reckless behaviour" I felt a pain in my chest when i heard this .

He suddenly put his hand on my forearm making me break the eye contact we were holding .

" Before i can hear your apologies , don't think it's your fault and this is the last time we talk about this okay ?" I was forced to nod and move on with what he was saying .

" I will stay here for a long time i think , well at least until my fathers anger cools down but i will try and restore his trust little by little" It felt like i ruined everything for him especially when i know how much he loved governing in Manisa .

I couldn't say the word sorry again , i had to help him fix this . whatever it took , even if it meant staying away from him .

« You're right , you should definitely focus on yourself now . And it's better if we just stop seeing each other , it's only going to bring you trouble » He looked surprised and pulled his hand away from me .

« Why are you saying that ? » he backed away a little bit and chuckled in disbelief « Did someone tell you something ? » I immediately said no .

« Then why ? i don't understand why are you are pushing me away ? » He was way too straightforward with his questions i didn't know what to answer .

« I'm not , i'm just talking in general . You should focus on yourself not me , i can fix my problems and i'm leaving soon , there is no need for us to » he interrupted me looking offended by what i said .

« Don't say that , you're not leaving . I can't » i looked at him dumbfounded by his words « I mean - it's not the right time to do so »

« But at the end i'm leaving we shouldn't even be talking , forget about me and just focus on your ambitions . I'm serious Mustafa , ever since you were a child you've always wanted to be brilliant and i don't want to be a burden to you » He kept listening to me «  Focus on being a good prince and don't fall into problems for me anymore , don't do anything for me anymore »

He stared at me blankly , he didn't have the words to say nor the expressions to give .

«  I don't understand you , are you being serious ? Are you being blind or you're just being dismissive about everything ? » He asked again way too straightforward, i dodged his question by asking another thing .

« So you're telling me that you prefer disappointing your parents ?" i had to be harsh , i wanted to push him away as much as i can and i didn't care how mean i sounded .

" You're being .. You're not speaking for yourself here . You don't mean what you're saying that's why i will leave" He stepped back and turned his back on me .

"Please .. don't make it as hard as it already is" he said in a low tone and left my room .

I had to reject whatever he had in his heart to protect him , he can't . he shouldn't and won't ever be with me , i was distracting him from his duties and ruining his life it was for the better that i step back and reflect on everything .