i hate life

but i'm too scared to die

how much of a hypocrite i am.

taking the dosage limit of pills

when i want to overdose and give up

why can't i just give up?

forging friendships with others

when i know they'll leave me anyway

why can't i just accept that and continue?

seeking compliments from others

when i know they're false lies

why can't i survive without love?

i hate life but i'm too scared to die

a walking mistake that can only hope

she finds her reason soon.