11/04 - 11/06 weekend

i should probably but up a tw but
i didn't even think about it on
the last two rants, oop 💀

[ tw : anxiety mentions ]

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okay so my church has a woman's retreat every year in the first two weeks of November so this years was the first weekend. & so my mom & i decided to go this year, we went for the first time a few years ago so this would be our second time going.

we left friday afternoon, at like 5pm & got there a bit after 7pm, we were a bit late but that's fine since they just do get-to-know each other openers things i can't remember the name of them for the sake of me, anyway. so we put our stuff in our rooms & get down to business, it was a good question this time. we had to get their names & guess their shoe size. i got most of them wrong 💀😂 but it was fun nonetheless. also my mother had the funniest idea that our pastors wife should do next year for the opener, she should ask the people for their bra sizes 💀😂😂

but never mind on that but so we go through the weekend fine!! except my stomach hurting 😣😫😭 but other than that, it went so well!!

OH & it was in the beautiful mountains 🏔 in beautiful Estes Park !!

i apparently didn't have the anxiety i have when i'm at home with the parents. the way i could tell was bc when we got home, it came crashing back & i definitely didn't feel it when i was up in the mountains even with my stomach pain.

i told my parents one day, a few days ago, that they give me anxiety & my dad goes, no one gives you anxiety blah blah, so am i right though?? can/do people give you anxiety?? bc i definitely can tell when my dad/mom or both are home i have a sinking feeling inside & that weekend i definitely didn't feel it so i feel like people can give you anxiety, well at least certain feelings.

[ tw : 'throw up' words ]

i hate the feeling & i can definitely tell when it's really fucking bad & when it's not so bad but i feel like imma throw up when it gets bad & i HATE IT!!

well that's all i wanted to say for this part so :) i will probably have other chapters that have to deal with my anxiety being high or present so look on the look out 👀🤣🥲🤧🙈

𝗫𝗼𝘅𝗼, 𝘁𝗮𝘆𝗹𝗼𝗿

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written: 11/27/2022 10pm
completed: 11/27/2022
edited: 11/27/2022 11pm
published: 12/06/2022
total words: 444
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