"how are you feeling today Raven, are the nightmares still making you paranoid?" the boy sat on the end of the couch, his hands bent at an odd angle. They scratched at his neck but he didn't wince at the sting of it, or the way his flesh burned.

He inhaled, his dry lips quivering as he pressed his fingernails more into his skin. "Johanna, I keep seeing her in the arena" he blinked, feeling the weight of exhaustion that lingered along them.

"Can you tell me what you remember from the arena?" Raven let out a quick breath as he scratched more into his neck. "Is she here.... Is Johanna here" he looked around in panic.

"Raven, we're not here to discuss Miss Mason, you need to tell me what you remember from the arena". Raven blinked harshly and he felt the warmth of tears flow down his cheeks. "They won't let me see her, I have to see her.... Where is she? Is Johanna here!".

He screamed when the doors opened, two peacekeepers slowly making their way towards him. "No! I need to see her, where is she! What did you do to her!". He was forced off the couch and his body burned as the syringe was stabbed into his neck.

His eyes closed slowly as he felt himself being dragged out of the room. He knew he'd be greeted by darkness when he woke up, or the screams.

Raven sniffled when his eyes opened, he shivered as the cold air wrapped around his body. He sat up as he leaned into the wall, his head felt fuzzy as he looked around the cell he was inside of. He lost track of how many days passed, he didn't sleep much aside from when he was drugged or exhausted.

His body ached half the time as he tried to latch onto any hope of getting out of this place. He flinched when the hallway lights turned on, a sign of peacekeepers coming to get him.

His fingers dug into his neck like a reflex as he whimpered. He screamed when his cell doors were unlocked, he pinched his eyes shut as he mumbled to himself and begged for this to end.

"no no no..." he screamed and it made his head hurt as he was forced upwards, he tried to escape the tight hold of the peacekeepers but he was weak.

The capitol was really messing with his head, all he could focus on was the rage, the hatred. It was engraved into his skull every waking second. He wasn't a violent person before this, he didn't have the urge to kill innocent people before.

He kept telling himself he was good, that this was Snow's doing, but each day made it harder for him to latch onto that good of him. His memories were blurry and he only let himself remember her, Johanna was someone he didn't want to forget.

He couldn't bring himself to hurt her, everytime he heard her screams in the cell beside his. He knew she was still alive, he would remember her and he felt the rage slipping back into his skull when it was silent.

He let out shaky breaths as he was strapped down to the chair, it was cold on his arms and legs making him shiver. The bright light above him made his eyes burn as he let out heavy pants.

He tugged against the straps harshly not caring if the exhaustion hit him quickly. He screamed when the mask was pushed over his face, his eyes widened in horror as he felt the smoke coat his nostrils.

He moved around on the chair like crazy as he felt his head grow fuzzy. He blinked rapidly hoping this was all a dream as he felt his mind begin to wonder off.

"What do you remember about the games... Did you see what she did to you, to all of your friends? Katniss Everdeen killed everyone you care about, she's a threat and she'll only get worse if she's alive. Don't you want Johanna to be safe, to be free of this pain?".

Raven groaned as he tugged on the straps that rested along his wrists and ankles. The voice kept getting louder, making him cry out as he tried to get up.

"Katniss Everdeen is a threat to the capitol, you're the only person who can stop her Raven. Killing her will be so easy, and you'll be free of this torment you feel. Isn't that what you want Raven? To be free of your pain and suffering, it could all end if you kill her, kill anyone who she associates with. Kill them all".

Raven screamed as he pinched his eyes shut, he felt the smoke coat his lungs more and more as he tried to shut the voices up. "No! I won't do it! I won't do it!" he let out heavy pants when the mask was pulled off his face. He coughed as he felt fresh air coat his lungs, he blinked as his eyes adjusted to the bright lights.

He flinched when the doors opened, he gasped at the sight of Johanna, she looked so exhausted and miserable as she was dragged inside by two peacekeepers. "No! Let her go! Johanna!".

He groaned when a strap was pushed over his head and he couldn't move anymore. "Johanna!" he tugged at the rope harshly as he let out heavy breaths.

He winced when he felt the cold water splash all over his body, his hands clawed at the straps harshly. He felt his fingers ache as he cried "let her out!".

He let out a weak breath as the light began to flicker, he could hear the screams, feel the agony in the air. Johanna was in arms reach but he couldn't help her, he couldn't stop them from hurting her.

He didn't flinch when the electricity ran through his body, he felt his eyes waver as his body shook around in the chair. He felt the air rushing out of his lungs in panic as he struggled to move a single inch.

He coughed violently when he felt the pressure stop, he felt the air enter his lungs once more as he slumped weakly into himself. "Try again tomorrow, bring in the next one" his eyes began to shut as he was dragged out of the room.

He couldn't handle this again, another day full of pain and suffering and it was all because of Katniss Everdeen. He stopped himself, Katniss wasn't the enemy, this wasn't her fault, she didn't know this would happen, she was a good person.

She did this to them, she must've known they'd be suffering at the hands of snow. This was her fault, she was ruining everything snow built, she needed to be punished and stopped. Raven groaned as he was thrown into his cell, the floor was freezing as he held himself tightly. "Katniss is good... Katniss is good... Katniss is good... Katniss is good".

He kept whispering to himself as he held his head tightly, he didn't care if his body was freezing or in pain. He kept whispering in hopes this torture would end, "Katniss is...." He whimpered "she's good".

He shivered as he pressed his hands into the ground, he didn't flinch at the screams he just pinched his eyes shut as he let out shaky breaths. "Katniss is evil...".

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authors notes:
there's no way I haven't updated this since December! I could've sworn I at least updated it once at the beginning of January, that's crazy! Anyways I'm back and I missed writing for this book, like a lot.... My entire fyp used to be the hunger games now it just shows up every once in awhile. But regardless expect updates for this at least for maybe the next two days while I'm feeling inspired for it. Don't be surprised if no more updates show up for like weeks.... Inspiration comes and goes fast for me, but regardless enjoys this chapter for the time being!