♛♕♛ My QUEEN ♛♕♛

All my life I was hated by everyone around me. I was supposed to be born female into the royal family of Siahn Kingdom. That's what they hope for, since I am promised to be a payment to my family's debt. Everyone's happy to know that soon, I will be born to this world and my father's worries would be gone. Or so they thought.

When my mother gave birth to me, everyone in the family's quite disappointed to know that I was born male. The only person to be joyous was my mother. She was the only person who loved me, even my father hates me for being born male and never talked to me since then. They just thought of me as a burden.

My mother died out of sickness when I was just a kid and from then on my father started to treat me dreadfully.

Whenever I tried to make friends with the servants or wonder around out of my room, he'd either forbid to feed me or locked me inside a scary dark room.

When he's drunk, it would get worse for me because if he ever sees me, he would hit or beat me without reasons.

That is how I lived my childhood, alone in this lonely castle. I grew up afraid of other people since I've never been with anyone else.

I am turning twenty one two weeks from now and my father has been pretty busy with something. The kingdom seems to be joyful too. The servants has been cleaning and decorating the palace.

Well, maybe it's for my birthday celebration, but I'm a bit cautious and suspicious. Since my mother's death, I have never celebrated my birthday so, why now? What's going on?

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Few days later..

The Queen of the neighboring country arrived and my father appears to be delighted for a reason I'm not aware of.

The said Queen's name is Sashra of Galaxian Kingdom. She's very beautiful but I'm a bit afraid of her glances towards me.

I learned that the shocking reason behind the suspicious celebration and the Queen of Galaxian Kingdom's early arrival is that after my birthday celebration, I will be taken by the queen and bring me along to her kingdom.

"B-But why? Am I going to be a s-slave? Why should I-I be brought t-there?" I asked dizzily to my father and the queen. I'm scared of them both but I can't understand why my father would do that to me?

"Oh, dear! Please don't be afraid," said the queen and I can see that she's being sincere but I'm still afraid of her.

"I'm not going to make you a servant or that sort. Instead, I'm gonna make you my son's queen.. Fufufufufu..", she explained as she laughed hysterically making me step back.

Then realization hit me, "Q-Q-Que-Queen?" I muttered absentmindedly thinking if I heard it right.

"M-Me?" I raised my right hand to point myself dumbfoundedly.

This might be a joke or something right? "H-How could t-that be, t-there must be a m-mistake, y-your highness," I blurted out.

My father turned to me sharply, "Damn it, Sia!" he yelled making me cowering in fear.

"Stop this nonsense, and just obey me!" he ordered in an angry yet low voice which I can tell that he's just keeping it because the queen is watching us.

"No more questions asked, or else.." he threatened lowly. I have no choice but to stay silent or he would beat me later for sure.

"Y-Yes, Father," I said with my head bowed down.

The queen seems to read between the lines and gave me a meaningful gaze that I quite don't understand.

"Alright," she interrupted. "There's no need to threaten him, King Haren. The reason we're here is to tell him about the agreement, right? So, no need to scare the poor child," the queen said as she walked towards me.

"Did your father tell you about the promise yet?" She asked kindly, putting her hands on my shoulder reassuringly which gave me an unfamiliar shivers though I still don't like being touched by people.

"Well as for the deal, after the celebration of your twenty first's birthday, I'll take you home with me," she explained as if it is the most obvious thing.

"You know dear, your family has a huge debt and in return, the first born child must be a girl and when she turned twenty one, she'll be married off to my son. But unfortunately, the first born child turned out to be a cute little baby boy. Unfortunately, you have no other siblings so it must be you whom my son should marry," she explained though some of it was already explained to me by my attendants.

"And I don't care if you we're a boy or what", she added. "My son wouldn't like it for sure but he had no choice. Since the truth is I really like you for him," she declared with a glint of admiration in her eyes as she looked down on me.

Yes, down on me because unlike a normal boy at my age, I'm pretty short like a teenage girl.

"At the same time, you're too pretty for a boy and any woman would die to have your beautiful face, skin and body," she complimented leaving me sprechless. With all that she said, I kind of find it hard to process in my not so brilliant head.

My father didn't say anything and just keep standing not too far away from the queen.

I know that he's already sick of me so he wants to get rid of me as soon as he could, by giving me to the queen.

I love my mother, so is my father even though he never treated me kindly. And since there won't be any difference if I live here or where the queen lives, I'll just accept it.

I made up my mind, and since the queen is quite nicer to me, maybe it would be a little better than living here.

"U-Uhm..", I muttered, loud enough for the queen to hear.

"Oh?! Yes dear, what is it?"

"I-I.. I t-think.. maybe I-I.." but I'm still afraid to voice out my thought.

"Don't be afraid to say what's on your mind, dear. Go ahead and talked to me," she encouraged. I looked at my father, his eyes were sending me a message not to talked something stupid or else!

I bowed my head down. "A-Ahm.. I-I agree to g-go with your h-highness," I said in a whisper.

"Really? Well that's great!" she exclaimed happily and laughed again like crazy, "fufufufu."

"Then it's done! After your birthday, I'm gonna take you home with me and you'll be marrying my son," she annouced happily.

"Fufufufu, though he might have a bit of an attitude problems but he's still kind at heart. So, you don't have to worry when you are married. I'm gonna make you the prettiest queen ever! I promise! Oh, wait! You're gonna be a bride first. I'm gonna get you the most beautiful and expensive wedding dress ever! Fufufu," she added with a smothered laugh while having a dreamy eyes indicating that she is really happy and excied.

