I pull up to the building Rae said she now lived in. It's brand new, beautiful, and most likely has a ridiculously expensive rent that goes along with it. Harbor Luxury Apartments. I wonder if it's as big as her brother's place. He really didn't need a three bedroom apartment all to himself but that's Rhys for you. He was always one to over-indulge, much like his sister had this evening.

Rae was quiet the entire car ride. She just stared aimlessly out the window, not engaging me in any way. I'd even asked her a few questions but she didn't answer me. Just stared blankly, ignoring every single thing I was saying.

I hop out of the truck and go over to her side. I open the door, offering her a hand to help her get down. She grabs ahold of it and goes to step down but her heels catch and she falls forward into my arms. I hold her for a moment as she lets out a long string of expletives.

"You alright?" I asked, looking down at her.

"I'm fine." She looks up at me saying, "you can let me go now, Seth." I slowly release her not really wanting to let her go. I hadn't held her in my arms since seeing her at the restaurant and it had been months before that.

"You want me to walk you inside?"

"No, I've got it." She takes a step forward and stumbles a bit, letting out an irritated sigh as she does so. "Fine, yes and you can wipe that smirk right off your face."

My shoulders shake as I try to hide the laugh and smile that want to escape me. "Sorry, shall we?" I hold out an elbow to her.

She takes it and leads the way forward into the building. We take the elevator up to almost the top floor then walk down a short hallway to her apartment. She tries opening the door but can't get a handle on her keys.

"Jesus H Christ, I can't do anything right now." She fiddles with the keys some more angrily. "Oh my fucking god. I swear-"

"Here, let me." I put my hand over hers and help her unlock the door.

Once it's open I don't know what to do. Here lately this would be the part where I grab the woman, kiss her passionately, and then take her straight to her bedroom. That clearly wasn't going to happen right now though, no matter how badly I may want it to. So I just stand there awkwardly.

"Thanks." She removes her keys from the door, stepping inside.

I nod. "Looks like a nice place."

She stares at me for a moment as if contemplating something. "You uh, you want to come in and check it out?"

Jesus fucking Christ, yes I do.

"Yeah, sure." She stares at me for one more moment before stepping aside to let me in. I take a few steps inside and eye a pair of men's slippers on the floor by the door. "Do you live by yourself?"

"Yeah," she shuts the door. "Those are Liam's. He just leaves them here for when he..."

"Got it." I don't need or want to hear about that. "How long have you lived here?"

"About six months." She slips her heels off. "You still living with your dad?"

"Nah, I got my own place."

"Nice." She walks into the kitchen and grabs two glasses out of the the cabinet. "Where abouts?"

"Not far from here actually." I cross my arms and lean against the counter as she pulls a bottle of whiskey out of the cabinet.

"Ice?"

"No, neat." She pours a small amount in each glass and then hands it to me. "Thanks." Even though I want to tell her she probably shouldn't have anymore, I don't. I'm not ready for her to kick me out just yet.

"So," she gestures around her, "what do you think?"

I look her up and down saying, "beautiful, as always."

She rolls her eyes, "about the apartment."

"Well, so far all I've seen is the entryway and the kitchen." I look around the fancy kitchen, "the kitchen is exceptional."

"Follow me." She pads her way out of the kitchen, down a small hallway, and down a few steps to a sunken in living room. "There's my big tv but the real charm is this," she gestures to the floor to ceiling windows that make up one entire wall.

"Wow," I exclaim as I walk up behind her.

"Right?" She turns around and smiles up at me looking absolutely gorgeous as she does. "The bedroom has windows like this too." She moves around me and walks into a room off the living room. I follow behind her, watching her hips sway back and forth as she enters her bedroom.

The bedroom is sexy. It's very sexy. It's all warm colors and a wall of windows. The thought of taking her on that bed, in front of that window, has me finishing my whiskey in a single gulp. The thirst is real.

"Definitely nice." I don't walk anymore than a few steps inside. I'm afraid I'll lose my self control if I get any closer to that bed, to her.

She caresses her duvet and looks over her shoulder at me with a smirk. "Mmm," the subtle sound comes from her as she bites her bottom lip. "Do you remember the last time we were in a bedroom alone together?" She sits on the bed with a sultry look on her face. "Do you remember that?"

How could I forget?

I nod, not trusting my mouth right now. She beckons me with a finger and even though I know it's not a good idea because she's had too much to drink, she's got a boyfriend, I can't help but move forward. She reaches up, grabbing two fists full of my shirt, pulling me down to her.

"You remember," she pulls me so my lips are just a breath away from hers, "leaving me all alone, in a cold and empty bed, to wake up to a god damn alarm telling me that was the last time, it's over?" She shoves me back with way more force then I thought she possessed, making me stumble backward. "You remember that fucking bullshit? Huh?" She stands up looking at me furiously. "Did you honestly think I would ever sleep with you again after what you fucking put me through?"

