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Iliana's fingers loop through Jordan's necklace, the necklace, the one she gave them, as the kiss deepens, both starving for one another. Jordan's hands slip to her butt as they grip it hard, pulling her further into them. They tried so hard to hate her, forget about her... but not enough to rip off the necklace that remained around their neck and represented them more than anything ever could, being a constant reminder for the past year that no matter how much Iliana hurt them, or they wanted to forget about everything, to be seen is to be loved and Jordan Li was dangerously in love with Iliana Riordan. That's what made them so angry all this time. That's why the betrayal, and her words, hurt so deep.

But they were tired. And all they wanted was her. They both let out a small moan before their swollen lips part and air can finally reach their lungs once again. Iliana's leftover lipgloss was smudged around the bow and curve of her lips, and Jordan's too.

"Do you remember when I gave you this?" Iliana breathes out onto Jordan's lips and they swallow slowly, hips digging further into Iliana's feverish body.

"Course I do." Jordan answers immediately. How could they forget? No one's ever understood them more than Iliana did in that moment.

"Good." Iliana nods, tugging the necklace slightly. "Cause that's what I meant, and how I feel about you. Nothing else." She meant it when she said she loved every part of Jordan, male and female, and she wanted to the necklace to be proof of that, of her love. "You still wear it." She points out hoarsely.

"I couldn't bring myself to take it off." They admit. They wore it as a reminder. That everything Iliana said was a lie. To not ever let themselves feel or fall that way again... but truly they kept it on because they didn't want to take it off. If they ripped off the necklace Iliana gave them like they wanted to... Jordan felt like it would rip away everything, all the memories... her warm touch, her lips, her grinding against them, her soft words she only spoke for them... "And I couldn't bring myself to stop loving you." Jordan swallows. "No matter how much I wanted to hate you, I fucking can't, Iliana."

"Then don't." Iliana sighs breathlessly as their lips meet once again, the fuzzy, high feeling taking over both their brains as Iliana aches for them and Jordan's whole body felt numb, like they were on fire. They force themselves to not make a necklace with their hand around Iliana's throat as they were out in the open... on campus.... in front of people. Iliana heard whispering, she heard pictures being snapped, but she didn't care. Not anymore. "Don't you dare switch right now." She breathes out and Jordan yanks her into them by her ass even more... when suddenly they're interrupted by ringing.

"Fuck." Jordan mumbles into Iliana's swollen lips, closing their eyes.

"That's me." Iliana sighs before pulling her phone out, only the tiniest bit of space forms between the two as Jordan doesn't let go. Iliana's mouth parts in surprise. "It's Andre." She reads the 'Magnet' caller ID.

"Answer it." Jordan tells her. Iliana sighs quietly, chewing on the inside of her bottom lip. "Answer it." Jordan insists firmer than before, tugging on Iliana's belt loops with their thumbs, their eyes boring into Iliana' as she stares up at them.

She knows she has to, and she wants to. It just feels... hard. "Hello?" She answers on the last ring, keeping her gaze on Jordan.

"Goldie." Andre's voice waivers.

"Hey." She says softly.

"What's- what's happening?" He asks and Iliana sinks her teeth into her top lip, tilting her head. Jordan nods at her to continue.

"Uh, well..." She chuckles shortly, closing her eyes for a moment she takes a long, deep breath while soaking in the sun's warmth and energy. "Sam went with cate, The Woods are free, and we're fucked." Iliana manages out quickly.

"What?" Andre says, shaking his head, trying to process what was just rushed out.

"We're fucked, and we need you." Iliana states. "And I know you're at the hospital, with your dad-"

"I'll be there." Andre says without hesitation. He didn't need to think about it, as soon as Iliana called he knew he'd be there. He knew it was a lot for her to call him. Because if there's one thing he knows more than anyone or anything, it was how fucking stubborn Iliana Riordan was. "Goldie," He starts.

"I know." She stops him. "It's okay."

