as usual i was staring outside's scenery but this time i am hanging out at my balcony.

"eventhough the snow drop makes tonight's sky cloudy, you still did shine. wait, i think i am wrong, you did outshine just by your own existence. it do amazes me how despite you outshine, i still looking forward for you. you're literally the moon that i am expecting every day and i am still just one of the stars that trying to amaze you but you have never realized it." i monologued, letting my feelings out by words.

"wow nice words, by a nice person." beomgyu said. "i don't have any idea you are good with words. new for me." he continued and proceeded to lean on the balcony railing.

"it's just my random thoughts." i answered. "random you said? i can not even think straight when it's random and you said you always have amazing stuffs in your head? i'm amazed." he replied.

"i think you can get out from my room, i feel like i want to sleep now." i gave him an excuse, i can feel my heart started wrecking. "so sudden? are you avoiding me? again?" he uttered. "tomorrow's christmas, forgot?" i asked simply, an excuse.

"no i don't, but i know for sure you're avoiding me." he firmed with his words. "do you understand what did i said to myself just now?" i asked genuinely curious. he nodded and shrugged "i guess".

"can i sleep with you tonight?" he suddenly questioned. what? i thought. "no..?" i said.