Three months have passed since I found out I was pregnant, the doctor said I would soon be in my fourth month, and as we agreed, it remained a secret between us and no one knew about it.

My thoughts and constant anxiety really affected my health, I am always afraid that Mehmet might find out about me at any moment, I started thinking about telling him myself, maybe his heart will soften and he will forgive me just for the sake of our unborn child.

I made sure that I looked good, then I went down with Ayse and we sat with the girls while on the other side Eylem was sitting with her swollen belly and she looked extremely happy.

"Ayse" I said in a low voice as I pinched her without anyone noticing.

"Ah, what's wrong?" She looked at me in surprise.

I approached her and spoke in a lower voice "I really crave pomegranates and almonds" She smiled a little "Please go and bring me some because I don't want anyone to suspect me"

Ayse laughed "Girl, you crave something different every day"

I laughed and hit her shoulder "Nooo"

Ayse went to get what I asked for while I kept observing the girls and everything they do, some of them hate me because the prince spends his time with me.

I set my eyes on a girl who was sitting and looking at me in a strange way, it's the same girl. The one I found in my room a few months ago, didn't she say she was a maid? So what is she doing here beside the concubines?!

I came out of my thoughts when I heard Ayse's voice as she returned to my side, and all that caught my attention was the tray that was in her hands.

"Thank you!!" I said with a smile and started eating some pomegranates that were ready, but before I could even enjoy my plate, I heard the most annoying sound.

"Have you suddenly become her servant, Ayse?" Eylem said, crossing her arms and looking serious.

Ayse stood up in agitation "Respect yourself! This is called friendship, but unfortunately you don't know anything about these things!"

These words must have come from Ayse's heart, from what I learned from her, she and Eylem were friends at first, but Eylem strangely transformed into a real snake.

I stood up and grabbed Ayse's hand to make her step back then looked at Eylem angrily "Go away and stay away from us we don't need you to bother us with your stupid thoughts and endless screaming" I moved closer to her while raising my finger "It would be good for you to stay away"

Eylem raised her eyebrow as she looked like she was about to hit me "I told you dozens of times not to talk to a pregnant woman like that!"

Before I could answer her, Ayse approached her angrily and said "You also shouldn't talk to a pregnant woman like that!!"

I felt shocked and worried while Eylem had question marks on her face "What are you talking about!" After seconds of silence, she finally understood then put her hand over her mouth as she looked at my belly.

I gave Ayse a look full of reproach then went up to my room and it's a good thing Nurbahar isn't here as I need to be alone. Ayse won't understand me, I'm hiding this pregnancy for fear of my family's life, Mehmet's life and my child's life, but in a moment of anger she revealed the secret just to annoy Eylem! now everything is grumbling and the news will spread and when they know about my pregnancy it will be the end... the end of everything and everyone.

|After Two weeks|

My relationship with Ayse wasn't damaged, she apologized and I really understood her, I told Mehmet that I was the one who wanted everyone to know about my pregnancy, he said that the important thing is to be happy but I'm not.

I live in constant fear and anxiety, maybe now they are torturing my family or maybe they killed them and I'm here helpless to do anything, I had one simple mission, simple in their eyes of course, but I couldn't do it and the reason is love... Love is something I didn't expect to find when I was on my way here.

I tried to tell Mehmet the truth several times but I always held back for fear of losing him, I know that day will come inevitably but I delay it as much as I can.

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|3rd person POV|

Mehmet returned to his room after a long day of work, feeling very tired and all he needs is a bath, dinner and most importantly his butterfly, Nurgül and her beautiful laughter.

He took off his coat and headed towards his desk where he would quickly finish reading some papers that he would need for his work tomorrow, but before he sat down he noticed two strange papers that he did not remember leaving here.

He took the first one and before he read what was on it he was shocked by what appeared underneath it, a drawing! Not just any drawing!! with Nurgül's face on it which was drawn professionally, he quickly took the paper to read what was written underneath it [Charlotte Marlborough-1539-]

He did not understand anything so he started reading the contents of the second paper which seemed to be a letter

[A noble British girl who was sent to end the Ottoman dynasty and put an end to the life of their prince but it seems that she failed in the mission and exceeded the allowed time]

He gripped his hand tightly while feeling his blood burning in his veins, he turned when he heard the sound of the door and saw Nurgül entering with a smile, but as soon as she saw his anger and the papers in his hands, her smile fell and her eyes began to shine with tears...

|Nurgül's POV|

I came excited to have dinner with Mehmet, he makes me forget all my worries and problems, but when I opened the door and saw what was happening, I felt the mask of happiness fall off my face and I knew that the gates of hell had opened now.

"I wanted to ask you, but it seems that you already know" he said strangely calmly as he approached me "How dare you!"

I couldn't say anything and just cried, seeing Mehmet angry with me made me want to die as soon as possible, but now I was also responsible for my innocent child.

