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Cal's/Sin's POV
Lilith and I stood in the doorway of a medical room while a few nurses and a doctor tended to the wound I inflicted upon Obi-Wan. Anakin was in there as well, both him and his former Master currently had on force restraints around their necks, while also being confined to this one room. We had our most trusted clones here at all times; keeping them in, as well as keeping anyone out. My Master didn't want their presence known by anyone else, especially Tarkin.

I turned to look at her, her mask had been destroyed. So while she waited for a new one, she had an oxygen mask over her face, as well as a tank next to her. I could feel that it angered it, it made her feel vulnerable.

"Why are you saving him if he tried to kill you?" I asked, confused, while her eyes stayed fixated on the men in the room.

Without looking at me, she responded, "Because, something about all of this isn't sitting right with me."

"What do you mean?" I urged her to elaborate.

She sighed; folding her arms over her chest as she leaned in the doorway, "I was seconds from death," She finally turned her yellow gaze and met mine, "But Anakin saved me, while telling me he loves me in the process. Now why would he do that if he supposedly left me for dead on Mustafar?" She asked rhetorically with furrowed brows, "Realistically, he would have taken this opportunity to finish the job, yet he didn't." Her gaze shifted back to her former love, and I could see a confused conflict in her eyes, "I trust you more than anyone Cal, what do you make of this?"

I swallowed nervously, having my own conflict on wether I should share the truth with her or not. I had my reasons for not telling her, good reasons. As I already told Anakin; If I did tell her, there's a high chance that she's going to rebel against Sidious...

And as much as I would love to get away from him too, I've seen what he is capable of. I've seen him bring her to the brink of death, I've seen her placed in a coma for weeks after being reprimanded for much less than 'treason', and I've seen her so weakened by his force lightening that she was unable to move for days.

I love my master, and if she learns the truth, her first instinct will be revenge. And she will die before she even makes it through his door. As will I, but I care more about her life than my own.

Full of selfish shame, I dropped my head down; hiding the tears that wanted to burst through for continuously lying to the one person I hated lying to, "I don't know Master, but I don't think his words can be trusted; not after everything."

She hummed and I could feel her eyes on me, but I refused to look up at her so she wouldn't see the guilt in my eyes, "Why are you sad?" She asked genuinely.

I breathed out a heavy sigh as I prepared to somewhat lie to my mother figure again, "It just scares me that I almost lost you."

She was silent for a moment, then I felt her hand on my shoulder, "Don't be sad. When it's my time, you'll be okay without me."

I shot my gaze up to hers, she spoke like she knew she was inevitably going to die. And not in a way where she means it's because we all die. She said it in a way that made me feel that it was going to be sooner than it should be, "You can't leave me."

She smiled, and it almost brought me to tears. It was the first time I've ever seen her genuinely smile in so long, "One day I will have to my little padawan, my fate has been sealed for quite some time. I will die by Sidious's hand—that part is inevitable, it's only a matter of when that will be." She removed her hand from my shoulder, "Now no more tears, I didn't teach you to be so soft. You are strong, stronger than me even." She tapped under my chin, her smile dropping slowly into a frown, "And I'm sorry about what I said to you earlier; I would never hurt you."

I forced a smile and wiped the tears away from my eyes, "I know, Master."

She nodded and looked back towards Anakin, who was in turn, looking at her—like he heard our entire conversation, which I'm confident that he did.

"You will remain here in this room Anakin, don't try to leave or Obi-Wan's care will be cut short; I have somewhere to be." She turned away from the door, and began walking down the hallway before Anakin could give her a response. He watched her leave with pain in his eyes, despite being tortured by her, his love was strong. Even I could feel it, I'm actually surprised that she doesn't.

She used the force to roll the oxygen tank by her side as she made her way down the hallway, "Wait, where are you going?" I asked in a shout.

"To get my new mask, and to visit an old friend for some answers," She responded without turning around and I grew nervous; wondering who she was going to see and what she might learn. Then she paused and faced me, "Oh, and move Ahsoka away from the Senator's cell. I don't want them near each other."

