"Seth!" She calls out as I ram myself up inside of her.

"I fucking missed this," I grunt out as I slam her up against the shower wall, kissing her neck ferociously. "I missed being with you, Rae."

I bite down on the skin there then suck her flesh into my mouth, marking her. She fists her hands in my hair, tugging it roughly leaving me with a sharp pleasurable pain. One of her hands leaves my locks and scratches its way down my back. I can feel my skin cut open from the act but it feels so fucking good. Her grip loosens from my hair and goes back around my neck, choking me.

"Harder," I grit out at her making her tighten her grip. "That's it."

She cocks a sultry brow down to me, " oh, you like that, giant?"

I answer by rutting inside of her at an almost unhinged pace underneath the warm mist of the shower. The warmth, the wetness, this woman make everything feel so fucking good I can barely take it.

"Tilt your hips."

"You may be fucking me but don't forget who's in charge." She squeezes my neck letting me know she's the one controlling this situation and it makes my inner animal growl at her.

"Just fucking do it, Rae."

She gives me a hard look before doing it. Such a stubborn fucking woman. This new angle lets me hit that sweet spot of hers. You can tell the moment I hit it her eyes start fluttering to the back of her head and her grip on my neck loosens involuntarily.

"Oh fuck!" She cries out and begins tightening on me.

"Fuck! Tell me you're there, Rae. I can feel you squeezing me. I can- ooohhh."

I throw my head back and moan loudly in her shower as her pussy clamps down even harder. Rae smothers my lips with a ravenous kiss as she begins milking my cock perfectly. She's fucking perfect. My jaw goes slack and my entire body goes rigid. I feel myself begin shooting strings of my load inside of her raw heat. She's kissing all over my face as it contorts with every last spasm I have in her.

I'm still holding onto her even as I partially collapse forward, leaning into her breasts against the stone wall of the shower. She combs her hands threw my hair affectionately and I can't help but squeeze my eyes shut at all the pleasurable feelings I'm experiencing.

"You're amazing." I kiss her bare breasts then move up to her clavicle bone with soft tender kisses. "I missed you so much."

"I missed you too, Seth."

She kisses my thick black hair and I can't help but feel like this moment is utter bliss. One I'll never forget.

✩✩✩

After several more rounds in the shower we've finally gotten out. I'm watching her as she silently dries herself off. We couldn't keep our hands off of each other just a few minutes ago and now she can barely look at me. I sigh internally knowing Rae's mercurial personality because, even though just a few moments ago we were relishing in each other's touch, something is definitely wrong now.

"Rae?" I tuck the towel in place around my waist. "Look at me."

"Mmm?" She said as she tucked her towel in place across her chest but she didn't look at me.

I lean against the bathroom sink and study her woefully asking, "what's up with you? What's wrong?"

She looks up at me finally, "you mean besides the fact I just cheated on my boyfriend with my old fuck buddy not once but several times?"

You've got to be fucking kidding me.

"Real fucking nice, Rae." I push off the sink and go back into the bedroom. "Just your fuck buddy? Real fucking nice."

"What?" I can hear her walk up behind me. "That's all we were. That's all that was just now and you know it, Seth,"

I turn around furiously, "I thought we established that you and I meant a hell of a lot more than that. I thought we'd decided to give this a chance. I mean, fucking hell, Rae. Isn't that what that was all about?" I gesture to the shower and the bed.

"That was a mistake." She may as well have just spit in my face instead of saying that.

"A mistake?" I feel my face contort in anger. "That was a mistake?" A moment that will live in my brain for the rest of my life was a fucking mistake. Awesome.

She walks over to her dresser saying, "yes, a giant one. One big fat fucking mistake." I feel like she just stuck a dagger right inside of my chest. My heart.

"Fuck this, Rae." My jaw ticks furiously. "And you know what? Fuck. You." I'm fucking done.

I storm out of the bedroom to go grab my clothes out of the dryer. I pull them out and realize I left my boxers back in the bedroom. I carry my clothes back into the space where she's changing. I throw my clothes down on the bed, the one we'd just fucked in because I guess that's all it was again. Just fucking. All those feelings I felt meant nothing to her. That or she's just trying to push me away again.

