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note/my story as an author:

so, umm... i don't know how to start lol. so, uhm, yeah.. as i mentioned in the last chapter, that i'll create a note like thing (which might be long) thanking all the readers who supported me until now, and all.

so, first off, a very big thanks to @limitlesssweetness for endless support. i remember when i first published this book just because i was bored and then ended up writing this whole shit and completing the book. i didn't see this day coming, at all.

my writing skills changed a lot since the first chapter, and i think you noticed that too. i once thought of editing these chapters so that it would be better, and i actually did for the first two chapters, but then i thought that it was a part of the process and that i shouldn't rewrite it. i'll let it be the way it is. what i want is following my passion and what i like, not readers. and tbh, i didn't even know i liked writing before i first published the book. i remember that just when i saw 5 readers on this book, i started working on the next chapter and i completed writing it in about 6 hours. and how i started off with those 5 readers, and now when this book is completed, it almost has 1k reads.... i didn't see that coming too.

i don't think i would've completed this book if i wouldn't have got this support; though it was mainly from just 2-3 people. even 1 person who's supporting you makes you feel so good that you couldn't even imagine. seeing all those genuine comments like "on a cliffhanger, again.
(┬┬﹏┬┬) but ig i can wait for the next chapter!!" makes you feel so good that only an author can understand... i'm speaking my heart out here that comments like "nice." and "you're good." don't satisfy us; atleast for me.

those hate comments which say "fuck you and your writing skills" and "who even told you to become an author? 💀" and all make you feel so... discouraged, unsatisfied with yourself, and more which makes you feel so shitty due to which the books are then put on hold or discontinued. it sounds hard but i think all the fellow authors out there should ignore such comments and go on with what they're doing. if you don't receive any hate or don't have any haters, you're doing something boring — and yes, it's good as long as you're enjoying what you're doing. just keep going with what you're doing!

and i'll be honest here, i've changed quite much eversince i became an author. so much that when i had to write flashbacks for certain chapters, i used to get myself ready for cringe 'cause i can't handle reading the old chapters of the book but again, it's a part of the process. everyone deserves a single chance, at least.

also, let me please talk about the beginning of the book. i know i rushed it all a lot, and i'm so sorry for it, and i think that's the reason the readers decreased from the second chapter but AGAIN! it's a part of the process. and looking at the brighter side, people will see how you went from this to that.

while i'm talking about it, i'll also say that this book is very special to me. not only bc it was my first book, but also because i've gained friends from the story (?). as people commented on the book, ofc i thanked them and all, and then we talked further and eventually became friends, and there are more reasons that if i'll talk abt them, y'all will get bored so i'ma just talk about other shit.

and if you want the story in detail, here's a paragraph i wrote in the book 'about me' in the q/a chapter.

[context: the question was "what inspired you to become a writer?"]

ah, this gon' be kinda long. my first ever book i wrote here is 'boy in luv' (old name of this book. i re-named it to 'soft yet possessive' later.), was started because i was "bored", and you'll notice that in the first few chapters, my writing skills weren't so good. wanna know the reason behind it? even if you said no, i'll tell you, i barely used wattpad and i opened wattpad for like, the 2nd or 3rd time when i wrote the first chapter of the book. thus, i had no idea that how to write. i somehow wrote the first chapter and published it. then the next morning, i opened wattpad, and i saw 5 reads on the book and i was so shook, i mean, ya gurl didn't expect that! yet, there weren't any votes, nor comments, but i was just satisfied with the 5 reads, yk. so i started writing the 2nd chapter, and i'll tell you, i started writing that chapter in the morning, and published it by early afternoon, and as much as i remember, the chapter was around 2000 (2000+. i just checked ;]) words. then, i started gaining more and more reads, and after a few days, i saw a bunch of notifs, around 15, which were a LOT for me, and i saw someone commented on my book and also voted. i told that to my cousin (she came to stay with me bc my mom wasn't home) who's also an army about it. she was suprised as well! i checked the notifs and it was all from the one who has asked the question, limitlessssweetness! so, i started writing more, and i lowkey liked it. then, it kinda became my hobby too, and here i am!

ngl, i'll miss writing this book sm. i already am. just how i used to spare some time just for writing a whole chapter or even if it was just 600 or 1000 words. i always tried my best to write good. if i didn't like the chapter, i used to delete the whole damn thing and re-write it with a different storyline. i haven't did that a lot though. just with 2 chapters, but still, these memories will be unforgettable.

and before i end this here, i again thank the people who supported me in any ways, and helped me improve by pointing out mistakes and correcting them. and now, a goodbye to this book. i hope the readers enjoyed it. and... uhm, yeah, goodbye, everyone! we bring this to an end. luv y'all 3000 💜✨

~your clown author.