after what happened me and louis kept on shopping and it was a bit quiet, but not for too long.

louissss cheer up im not mad at you im just confused, i said tryna lighten the mood. "sorry im not mad just traumatized from what happened," he said with a weak smile.

how about we go get some ice cream and talk would that help you? "sure but lets go pay for the stuff and drop them off at your house and then get ice cream" he said. YES OK!

my parents told me they will see what furniture they want to get so we only got a few things. i got a few things for my room and bed frames you know the basic stuff.

"yor total is going to be £2,772," the cashier said. ok here you go, i said giving her the money. "thank you have a nice day!" she said. you too.

louis helped me put the stuff inside the car. while we drove home he seemed to have forgotten about what happened earlier which was good.

once we got home i told my mom that we where going to get some ice cream.

"did you get the grocerys?" she asked. oh shoot i fogot umm we'll go get them im sorry mom. its ok honey i knew you would forget so your father went to get them. *sigh* what a relief.

well i gotta go because me and louis are gonna get ice cream. "k be safe i love you," my mom smiled. i love you too byee.

louis wrapped his arm around my shoulders, "are you ready?" he smirked. yessirrr lets go.

"ok carry on," he laughed.

we got in the car and took off. "what do you wanna listen to?" louis asked. did you ever listen to "somebody that i used to know"

"YES I LOVE THAT SONG" louis said in excitement.
ok let me put that on. "YAY."

then the lyrics started playing.

Now and then i think
of when we were together
Like when you said you
felt so happy you could die

Told myself that you were
right for me but felt so lonley
in your company

But that love was an ache
i still remember

we stared singing along,

"you can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness, like resignation to the end, always the end"

gosh i loved this song so much but it made me cry everytime i heard it.

louis was singing but i was starting to get emotional because this was my favorite part,

but you didnt have to cut me off,
makeout like it never happened
and that we were nothing
and i dont even need your love
you treat me like a stranger
and that feels so rough

at this point i was sobbing and we where only a minute and 30 seconds into the song. louis turnned it off and pulled over to a restaurant.

"hey are you ok? because you dont look like it," he said worried. yes im fine- "no your not."

louis i just get emotional from this song it brings me the memories- "well thats not good because those seem like pretty dark memories!" he exclaimed.

well dont worry about it i dont wanna annoy you. "what do you mean annoy me, i will always listen to you," he said.

"we are not gonna cry today, we are going to have fun ok?" he smiled at me. mhm, i said wiping my tears. "good because i hate to see you uncomfortable or sad."

bruh youve only known me for 3 days. "well i seem to like hanging out with you."

ok then lets go get ice cream and you can tell me who oliver is. "OH RIGHT, lets go"

TIME SKIP 10 MINS:

we got to the ice cream shop and louis had his arm around my shoulders the whole time we where ordering he was being very protective, but i didnt mind it made me comfortable.

we ordered our stuff, about 3 minutes later someone came with our ice creams. we walked out and sat pn the outdoor seats. so do you wanna go first louis?

"yes, ok so oliver and i used to be best friends since middle school, he got really annoying in freshman year because he became popular, i had a girlfriend-" wait what do you mean had? "cecilie let me finish explaining" i am! "anyways he got her into cheating on me with him and he did it on purpose, he was really toxic too but i didn't realize that until he got with sophia" whos sophia? "my ex girlfriend, and so he tried to get me to start vaping and drinking but thats when i tried to cut off our friendship, he started a rumor that i slept with his ex which first wasnt true and second that was him not me." he started to tear up but was trying to hold it in. i put my hand over his, it was warm.

im so sorry you had to experience that, i wiped the tear off his face and looked into his eyes, i could see he was hurt and didn't enjoy those memories very much. "enough about me tell me why you where crying from that song."

TW: sexual abuse, mental abuse

i had a really abusive boyfriend i was so naive back then. right when we started dating we told me he had mental and physical health problems, he told me i didnt have to be in the relationship but i was so stupid. i stayed because i thought maybe he wanted support but no.

whenever i was on my phone for too long he would randomly slap me and take my phone and go through it, he would tell me what to say to people when we where out.

if i was nice to a waiter or waitress he would get mad and tight when we get home he would start to punch me. once i blacked out and couldnt breathe.

hes also tried to slice my neck and choke me. he would say hurtful words and get mad at me for crying.

he also would force himself onto me when i was too "quiet" because he thought i was always up to something.

"oh my gosh im so sorry that happened to you and i sorry if i made you uncomfortable when i-" no louis its fine you fidnt make me uncomfortable, actually your the only boy that im comfortable around- and my dad. "oh thank god," he said in relief.

when we finished our ice creams we got up. um is it ok if i hug you? i asked. "if your ok with it then yes anytime," he blushed.

i sunk my head into his chest and he hugged me so tight it was comforting having his 6,1 body against my 5,2 self.

"ok we better get home before our parents think somethings up," he said. yeah your right, we started walking to the car, got in, and then drove off.

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sorry it took so long i didnt lnow what to write 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

but cecilie is ok with talking about her situation with people shes close with like louis

ik theyve only known eachother for 3 days but they have a really storng connection

THIS WHOLE CHAPTER IS A MESS BUT 🤪