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I was like a bitch in heat, all I could think about was getting to Odean. I could not wait to find my way to OD. If only Chrome would get off my ass. He was like a fucking silver tic the way he latch onto me.

My arrogant behavior and my curt bruising responses to his attempt to converse with me didn't phase him, he knew my intention and was not going to open any avenue for me to get it.

We were in the churchyard when I saw OD come from inside the church. I watch him like a lost, needy, lonely puppy looking at its potential savior.

I needed to get to him.

"I am going to the restroom," I said and walk away before Chrome could stop me.

It turned out that my little fib ended up being the truth much to my annoyance and it put a delay on my intent to walk up to the little group where he stood getting a little too cozy with Patrice for my liking.

I made to continue my march towards them when the need to pee intensified. I groaned and continue to the restroom. It took me a few minutes to get a stall and a few minutes too long as up on my return OD was back inside the church.

It however was not lost my purpose as I had stopped deliberately to hold conversation with a few mutual friends of Simone and I and in return it had given me the one thing I needed.

OD and DD were coming outside. I watch as OD helped DD towards their car that was parked in the church yard much to my annoyance. It would serve me better if they were parked outside of the church and out of Chrome's radar.

I hurried towards them purposefully and felt my determination falter after I acknowledge DD. His hard eyes were no match for my objective anyways. I had a purpose.

I realize however my purpose of having him to talk to in private was going to be futile as DD was hell bent on staying put and giving his unapreciated two bits.

I hurriedly get to the point but it did not warrant the result I required. Odean look coldly at me but I was too caught up in my feelings to care. I needed OD so much it took my all to stay reserve in my feelings.

DD took the moment to add his unwanted input and much to my annoyance Chrome found me and he too made it his point of duty to put a wrinch in plan. This causes my anger to escalate.

"Fuck yuh Chrome, an kiss mi ass DD," I shouted gaining the attention of those nearby. "Mi can fucking duh wid out unuh. A OD mi a talk to!"

"Listen best yuh move fra mi enuh Goodaz, mi nuh inna d game yuh a play yuh simmi," OD said bruisingly. "This fuckry naah guh cut it."

"Baby, I love you," I said stepping towards him. "Duh nuh b like dis OD," I begged with pleading eyes.

Chrome stood watching us a look of amusement on his face while DD seemed to be in awe of what was unfolding.

I realize we were gaining an audience so I turn to DD telling him we should leave so we could talk in private. He only step away leaving me there looking like a needy and pathetic fool.

It however did not stop my effort to have my way, my heart was craving him desperately. "Odean please stop, nuh duh dis to us mi love yuh!"

"Get a hold a yuh gyal my yute," he said to Chrome his anger rising his dismissal of me obvious.

I screamed at him not to walk away. I was making a spectacle of myself and I believe he thought it was some selfish intentional plot to gain what I sought, and yes he was right but not in the callous way he believe.

I felt Chrome gripped my arm as I made to follow after OD but it was my sister coming to take my other arm that calm me somewhat but it all went to hell when my cousin join us.

I wanted to blame someone for my misfortune so I unleash all my frustration on her calling her all sorts of name for telling Chrome it was his child.

"Dutty gyal taaappp!" she screamed as I gripped her by her wig and pull it forcefully.

Why should I get all the humiliation?

I held on firmer and pull with all my might and in her flailing effort to defend herself her hands reach for my throat. Her acrylic nails tangled themselves in my chain and send it plopping to the ground.

"Goodaz stop d fuckry," I heard my sister called to me but it was Chrome putting his arms about my waist a forcefully pulling me away from my weeping and degraded cousin that ended my fight.

But it was OD walking up to me fuming and raging that douse my spirit. His eyes were cold and filled with contempt as he spoke softly.

"Yuh is a selfish little bitch weh wi stoop low fi get wat she want an a oman like dat will neva av a place inna my life."

My mouth move to speak but nothing came out. The action only seem to fill him with revulsion and he shook his head and took a step away before saying.

"When yuh nuh respec yuh seh yuh cyaah respec nobody. Look wah yuh duh a Simone funeral hmmm, yuh cudn't even give her her final respec. It had to be about yuh."

"OD please...!"

"But yuh know wah dem seh if yuh nuh lie dung wid dawg flee cyaah bite yuh!"

The bruising remark causes me to slink against Chrome who I realize was holding me gently against him. The crowd that had gathered looked on as I watch Odean walk away my moment of getting what I desired was gone. I had lost.

"Yow Chrome tek are guh home fi mi nuh," my sister said and he gently lowered me to the ground and walk me through the crowd that parted to let us pass.

I did not know why I looked towards the church as we walked away but seeing Patrice standing there looking all demure and regal deflated me further.

What had Odean said?

"Yuh is a selfish little bitch weh wi stoop low fi get wat she want an a oman like dat will neva av a place in my life."

Patrice was the woman who would have the place that I craved but will never have. I wish I could blame her for my loss but I knew deep down I never had anything with OD other than what I gave and he took.

I made myself a convenience and he used it, he had not once given me a reason to believe we would have had more.

I got in the passenger seat after Chrome open the door before he closed it I look up at him and said.

"Yuh nuh affi duh dis enuh."

"Mi know, but mi child warrant mi dweet."

I slumped against the backrest of the car seat and my hand automatically went to my stomach. I knew then and there I was going to be the mother that my child deserves.

And maybe just maybe Chrome would be the father he needs...

Maybe all along I had what I needed but was too caught up in a want to realize all along. I look over at Chrome and memories of what we shared surface.

He gave me all the real that I would ever want and it took me almost losing it all to realize this.

Odean was never mine and never will he be.

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