♯ ❚ ❜ trauma
❪ noun ❫
plural noun: traumas
1 ── a deeply distressing or disturbing experience.
2 ── the things which sirius and regulus black used to fight together, holding the other close because they knew their dear brother was safe.

── " say you're there when i feel helpless. "
" if that's true, why don't you help me? " ──
── " it's my fault, i know i'm selfish. "

♯ ❚ ❜ summary

in which two brothers who were once inseparable slowly drift apart.

where sirius and regulus black are just boys, tossed into the arms of a mother who doesn't know affection and have to survive their dark surroundings with nothing but each other.

but then,
an owl with a letter in its clutches flies in; new, unlikely friendships and families are formed whilst wars grow to become deadly times; and during it all, that brotherly bond that was once so strong and precious is shattered, like their mother's favourite vase.

── " stand alone, my soul is jealous. "
" it wants love, but i reject it. " ──
── " trade my joy for my protection. "

♯ ❚ ❜ cast

" the elder brother " ── played by
ben barnes.
❛ run along now, reggie. go sobbing back to mummy! ❜

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" the younger brother " ── played by
timothée chalamet.
❛ you'll never be a real black, sirius. not like this. ❜

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" the extremist mother " ── played by
eva green.
❛ traitorous little child! how dare you! ❜

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young!sirius black
played by louis partridge.
young!regulus black
played by lucas zumann.
james potter
played by adarsh jaikarran.
remus lupin
played by jaden smith.
peter pettigrew
played by lewis capaldi.
lily evans
played by sophie skelton.
dorcas meadowes
played by lupita nyong'o.
mary macdonald
played by sofia bryant.
alice fortescue
played by maia mitchell.
frank longbottom
played by jim sturgess.
marlene mckinnon
played by alicia vikander.
severus snape
played by louis garrel.
orion black
played by colin firth.
andromeda black
played by keira knightley.
ted tonks
played by james mcavoy.
bellatrix black
played by katie mgrath.
narcissa black
played by natalie dormer.

...and all other characters
as described.

── " grab my hand, i'm drowning. "
" i feel my heart pounding. " ──
── " why haven't you found me yet? "

♯ ❚ ❜ warnings & disclaimers

── i do not own any of the characters that will appear in this story, all credits go to she who must not be named. the writing, however, is completely mine.

── credits for the lyrics and title go to nf and their song "trauma".

── there will be mentions of blood, death, war, emotional and physical abuse, as well as vulgur language. please do not read if you're uncomfortable with any of the things listed, or anything similar.

── please do not steal or copy this book and/or its layout here or anywhere else without permission. i put a lot of time into this and it's honestly horrible seeing others take credit for your work.

── lastly, i've been wanting to write a marauders fic for quite a while now and i honestly wouldn't have thought of this had it not been for the video below (credits to it and the owner). watch it if you'd like, i literally ended up crying.

── " i hold you so proudly. "
" traumas, they surround me. " ──
── " i wish you'd just love me back. "

♯ ❚ ❜ a/n & dedications

okaylupins hmumoony BURKHQRT WCLFSTQR imaginaryfire hmulupin pqdfoots merveille- V0IDARGENT chapmansmoony enchantedstiles Storiez0

so, hi?? this is my first hp fic and i'm looking very forward to writing it, even if it'll just be a memory kind of thing. i'm thinking, maybe i'll make another book linked to this one, but some other character? i'm not sure yet, but yeah. i'd really appreciate it if yous could give this book a shout out <3

thank you for reading, i hope you enjoy !

also, yes i know the current cover is crap. i'll make a better one later.