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Two things I wrote down today

Thinking about situations I am dealing with
Crying about moments I can't deal with

I see myself screaming
Screaming till I can't breath anymore
It hurts in my throat
It is sore because I couldn't stop
It helps
But hurts at the same time

Trying to scratch my feelings off
It wouldn't work
argh I am so exhausted
Trying to rip my hair off
I can't
I am tired
Ausgelaugt you would say in German
Wie ne leere Seele
Ferngesteuert

It's scary
But I need to work properly
So no one tries to correct me
Change me

They think we are an empty box
Maybe
But we are craving about things to but in it
To built a personality

It is how it is
Are we allowed to feel something?
Maybe I don't wanna be a boring empty person
I don't want to be a "robot"

I
AM
NOT
A ROBOT

And you need to accept it
Because I can't change the way I am right now

spacy

Good night dudes