My eyes widened in surprise, "How did you know she was-"

"Nothing happens on this station without me knowing about it, nothing." She spun back around and disappeared behind a corner.

"You had the opportunity to tell her the truth, she won't listen to me, not anymore. But you, she will," Anakin broke the silence in the air from next to Obi-Wan's bedside.

I groaned and turned my head to look at him, his eyes full of disapproval and anger. Anger for trying to kill Obi-Wan, and disapproval for my silence, "We are not having this conversation again, it's not my fault you don't understand." I waved the door closed so he couldn't speak to me any further.

As soon as the door closed, I sighed as I tightly closed my eyes together to suppress more tears that wanted to break free. I haven't felt so emotionally conflicted in my life. For so long I always felt that I had it all figured, that I had everything under control.

But now.. it was like Cal and Sin were battling inside of my mind, trying to decide on the right thing to do. But it was like there really was no right choice, each decision destroys me in a way.

Sin's choice; keep her in the dark, continue lying to her, which is my fucked up way of protecting her. Cal's choice; tell her the truth, and risk truly losing her forever. But he seems confident that Anakin, the chosen one, can protect her from Sidious.

But Sin doesn't, Sin believes he's the only one who can protect her; it's his lack of trust in others that makes him think this way. Blame the Jedi for that..

And as of right now, he's winning.

Now I just felt more lost than I've ever been. Wishing I could be honest with her, but also save her from this inevitable death that she speaks of.

Then Ahsoka had to come back into my life, and make everything even more complicated; she made the choice much more difficult.

I was really doing my best to explain his conflict and j was having a hard time. So please tell me if it makes sense or not and if it doesn't let me know what part doesn't so I can go ahead and try to make it better ♥️

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I reached the place where we hold the prisoners; but grew confused. She was not where I left her, her cell appeared to be empty.

I turned my gaze to Padme, who was currently sitting in a corner with her head resting on her knees in her cell, "Where's Ahsoka?" I asked accusingly.

Her head shot up to look at me, they were glassy and red, like she'd been crying for hours, "I-I don't know, she was there a minute ago." There's no way she could have gotten out then, which means, she's still in there.

I sighed, stepping up to Ahsokas cell, and glancing up at the ceiling; noticing that she was hiding just above the entrance. Preparing to surprise attack me if I was to enter through the door, "I can see you up there, get down before you hurt yourself." Although I do applaud her body strength to hold herself up there the way she is, it's not an easy task.

"Maybe I'm just comfortable up here." She snapped with attitude; her voice strained from holding herself up.

Yeah, she's still mad about earlier.

"We both know that's a lie, now get down." I crossed my arms, and waited for her to listen to me; or until her body gets too tired to keep herself up

I heard her groan before she finally dropped herself down to the ground, landing on her feet perfectly. Then she slowly stood up straight while glaring at me through the bars, "Did you come to continue to jump to more false conclusions?"

I exhaled heavily; walking up to the cell doors and opening them. Her eyes followed my actions with curiosity, "No, I've come to move you somewhere else."

She currently had a force restraint collar on her neck just as Obi-Wan and Anakin did. So I wasn't worried about her overpowering me right now, except with her attitude maybe.

"No," She backed away from me, "I'm not going anywhere with you."

I walked into the cell towards her in an effort to intimidate her, "Yes, you are." I spoke through gritted teeth.

"No, I'm not." She moved back further until she hit the metallic wall behind her.

"Ahsoka," I growled her name in a warning as she stubbornly kept moving to the far left so I wouldn't reach her. I'm trying not to be forceful with her, but she's making that hard, "Stop being so difficul-"

She quickly pushed past me, knocking me into the bed as she ran out of the small room. She then closed the cell behind her; locking me in with a victorious smile on her face, "Ha!" She mocked me, thinking that she won that easily.

