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𝙍 𝙀 𝙈 𝙀 𝘿 𝙔

! chapter thirty-five ─── ʚĭɞ

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Miyeon didn't really understand what she was getting into when she agreed to wait for Seojun. She knew he had feelings for her and that she had feelings back, she knew they had kissed, she knew they were closer than they had ever been when Suho left to be by his father's side.

But in reality, she was waiting for him to get the courage to proceed with the advice that Juyoung - a sixteen year old - had given him upon being rejected by Gowoon.

The advice hadn't even been advice, just a passing comment that once thought about by Seojun and Miyeon, seemed to make sense. Juyoung had told Gowoon of his feelings and got rejected and because of that, he could move on.

It did make sense. By telling her about his feelings and being rejected, he knew that no matter what he had done his very best to end up dating her. She hadn't felt the same, so that brought about a peace of mind that at least he had asked her, even if it hadn't gone the way he hoped.

Apply that to the situation with Jugyeong and Seojun, and it seemed to be foolproof.

At least that what Miyeon had held onto for these years. Every so often, Seojun would mention it and she would push him to it. She had assumed that it would be easy once he had made up his mind to do it, because the two acted as if they were dating already, just without the kissing and the actual titles.

But seeing Seojun look so nervous and almost guilty, clearly not having been able to sleep properly for a few days and interrupting her before she could go about her early morning choreography practise before she would attend her various schedules for that day, Miyeon could easily tell it hadn't been quite so simple.

She vowed to keep her reaction to a minimum, to not let her expectations ruin this. Miyeon couldn't even be mad - she had been encouraging him to do this, so who was she to be upset that it hadn't gone the way she hoped.

Not everything could play through like the perfectly created scenario in her mind. Besides, it was about time her streak of good luck regarding big events in her life came to an end. She was sure she had used up all the luck she had for the rest of her life in the past few years, and if there was anything left, surely it should be saved.

Seojun was telling her that he had confessed his feelings. Forcing herself to be normal, Miyeon had told him that she was proud of him. Deep down, she really was - it had taken him a long time to feel confidence enough to tell her, and now he had done.

"So?" Miyeon forced the cheery tone she had originally greeted him with the play once again. "How did she react to you telling her?"

"What?" The Han boy was just as confused as she felt. Why was she so calm about this? Miyeon didn't even know the answer herself - perhaps she had spent so years forcing herself to remain calm in the face of certain situations that it was now her genuine reaction.

"How did she react - like did she know already.. was it totally unexpected to her, what was her reaction?" Miyeon was smiling a little now, although she didn't know why.

"I - er - well she didn't say anything at first, and I know she was feeling conflicted about Suho. But.. I asked her to see me as a man, and that she didn't have to give me her answer right away." Seojun finally replied, although his eyes kept flickering over to her as if he was expecting her to explode with emotions at some point.

If there was one thing Miyeon's mother had taught her, it was that she should save that sort of emotion for herself. It applied in all situations - for example if you were in a fight with someone, you would never let them know just how upset it left you, or let them have the satisfaction of knowing how angry they truly made you.

Miyeon felt like might explode from the tangle of emotions and confusion, but she wasn't even going to let Seojun see that. That would be too much of a mess for her to try and clean up. So even if it was bound to be awkward for a little while, she just needed to act normal with him.

"She agreed to go on three dates with me." Seojun followed with, and Miyeon couldn't help but let her smile slip a bit, eyebrows raising at the news. "So she can try and understand how she feels about me. If that's okay."

"Seojun - why wouldn't it be?" Miyeon swallowed. "I've encouraged you to do this since Suho left, and now with him mentioning coming back I'm sure you feel a little flustered to try and deal with it. So please enjoy them, and make sure Jugyeong does as well."

Of course, there was third party to think about as well - Jugyeong had a large role in this, even if she didn't realise it. And as Miyeon was her best friend, the Hwang girl had to make sure things weren't complicated for her her.

"Seojun. Listen to me." Miyeon tucked several curls of hair behind her ears. "You've waited to have the courage to do this, so don't worry about me. I knew this was going to happen eventually."

"But.." Seojun was honestly rather confused by it all. He didn't know whether Miyeon was being genuine or not - it was impossible to tell..

"Besides, I don't have the time right now to deal with feelings or have a relationship. So I think it really would be best for you to go on those dates and show Jugyeong that you can be a good boyfriend." Miyeon stood up from the bench, adjusting Chanmi's coat around her shoulders. "But thank you for telling me - excuse me if I don't manage to think about it or talk about it a lot for a while; next week is going to be really busy."

"That's fine." Seojun nodded. "Have fun at practise."

He remained seated as Miyeon walked off in the direction of the dorms. Her final sentence seemed to convey more emotion than she had done in the rest of the conversation.

That was the only scary thing for him about Miyeon. Someone with that much control over their emotions was far more dangerous than any other person.

Not only was Miyeon's reaction a reason for concern and confusion, but Seojun couldn't help but think it was so stupid of him to even tell Jugyeong. Because even if it was something he had been trying to do for several years now, it didn't feel right to be sat there and telling Miyeon about it, even if he knew she was going to support him no matter what.

Maybe it was that which made him feel so damn guilty.

❛ AUTHORS NOTE ━━ the timeline is going to be a little different from the two episodes, but basically the same things will happen just spread out a little further!