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I try to back away as I hear Jordan yell at Cate.

"Don't fucking touch her!"

And suddenly everything around me melts away.

Suddenly I'm running through campus up to Magnet and Luke on fire...

"Hey, hey, hey. What's going on?"

Luke's hugging me saying he loved me.

"Find him." Luke whispers to me.

Then Jordan and I are outside of the Crimefighting building.

"You think I'm fucking happy I got my number one spot back because my twin fucking die?!" I scream at them.

And Magnet and I breaking into the Brink's office... finding a file of Sam.

"They call it The Woods. It's like this fucked-up hospital or something." Luke spits out over a phone we found in Andre's father's statue.

My head is spinning. Like actually spinning. I think I'm gonna throw up. I feel ill.

"Help Sam if you can, please."

"And how do we know you're not going to lose it like your brother, Golden Boy?" A sponsor appears in front of me.

Everything's flashing before my eyes, all at once.

"Golden Girl! Golden Girl!"

"I really fucking miss him." Magnet says as I'm crashing into his chest.

We're showing Emma the footage of Sam.

"We don't know who's in on it." Jordan snaps as we're all outside. "Maybe Dean Shetty."

"You wanted what Golden Boy had." Tek states at the interview, Andre sitting in front of him. "His girlfriend. The number one spot. He found out about you and Cate, cracked, am I right?"

"No, no, no. That didn't happen until..." Andre stutters.

I storm out of the interview... missing it.

"No, no, Goldie. Goldie, wait!" Andre hollers after me.

The sun shines, blindingly bright-

Today I start giving a damn. My voice echo's throughout my brain.

"I notice more than you think." Jordan takes a step towards me, in my dorm.

"Do you remember our first date?"

"How could I forget."

"You'd get everything you've always wanted." I tell them.

"No." They argue. "Not everything."

Jordan and I kiss- we're kissing- hard.

I can't breathe.

"You're all fucking puppets!" Sam screams.

He hits Andre.

"You were gone." Sam tells me, a stabbing pain shoots through my heart.

I turn over in bed to a naked Jordan Li.

The party-

"I want you to change to your girl form." I gaze up at Jordan through my lashes.

"What?" They chuckle. "No-"

"Yes." I argue.

"Iliana- you're drunk." They sigh.

"No I'm not."

We grind on each other while dancing, the sultry sweat bodies and music fades into the background at my body touches theirs. The heat, the electricity, oh God- it was almost too much to for me to handle.

"Everyone's staring." Jordan says lowly.

"Hope they like the view." I smirk, my hands tangling themselves in their hair as their grip on my tightens, their hands sliding down to cup my ass.

I don't what came over me, I just know I couldn't let it go.

I know I can't get our kiss out of my fucking head. Their words. Their mouth. I don't remember how we got to this party. I just knew if I lost the littlest bit of fucking courage I had now, then I would forever.

Our lips meet and it feels like I'm high, breathing them in as they deepen it.

We start clinging to each other's clothes, fighting to take them off as we burst into one of the bedrooms.

"I can switch." Jordan pants in between kisses, our lips not separating.

"Don't. Only during." I moan into their mouth. "Back and fourth."

Flashes of them on top of me blink in and out of my mind. Me screaming out their name as I grab onto the twisted sheets and my eyes roll to the back of my head as their hands grip the headboard of the bed, breaking it in the process.

It's been so long, so fucking long.

"Fuck, Iliana." Jordan groans.

I slip my finger under their chain and pull them into me and our lips meet again, like we haven't tasted each other in years.

That's what it feels like.

Kissing their lips made mine feel tainted. Tainted with love, and guilt. Sin and passion. Tainted with the thought of never letting them go again. Kissing them made me feel drunk and high, addicted and utterly alone.

Because once I tasted them, I never wanted to stop...

And then I did.

Tears fill my eyes as Cate comes back into view as she slowly brings her hands down, her eyes bleeding red over the blue.

"Il-"

I stare at the girl in front of me.

The one who would ditch class to go get margs. Who would go on shopping sprees. Would twerk on each other at clubs. Who has spent the night in my dorm room countless times, gossiping and giggling.

We've shared secrets, and laughs, and spilled our guts about boys to. Who shared my love for Luke. My sister, my wifey, my best friend, my Cate.

And now, standing in right in front of her, I don't even recognize her.

"Il, please-" Her voice cracks.

"How fucking could you." My eyes burn, igniting yellow. But I feel like my knees could buckle and I could fall at any moment.

She made me forget. Forget Luke's death, forget finding Sam, my baby brother Sam, kissing Jordan- sex.

Oh, my God.

"How could you?" The words fall weakly out of my mouth, barely audible.

My head's pounding as the dozens of memories she had erased over the past week all come rushing at once. Hitting me, bullet after bullet.

After she just made me relive every single one of them.

Because she fucking took them in the first place.

The girl I've known for years. Took some of the most important fucking memories from me.

And all I feel is rage. Because the one person I thought would never do that to me... did.

And I defended her. Like my life depended on it.

I shake my head, taking a step back, and my hand flies to her face, the sound striking through the air. I hear a gasp behind me as Cate reaches up to her cheek.

"Iliana, please, I-"

I step forward. "Go to fucking hell." And storm past her, and out of the room.

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Heyyyy... How we doing... Welcome back to Golden Facadeee <3

I've missed this book and Iliana SO fucking much y'all, omgggg, but we backkkk!!!

I've been WATINGGG to give y'all this chapterrrr, omg, especially after leaving y'all on that cliffhanger from last chapter, oop-

Soooo, what'd y'all think?!?!?

We got some VERY much needed SPICY Ilordan contenttt, omfggg, gotta feed y'all out there hehehe. That one part of Iliana's inner monologue about kissing Jordan I've had planned for literally ever & have been waiting for the right moment to add it in & this felt right ;)

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Oh we are SO back!! Happy 11, yes, that's right... 11 MONTHS to Gen V, AHHH!!! We're so close to 1 year y'alllll, how even?! And I'll see y'all in the next part, mwahhh!!