I shook my head with an amused sigh, "Oh Starlight," I lifted my index finger, and with one little wave, the cell door opened; prompting her smile to drop immediately, "It's not a force suppressing cell, hence the collar." I gestured to the accessory I placed on her.

She turned around to try and run from me, but I used the force to hold her in place.

"I wanted to do this the easy way, but I should've known you wouldn't allow that," I kept my hold on her until I reached her. Then I grabbed ahold of her by the waist, and threw her over my shoulder.

She yelped in surprise, "Put me down!" She attempted to wiggle, and even proceeded to hit my back to gain her freedom.

"Stop with the hitting before I knock you out again," I threatened in a sigh as I walked out of the room with her struggling in my tight grasp.

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I dropped her down onto the Queen-sized bed, and she immediately backed away from me; hitting her back against the headboard, "You'll be staying in here for the time-being, and try to keep it down unless you want Sidious to be informed of your presence. And that's the last thing you want, trust me."

Her eyes shifted around the room, and she looked at the door before finally meeting my eyes again, "And what's to keep me from leaving? This doesn't exactly look like a prison cell."

"Oh but it is," I backed away from the bed and gestured around the room, "This is my room, and Lilith had it designed to lock from the outside, not the inside. So you won't even be able to leave if you try, and trust me, I've tried."

She furrowed her brows in confusion before looking around the room once again, "Why would she do that to you?"

I sighed, turning away from her and walking to my work station, "It's not as cruel as it sounds," I defended my master who only held good intentions, "She only ever locked me in here when Sidious was on the station, which thankfully isn't very often," I sat in my chair, and began fixing her mask that Obi-Wan destroyed. It may be beyond repair, but I wanted to try so she could at least have a decently functional back-up, "He doesn't treat her well when he comes here, he practically tortures her, and sometimes you can hear her screams from here. So she locks me in to prevent me from trying to help her, and possibly gaining the same torturous fate."

I glanced down at my scarred knuckles, remembering the time I had repeatedly punched the door to trying to get out; I felt her dying that day. That was when she was placed in a coma. And it was all because she lost track of the millennium falcon. Why Sidious cared so much? We have no idea, but he was adamant above getting that ship and whoever was on board.

"Why not use the force, or your lightsaber?" Ahsoka asked like it was simple.

I chuckled, dropping the mask down onto the table and turning to look at her. She still remained in the same spot, not even attempting to run since she knows I'll catch her before she even makes it to the door, "She's not dumb; she takes my lightsaber, and the lock itself is force suppressive." I turned back to my project again and began working.

She hummed in understanding, and remained quiet for a moment. Then she broke the silence, "Why did you bring me here, instead of a cell?"

"To keep an eye on you, you're a crafty little thing. If anyone can break out of those shitty made cells, it's you." I informed her honestly. Lilith did say to move her somewhere, she didn't specify where, and this was the most secure place I could think of, "And just so you know, Anakin and Obi-Wan are still alive."

"It's like you read my mind, I was just about to ask."

I sighed quietly, "But you should also know that Obi-Wan is in critical condition."

Calsoka song alert! Fire on Fire by Sam Smith
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"What?" She almost shouted and I heard her getting off the bed and coming closer to me. I dropped the mask down, and spun in the chair to meet her face to face, "What did she do to him?" She asked angrily.

"She did nothing, it was I who stabbed him through his back after he nearly killed her," I informed her in a snap.

Her eyes widened as they glassed over with tears, "You son of a-" She went to slap me, but I caught her wrist and stood up. She had to tilt her head uncomfortably to keep her enraged gaze on me.

"I did what I felt was necessary," I released my tight hold from her wrist, and she pulled away from aggressively, "Tell me that you wouldn't do the same." I walked forward, and she began taking steps back to get away from me, nearly tripping on a few loose items on my floor.

"I wouldn't," She seethed.