"Fine, just go ahead and leave then." She pulls her pants up her legs. "It's what you're good at. Leaving."

"Yup. Just about as good as you are with running away from your problems and pushing people away." I slide up my own pants positive now that she's just trying to shove me away before I get too close again.

"Excuse me?" She puts her hands on her hips, still topless.

"You heard me." I slide my shirt over my head. "Use me then kick me out. Call me a mistake because you're trying to push me away. You're afraid of this." I gesture between the two of us. "So now you're just going to run away from what just fucking went down between us because you're scared, Rae."

"I'm not scared. What the hell are you talking about?"

"The fact that you want to be with me instead of your shit-head boyfriend but you're too afraid to admit to yourself how you feel about me. How you feel about us and what just happened between you and I."

"Obviously not. I don't want to be with you and you don't want to be with me." She shrugs.

"You know that's a bold-faced fucking lie, Rae." I grit out.

"I'm sure Chrissy would be happy to take you back and Lia-"

I don't let her finish as I take two strides over to her and get right in her face saying, "If you truly wanted us to be with other people you wouldn't have let me hold you the way I did last night. You wouldn't let me touch you, caress you, be inside you like that. And to top it all off, if you truly wanted to be with that fucking loser you wouldn't have let me cum in your pussy that many fucking times."

Her eyes glare up at me before saying, "get out of my god damn face, Seth." She goes to move around me but I don't move. "Move."

"Make me."

"I said," she shoves against me but I'm much larger than her, I don't even budge at all. "Walk away." She shoves me again. "Go. Just fucking go!"

"What happened to you to make you so fucked in the head, Rae?" I point to her scars. "What the fuck are those and why do you let them control you?"

"What?" She blinks back tears. "What'd you just say to me?" She covers her bare chest with both of her arms as tears cant help but fall down her face. "Why the fuck would you even say that, Seth? Jesus."

I just went way too fucking far.

"Rae..."

"No. Get out." She begins to cry even harder. "Go."

"Rae, I'm sorry." I reach out for her but she jerks away from me.

"I said get the fuck out!" She screams as she turns away from me.

I debate leaving but I don't think that's what she really needs. She definitely didn't need me to be a raging asshole but I had been and now I have to fix that.

"Rae, I'm a fucking asshole. I'm so fucking sorry."

She lets out a sob and looks at the floor, clinging to herself. I walk up so that I'm standing in front of her and wrap my tattooed arms around her.

"GET OUT! GET OUT! GET OUT!" She screams into my chest. "Get out." The last one was so broken and said between sobs that I feel my heart tear in half.

"I'm sorry, Rae." I kiss the top of her head and she just cries. "I'm so fucking sorry. I'm an asshole."

After a while she reigns in her tears and pulls away from me. She lets go of her chest, exposing her nakedness to me and points to her burns.

"These are a reminder of why you can't trust assholes. These are a constant reminder that I was taken advantage of. That I was literally burned into submission. Made to give up my body for a man to do with what he wished and if I didn't give into him willingly... well," she caresses the burns "I got another one of these."

I feel my face fall. I'm ashamed that I'd even bring her scars into our argument. I look down at the handful of burn marks and can't help but ask, "who did that to you? How many times did he... did he..."

"Burn me or fuck me?" I feel my heart break for her. "I have nine burn marks but he stopped that once I let him take me."

"Jesus Christ, Rae." I feel a red-hot rage boil in me. "Who? Who the fuck did that to you?"

She looks away. "No one."

"Rae, tell me. Please, let me help you." Let me beat the man bloody.

"Why? So you can tell me what a head case I am?" She turns around and goes into the drawer, fishing out a bra and a t-shirt. "I'm all set with that, Seth."

"Rae, I said I'm fucking sorry." I run my hand through the ends of my hair and give it a hard tug. "You just... you just fucking infuriate me sometimes. You get me so fucking angry. All I want to do is love you and you push me away every time."

She freezes, her back still facing me. "What?"

"I said I'm tired of fighting. I just want to love you, Rae."