Though, the sound of marrying a man is a bit crazy and impossible. Is this really happening? Does their kingdom allow same sex marriage?

Argh.. I don't really get it anymore. It's really pretty serious than I thought it is. What am I gonna do, mom please help me!

"Alright!," the queen said out loud cutting off my train of thoughts. "I gotta go send my son a message that he's getting married very - very soon," she declared grinning before walking out of the room, leaving me and my father alone.

My father is the first one to break the silence, "I hope you won't disappoint me this time," he said as he walked to the large window behind his study table and look outside as if to avoid looking at me.

I'm used to this treatment but still, I feel hurt now that I'm leaving and never to return again as if I'm getting exiled from the place I grew up with.

"You are a man, you are no use to the king of Galaxa," he said bluntly all of a sudden, making my fears of going to somewhere I don't know even worst.

I don't know why but when he said that I would just be worthless to the king feels kind of hurt, although it's true.

"You can never give him an heir. You're nothing but a pretty face and that is all. He'll be ashamed to show you to his people and tell them that he married a man like you! I wonder why queen Sashra wanted to take you despite all of your incapabilities?" he continued and I remain silent.

The truth is I just wanted to cry, because my own father is telling me something to degrade me.

"When you are married, always remember that you have to respect him and worship him! And still have and will never have the rights to question him! Even if he decided to locked you inside the chamber and no matter how many females he took, you are not allowed to complain. You should be aware of your incapability. Do you understand that?" he said in a warning tone.

All I could do is nod and obey, that is how I'm raised. "Y-Yes, F-Father.." I answered lowly though deep inside, I still couldn't understand why this is happening to me. And I'm still shaken.

"Now, go back to your room and don't wonder around." I just nod again and walked out.

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I sat near my window and admire the view outside. Since I was a child, I've never been outside the palace. I never had a chance or they never let me out like a prisoner. All I could do is to look and admire.

The first time I could go out is the day when the queen would take me with her. The truth is I'm quite excited. But the fact that I'm getting married still bugs me to no end.

How will they treat me when I get there? Surely the queen won't hurt me, I could feel it. She's like a mother I never had a chance to build a happy memory with to be remembered for the rest of my life, and it saddened me that she remind's me of my deceased mother. Though I wonder how will the other people in her kingdom treat me?

What bothers me the most is that, how will the king accept having a same sex marriage? Will he accept me, or will I be locked in to be hidden like what father said? Will he beat me when I couldn't please him? There are lots of questions inside my head that no matter what I do, I wouldn't get the answer by myself.

No matter what happens, I wouldn't be able to escape this, my fate was already sealed. I just have to remind myself that I'm also doing this to fulfill the promised made by the family, I have to take responsibility as the last Siahn Kingdom's heir.

I don't want to disappoint my father anymore and I want my mom to be proud of me. So, I have to face it bravely.

With that on my mind, I could face the future a bit differently. I have to carry on with my life. If the king keeps me hidden or despise me, it won't matter to me as long as I can make my dad satisfied and my mom happy.

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The day of my birthday has finally arrived. The palace looks so beautiful with all the decorations and people who came from different places around the world. I can see that my father is really happy I couldn't blame him, for finally he could get rid of me. I couldn't help but let out of my lips a bitter smile.

Everyone is all happy as well. Unlike me, I don't know how to feel. I'm sad and nervous at the same time that I can't even go somewhere rather than the chair I'm sitting on. It's the first time I've been in a party and I'm not used to hang around other people too so, I'm a bit agitated.

The queen might've noticed me that's why she walked to my side. "Happy Birthday my dear, and I'm so happy to have you in my family," she said with a huge warm smile on her face that I couldn't help but cry.

"Oh my, don't cry my dear. Did I say something wrong?" she asked worriedly. She really reminds me of my mother.

She is the first person to show some care to me other than my mom. So, I'm happy that I"ve got the chance to meet her. She must be a wonderful mom.

"I-I'm sorry y-your highness. I'm j-just.." I can't bring myself to tell her that I'm glad to have her as my new family.

"T-Thank you so m-much!" I said between sobbing and sniffing like a child.

"You're welcome dear, come on don't ruin you're pretty face," she smiled again. "It's your birthday, you should be happy not crying okay? You'll look even more beautiful with a smile on your face dear," she then held both of my hands as if to encourage my.

She's right, I should be happy though. So I smiled shyly at her while wiping away my tear stained face.

"Oooh! You're so cute Siah, my dear! You should smile very often. Goodness, I can't wait to see you wear a wedding dress.. fufufufu", she's bragging again about making me wear women's clothing. Well I guess that's the way she is, but I like it about her. Maybe I could trust her I really wan't her to be my mother.

"By the way Siah, have you prepared your things for tomorrow?" she asked all of a sudden.

"Y-Yes, your highness", I answered timidly.

"My dear, you don't have to be so formal to me now that I'm going to be your mother-in-law. Fufufufu. You should start to calling me mom." It's kind of awkward to call the queen mom but, I'm flattered to be given that privilege.

I smiled at her timidly; "y-yes y-yo-, m-mom," there finally I said it a little bit flustered.

It feels wierd yet it feels right. I'm so happy I could die.

"Fufufufu, that sounds good dear. Come on let's have something to eat."

Then I've enjoyed the night with my new mother.

The night went well. The party is very nice that I would wan't to have it again but it's impossible for me to have it though.

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To be continue..