a week ago, on valentines day, I sent a video to my crush. i've put the video in the media box for you to watch if you want.
i've kind of explained this situation in another book, but here's a quick little synopsis of everything:

last year, my and my friends were walking down a hallway in school to get to the busses to leave. this group of three guys in our grade who are friends and popular, are walking by us. on of the friends taps me on the shoulder and points to the middle guy, who is the most popular in their group. 'he has a crush on you' he says, and the middle guy tells him to shut up and looks embarrassed.
confused, I say '... ooookay...?' and I heavily doubt he likes me. fast forward a few days and we're walking the same way, but a bit farther down the way to the busses. the group of friends were a few meters in front of us, and one looks back and sees me. he tells the middle guy, and after looking back again, he gets all scared or something. he kinda had a mini little freak out i guess.

this is getting lengthy, so during the summer I thought about it and the circumstances. I came to the conclusion that he most likely actually had a crush on me. now, the next school year, somehow i now have a crush on him. and we don't have any classes together and don't know each other at all. one time I offered him a mint during lunch, but he doesn't like mint. fast forward a few months and I know a few of his classes, sports he's in, and the general area where he lives. I think I make a good stalker, tbh lol. so on valentine's day I sent him that video and I don't know if he's even active, but he hasn't responded and i'm scared out of my mind.

I want to talk to him, but I don't have a reason to. also he knows kinda where I live so that's cool. The other week in the after school bus he sat like 3 seats ahead of me and kept looking back and I was scared! Most of the bus ride I stared at his hair when he wasn't looking at me.

it's just weird. idk.

my friends won't stop pestering me about who my crush is ;-;
i deal tho c:

alright, this was very long and basically explained my sad love life in 400 words.

I hope he sees it but also like-
Not

Because i'm scared.
😖😖😖

mm/dd/yy
02/21/20

UPDATE:
So I think that we're going to have online school for the rest of the school year but we're on Spring Break right now so I'm not sure. But this really sucks because I won't be able to see my crush and I think he's getting over me and noooooo
If only I wasn't a coward before I could've asked him out.
Damn it, 2020 why do you have to do this to me? Dumb Coronavirus.
Stay safe though! Wash hands before and after eating, coming in contact to something many people (probably strangers) touch, and after couching/sneezing.

uM I'm kinda mad and I have no way to contact my crush so I might as well tell my friends, but I think I have trust issues. you can't blame for it, if you had known what happened last year.

Idk, i just can't believe so many things are going to haywire right now.

i hope i can se him one last time. and that i can get my stuff from my locker before the school closes. i have my sister's sweatshirt in there and she doesn't know about it so...