"That's a lie," I used the force to bring her closer to me, and I gripped her neck under the collar, "If it was Anakin on the floor, dying; tell me you wouldn't kill Lilith to save him." I turned to the side and pushed her against the wall near my work station, her eyes wide, "Tell me you wouldn't kill me, to save him." I challenged her.

"I-" She was about to speak, but she paused and remained silent. Her blue eyes switching between my gazes, then they traveled down to my lips.

"See you can't say it, because you know I'm right," I released my hold, and began to move away from her, but she grabbed ahold of my wrist to stop me.

"Okay," She breathed, "You're right, but you're also wrong."

I furrowed my brows, "How so?"

She swallowed nervously before speaking her next words, "As much as I love her, I would kill her if it meant protecting Anakin, even if he would later hate me for it," She responded honestly, "But you, I wouldn't be able to kill you Cal."

I pulled my wrist out of her grip, "You say that now, but if the time comes, you would do it."

She shook her head, "No, no I wouldn't," She quickly brought her hands up and cupped my face, "Can you say that to me? Can you tell me that you'd kill me if it meant saving Lilith's life."

"Yes." I responded, and I felt a turn in my stomach when I said it.

"That's a lie," She repeated my words from minutes ago, "You'd never really hurt me, just like I would never hurt you. Our love is stronger than that, it always has been. That's why you've never fully swayed from the light, it's why you couldn't kill me at the Temple. I can feel your conflict Cal."

I grabbed her wrists to pull her grip off of me, she's making that harder than it needs to be for me. I know the choice I have to make, and being with her isn't a luxury I can have,"Please stop."

"I love you," She resisted against my pull, "I may be stupid for trying this again, but please come back, leave here with me."

"I can't," I gripped on her wrists harder; successfully pulling her hold from my face, and attempting to leave the room. But she stubbornly stood in my path, "Move." I spoke through my clenched jaw.

She shook her head; folding her arms over her chest. Her daring gaze locked with mine, "Make me."

Fuck.

"You're playing a dangerous game Star," I stepped up to her and towered over her short figure compared to my own.

She shrugged her shoulders, "I know, but I refuse to leave you in this place that will become your grave."

I lowered my face close to hers, resisting the urge to do what I wanted to do, "You don't have a choice in the matter."

"But you do, you're just making the wrong one." She tried to kiss me, but I stopped her by gripping her chin. Her blue eyes gazed longingly into mine, I can see how much she loves me from this look alone.

"Enough," I sighed heavily, my heart beating for her, but I resisted the best I could, "Lilith will return later, and she will decide everyone's fate," I let go of her chin before quickly pushing past to finally leave. I couldn't be around her anymore, she was making the conflict I was feeling inside stronger; making it almost unbearable.

But letting my guard down for this spilt second, was a mistake, she took this opportunity to do what she's been dying to do; she grabbed me to turn me back around, and kissed me.

I immediately grabbed her throat under the collar in an attempt push her away. I even heard the sound of her struggled breathing due to how tight I was holding her, but she still never stopped kissing me. Her actions were filled with determination. She was determined to have me give in, to have her Cal return to her.

"Please," She whispered weakly against my lips, and I loosened my hold so she could breathe properly again. My body desiring to be with her, to really give in. She's always had this affect on me, "I love you Cal, I need you back."

Don't.

I need you too Ahsoka.

Lilith will die, alone.

We'll find a way to protect her from Sidious; to kill him.

Only Sin can keep her safe.

Cal Kestis is a failure, always has been.

I pushed the voice away just for this moment, and kissed my girl back; raising my hands up to cup her face, "I love you too Starlight."

"Cal," She whispered as she threw her arms around my neck, and deepened the kiss, "I missed you."

I broke away for a moment and smiled down at her beautiful face, "I missed you too," My eyes watered, "I'm so sorry for everything, I thought-"

"Don't," She pressed her finger to my lips to stop my apology, "I forgive you," Then she brought her lips back to mine, hugging me tighter than she ever has.

I hugged her back and poured all of my love for into this one kiss as I picked her up, and turned around to bring us back further into the room.

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