I feel it burning in my veins
Why isn't it sunny for hope
Long bitterness let me forget sweet

I watched some videos ....
my self confidence went down hill
I WISH I could say it was just today
It's every damn minute ... every damn second
Every damn spot I have left on me is burning
It is so distracting
I feel disgusting and little

I can't sleep

I watched videos
I got influenced and saw other human beings
Better human beings

I wanna be as good as them

Argh

I just can't turn it off
It hurts

I cry myself to sleep
But I am not alone

I guess .... I think ....

Bye dudes I'm going to sleep
I have 5 hours till I need to wake up :/