•*•*• SOMEONE once asked shigaraki tomura if he's ever loved. how could he possibly fathom the loss that others feel when he's never experienced it himself.

and to that, shigaraki answers by disintegrating them.

shigaraki never hesitated to kill. he continued to live with his unruly ways of life and cruel destructions of cities.

has he ever loved?

why of course he has. and he still does.

his love is just portrayed in what others would call, "a twisted way". but shigaraki didn't think so.

shigaraki believed that this was exactly what chō would've wanted him to do.

'be happy', she said.

and this was shigaraki's way of being happy. he'd wake up everyday, feed emi, plan the next steps to all might's destruction with his league, and make it happen.

sometimes, he'd fail. and that was okay. because he'd come back home, and be greeted by the voice of his lovely chō.

★彡 healer 彡★

shigaraki picked up a cassette tape. chō's phone was long gone, so he did what he could. he went to the recordings and started from the top, like he did every night.

•0:01–•—•—•—•—•—6:23•

'today is day one! I've finally found you, tenko! it took so long but now that I know you're in the league of villains, I'm joining too! it seems like you don't remember me from when we were kids, but that's okay. we can start anew.

okay, I don't know why that kuro...kuro guy looked at me weirdly when I first entered the bar. I didn't even do anything!!—'

shigaraki chuckled. he liked listening to her talk. and thus, he began the next one.

•0:01–•—•—•—•—•—8:05•

'today is day two! I had stole kurogiri's wallet and bought myself some annual green tea kitkats. I hope he doesn't find out!! if he does, I'm so screwed!!

and today I got to borrow your hoodie. I hope you know that you'll never be getting it back. I mean, who in the right mind would? it's so warm, it feels like you're hugging me.

oh, how I wish you'd do that sometimes. but you always seem so paranoid with me. it's pretty funny annoying you.

I tried feeding you the kitkats I stole but you didn't take them. so I left a box on your drawer. I wonder if you ate them—'

shigaraki skipped to the next one.

•0:01–•—•—•—•—•—4:57•

'today is day six!! I swear to the mother of goats that you're out to get me.

first I wake up at midnight seeing over thirty villains standing in the middle of the bar! then the freakin hero killer: stain shows up?! I thought he was going to end my life!! and it was so rude of him to ignore my greetings.

and what the hell are these nomus?? like they're cool I guess. but like...why their brains out like that though, ya know?—'

shigaraki then skipped to one of his favorites.

•0:01–•—•—•—•—•—9:37•

'today is...you know what? I don't even know anymore, because it doesn't matter!

holy FUCK! dabi is such a liar! I hope no one hears me while I'm saying this but....what the fuck is wrong with that burnt grape?!

like who the heck just goes around saying that they're my boyfriend?? like this hoe really just...

I didn't even consent to a polygamous relationship. I mean....I wouldn't mind having one with you...but dabi's a whole other shebang.

I feel like he hates me ya feel? maybe it's that cold look in his eyes, or maybe the burnt skin that makes him feel edgy. he's like a emo teenager!!—'

shigaraki smiled at chō's complaining of dabi. it always seemed to make him feel better about his day, even after a failed mission.

•0:01–•—•—•—•—•—12:52•

'okay, day whatever!! but we seriously just kissed on the ferris wheel!

it was like a fucking dream come true!! mother of goats, you had no idea how long I've wanted to do that!

dabi keeps on pestering me about you along with himiko, and kurogiri. like jeez!! get your own love life.

anyways, totally not tooting my own horn, but I was pretty good at catching those koi fish. like did you even see me?? I yote those bitches out of the water!!

and I hope you kept the picture of when we went on the rollercoaster. I remember specifically giving it to you, but I don't know what happened to it—'

shigaraki looked at the framed picture of them that was on his desk. he smiled and went to the last recording. it was his most hated one yet at the same time, favorite.

•0:01–•—•—•—•—•—15:21•

'tenko. man, how I love saying your name. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not telling you earlier. I'm sorry for entering your life once again, and leaving you all miserable.

I didn't mean to. I just....I just wanted to see you one last time...before I had to go.

I know I promised you. I promised that I wouldn't leave, and I'm still here with you. as long as you remember me, I live somewhere in your heart.

and trust me when I say, this was the best few months ever. it would've been better if I could be here with you longer, but beggars can't be choosers.

I wish...*sobs*...I wish I got to s-see you more. I...I wish I could've seen you before—'

shigaraki skipped right to the end. he didn't want to hear that part. because no matter how many times he heard it, he knew he'd end up a crying mess. and he didn't want to cry, not today.

'I love you, my dear tenko. I love you so much. whether you're called shigaraki tomura, or shimura tenko, I'll always love you'.

"I...I love you too, hoshi chō. I love you so much...I got us matching rings. they're stars....you...you always loved the stars didn't you?", shigaraki shakily asked.

he looked at the starred ring that he was wearing. he kissed it and smiled. he knew chō was amongst the stars, watching over him. and he always knew which one she was, because she always shined the brightest.

★彡 healer 彡★

someone once asked shigaraki tomura if he's ever loved. how could he possibly fathom the loss that others feel when he's never experienced it himself.

and to that, he answers by disintegrating them. because he has and he still does.