"No, it's not." Andre argues. He fucked up. "What do you want me to say, Iliana?!" "How could you?" The look on her face in Cate's mind will haunt him. And it should. How could he say he loved Luke, when he did that? Cause he thought he loved Cate...

"Tell me when you see me, huh?" She insists. Cause she can't bring herself to have that conversation on the phone... especially when the one she just had with Jordan almost did her in. Her chest tightens. How could she ever trust Andre again?

But you were gone, the voice in the back of her head hisses at her. How could anyone trust you? You're a liar. You're a fake, A FRAUD.

"Goldie?" Andre's voice brings her back to and Jordan's now standing closer than before they gave her a little space to talk on the phone, looking concerned.

"Sorry. I have to go." She hurries out, biting the inside of her cheek Forgiveness, she reminds herself. It isn's fucking easy. Or everyone would be handing it out like liquor. And Iliana knows Andre and Cate didn't cheat on her. But to do that to Luke, behind her fucking back when Luke was gone... Luke? Her Luke. Who never knew. Who's girlfriend was using him the entire fucking time and turned him crazy... who loved and trusted his best friend... it killed her. It made her sick, and it fucking killed her. It killed him. Jordan's touch on her elbow snaps her out of it. "We have to sweep the student union." Fuck, they have to sweep the student...

"Okay." Andre clears his throat. "I'm on my way." The line ends and Jordan immediately cups her face.

"Luke would forgive him." Iliana chokes out, using all the body heat possible to absorb her tears so she didn't fucking cry. Fuck, was she fucking over that. "Luke would forgive both of them without a second thought." She spits out. Jordan's thumbs run across her cheekbones as they glare at a freshman beside them with their flash going off for a picture. "God, how can you forgive me?" Iliana begins to crumble.

"Fuck off." Jordan snaps at them before looking back at Iliana. "Luke was better than all of us." They inhale. "Most of the time I was more angry at you than myself." Jordan admits, letting out a chuckle. "God, you're so fucking perfect it made me sick. You always bested me, you always fucking had to win. And I hated it. But hating you was fucking exhausting."

Iliana was exhausted. Exhausted of hating Jordan, exhausted being mad at Andre, exhausted of never getting a fucking break, for having to be perfect all the goddamn time....

And it ends now. It ends today.

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𝟶ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀʙɪsᴄᴜɪᴛ𝟽 sᴘᴇᴀᴋs!

Helloooo... to those who are still here & hanging on lmao, welcome back!!! I can confidently say I did not have a writers block lmao, life has just been so chaotically busy in the best possible way ;)

I fear there may not be as many people interested in this book anymore, & I apologize for taking so long to update. I have truly been working on this chapter for literally weeks!! I just could never finish it before I would get so tired & I had a couple spots I needed to work on/work out butttt it's finallyyy here & we're finally back!!! YESSSS!!

I felt like this chapter was VERY important to not only get Jordan's side/feelings & thoughts about everything with Iliana, but also Goldie & Magnet reuniting... almost </3 ugh I fucking miss them so much, this hurt era is killing me I need their friendship back asapppp.... AND THE NECKLACEEE!! I have NOT forgotten about my plans for it, & Iliana giving it to them, since I believe one of the very first chapters!!

Anywayssss, I cannot thank y'all enough for sticking around all this time & having patience with me for this book. This last episode has had some challenging scenes/moments to write & this time of year is just so crazy busy!! BUTTT THIS EPISODE/BOOK IS NOTTT OVER YETTT!! And Jordan & Iliana will be on the move in the next chap & we're getting down to the nitty gritty!!!

But hopefully one of y'all out there enjoys this emotional, deep, & thoughtful chapters like I do. I know they're slower with no action, but to me they're very important when it comes to Iliana's character & her relationships!! Okay I'll stfu now lmao, happy early 1 year & 4 months to Golden Facade & thank y'all SO SO much for 32K+ reads!! AND UNTIL NEXT TIME, MWAHHHH!! <3333