"Say something!" he said with a stern voice as he held my hand tightly.

"Mehmet I swear to you..." I couldn't finish my sentence because of the wave of crying that swept over me.

"Everything was just a lie!" he said as he turned to the other side and then slammed his hands hard on the desk "I believed you!"

I put my hands on my stomach "I swear to you that everything was real, I loved you and the biggest proof is the child in my belly"

He turned to me as he raised his finger while his eyes were full of disappointment "Don't you dare involve my child in this because that is the only reason that prevents me now from separating your head from your body!"

I approached him and took his hand "Please listen to me I was forced but my love for you prevented me from doing anything"

He quickly pulled his hand away from me "Don't talk about love because you don't know anything about it" he said in a loud voice "Cemre kalfa!!!"

I started crying hysterically "Mehmet please you have to listen to me first.."

He turned around when I started crying and started speaking coldly "I don't want to see your face... Take her and lock her in one of the rooms" He looked at me one last time then said "You will be punished after you give birth to MY child"

That's the last thing I heard from him because they dragged me by force even though I was crying and asking him just to listen to my justifications.

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Two weeks have passed since I was in this room, every day seems like continuous torture, Mehmet's look is the thing that destroyed me the most, he seemed shocked, spiteful and broken... He thought that everything was just a lie but I was very honest about my feelings I wish he could read my thoughts and mind and see my heart and feelings, then he would know how much I love him.

They treat me as if I don't exist, there is a maid who enters my room only three times, puts the food tray down and leaves... I don't know what my fault is that I always get into trouble against my will.

I raised my eyes when I heard the door, thinking that it was the maid again, but I was surprised by Ayşe and Cemre Kalfa.

"Nurgül!" she said as she quickly approached me.

I couldn't even look into her eyes because I had lied to her too, and now everyone must hate me more than before.

"Thank God you're okay" She hugged me a little then stepped back while examining me with her eyes "Suddenly you disappeared, what's wrong?"

I looked at Cemre Kalfa in surprise then she moved her head and realized that Ayşe had no idea what had happened.

"There's some trouble, Ayşe" I sighed a little as I lowered my eyes.

"Everyone in the harem is surprised, we don't even know what happened to you" she looked at my belly then at me again "Is the baby okay?"

I nodded slightly as I ran my hand over my belly "Yes yes.. fine"

"Come on you saw her you should go now before we get into any trouble" Cemre Kalfa said as she pointed towards the door.

"At least tell me what happened!" Ayse said worriedly as she looked at me and Cemre Kalfa.

Cemre Kalfa raised her eyebrow "Those are secret matters and şehzade Mehmet wants them to stay that way!"

Ayse nodded then came closer to me, hugged me again and started speaking in a low voice next to my ear "It's good that Cemre Kalfa turned out to be nice and I convinced her to let me see you... Don't worry I'll try to come back again"

"I see you whispering Ayse, move!" Cemre Kalfa shouted then they left and the door was closed again.

Seeing Ayse was good but I feel guilty because when she finds out she will hate me.

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|3rd person POV|

After finishing his work, he returned to his room and sat on the couch, closing his eyes. He felt as if his head was about to explode. The girl he loved and preferred over anything else, and planned a beautiful life with her, turned into a nightmare, a spy and a traitor. What made things more complicated was her pregnancy. He heard the sound of the door, he sighed and said "Come in"

The door opened and Cemre Kalfa entered, looking a bit pale "Your Majesty, you wanted to talk to me"

Mehmet raised his eyes, looking very tired "Yes" He stood up and put his hand behind his back "How are things in the harem?"

She nodded "Everything is good and no one knows what happened"

He sighed a little "Good" He looked at her "Everything is good where you locked her up? After all, don't forget that she is carrying a member of the dynasty in her belly"

Cemre Kalfa raised her head "Don't worry, Your Majesty, the guards are doing their job and food is being sent to her regularly even though she doesn't eat much and according to what the maid told me her health is not good"

He turned to the other side "She is a traitor and this is something that cannot be tolerated" He took a glass of water in his hand then added "Send her someone you can trust to stay with her and serve her throughout the months of her pregnancy because I want my child to be healthy"

She nodded "Of course, Your Majesty" She turned to leave knowing that what the prince was doing was wrong because that girl posed a danger to him.

As soon as she left the room, Mehmet went, sat in his office then opened one of the drawers and took out a notebook. On the day they searched Nurgül's things, they found this notebook there and brought it. According to what he understood, Nurgül writes her memoirs here...

He never dared to open it and read it, he was hesitant and afraid to read something he might not like. After all, she was just lying about everything the whole time, and she must be here writing how much she hates him and wants to kill him and get rid of him as soon as possible... He sighed, then put the notebook back in its place and closed the drawer forcefully.