jadens house

i went over to the girls house, expecting her to be ready, now I'm on her bed in my shoes as the girl had a breakdown over what to wear. 

"i have no fancy clothes, at all,jaden help" she whined, the girl wrapped in her towel said.

"turn around for me" she did, "bend over-"

"jadenn- its not the time for that" she continued.

"nessa I've seen your closet you do not have any struggles" i scoffed, getting up to help the girl.

"you look hot in a suit" the short girl said, beneath me as i reached into her closet. 

"you look hot in a towel" i said pulling out a dress.

"oh my god, you're my jesus" she said kissing me and running to change.i sighed going back onto her bed. 

Nessas p0v-

it was a sparkly, short dress, it was really pretty though, my makeup and my hair was done so i didn't need anything else and when i do this we could go. 

jaden and i though....I've really been liking our connection but i still cant trust myself with him. he's awesome really, but at the same time, i feel that if anything, an argument maybe, he'd easily go shit his life up.

it'd be all my fault, i don't trust myself at all, I'm gonna ruin the shit, ruin his life, he doesn't have an official girlfriend because of me. he still has hope in me and I'm the one whos not sure but i was the one who made him do it and i feel horrible.

aunty Megan sees it, cooper and sab's rooting for it, jaden sees it and heck i see it too, i just cant. i don't know why, i just need time, he's giving me that but its eating me alive. when I'm with him, it feels right, i don't know, it ticks me off too. 

i put on my dress going outside, "we were supposed to go 15 minutes ago, lets make it 30?" he  said. 

"we're not ditching sab and cooper for this jaden" i stated, slightly breaking the kiss as he still was on my neck. he scoffed also breaking it.

im not losing interest, i really just cant find the confidence in my heart.i know im gonna, i know who its gonna be with, jaden, just, not now.

jadens pov

i really feel like shes losing interest and i cant lose her,i really cant.