That was definitely not what I was expecting.

"Rae, you were going to break things off between us anyway." I say in a stern voice, "it's not like you're some wounded animal, Rae." Her face twists in anger but I continue on, "don't stand here and act like it was some big deal to you. Like we meant anything to you. Just like you said the other day to Chrissy, we were nothing to you. What we had was nothing." I feel all the hurt, all that anger. I feel it all, all over again.

"What the fuck are you talking about? After that night. After we... we made..." she looks away from me, shaking her head as she does so. "How can you even say that shit to me, Seth? How can you think you mean't nothing to me?"

"Yes, after that night, Raegan." I spit out incredulously, "after you told Liam you'd give him another fucking chance, let him kiss you, and let him feel all over your fucking body. A body I thought we'd said was only mine to touch. Then you basically agreed with him that I was nothing more than a god damn fuckboy. Then you fucking..." I look over at the window in irritation, "just fucking kissed him like that."

"Was he wrong?" She shouts at me. "You fucked me all night long and then just left without looking back! Without an explanation. I got nothing from you besides that stupid alarm. I wasn't even worth a conversation. You gave me nothing!"

"Nothing? I gave you nothing?" I place my hands on my hips and shake my head as I look back up at her. "Just some good dick and a good time, right? That's all I'm good for."

"No, Seth. We made-" she cant bring herself to say it.

"We made love that night." I deadpanned.

"And then you just," she bites her lips and looks at the floor, I see a few tear drops fall from her face. "You just left me, Seth," her voice cracking with those last words, specifically on my name.

"Rae," I can't see her like this, "you were going to end things between us. You were going to be with Liam. You said-"

"You were just using me, Seth. Please, stop acting like you wanted something more from me than what I'd been giving you." She looks up at me with red-rimmed eyes. "You didn't even want me to go with you anywhere. I was trying to show you I wanted more from you by asking if I could be there for you, show up for you but you didn't want to be with me in public. You just shrugged me off and you hid me like, like-"

"I hid you like a dirty little secret." I repeat the words Liam had said to her that night feeling absolutely disgusted with myself. "And you deserved more than that. You deserve more than that, Rae. You're right."

She covers her face with her hands, letting out a few heavy breaths. I can't tell if she's crying or trying to keep herself from crying. "Thank you for taking me home." Her voice is shaky, she sounds like she's about to break down. "You can go now." She turns away from me and walks hurriedly into the bathroom in her room, off to her right, then shuts the door.

Fuck that.

I'm not leaving. Not after that conversation, that realization. I walk back into the kitchen and refill my drink, this time to the rim. Then I walk back into her bedroom and sit on the edge of the bed, starring at the bathroom door.

After what seems like an eternity the door finally opens. There she is, standing in her underwear. Her puffy, red-rimmed eyes look up at me in shock.

"I thought I told you to leave." She tries to cover her body.

"I've already seen it, beautiful. There's no need to cover it." I sigh, looking at her longingly. "I'm not going anywhere."

"Like hell you aren't." She walks over to her dresser and pulls out a large, oversized night shirt then throws it over her body. "You need to leave right now."

"Why?" I let out a hearty sigh when I realize why she probably wants me to leave. "Is Liam coming over?"

"What?" Her eyebrows furrow. "No. You just can't stay here."

"I never wanted to leave you like that." I sip my drink and stare at the floor. "Rae, I swear I really thought you-"

"No, you don't get to do this." She cuts me off, causing me to look up at her. "You don't get to sit here and justify your shit actions while you're fucking my coworker."

"Rae," I continue bluntly with, "the only reason I'm sleeping with her is so that I can see you."

"Oh yeah, the only reason, huh?" She rolls her eyes. "Yeah, I'm sure that's the only reason, Seth. Not like she's stupid fucking gorgeous and you like getting your dick wet or anything. Yeah, sure, that has nothing to do with it." Her tone was laced with pure sarcasm.

I shrug. "I'm single, Rae. I don't have someone who keeps slippers at my place." I sip my drink again and honestly admit, "I'm lonely."

"He's my boyfriend, Seth." She comes up and sits next to me on the bed with a sigh. "I was going to ask you for more that night."

I cock my head and look over at her. "What?"

"I wanted more. I was going to talk to you about it in the morning but you weren't there."

I scrunch my brow in confusion. "But you told Liam you were going to give him another chance."

"I told him I'd think about it." She tucks her hair behind her ear as she looks at me with a sad face. "But I was going to give you a chance first. I was going to ask you to be more than just what we were. But you left."

I feel like I've just been stabbed in the chest. The person who did the stabbing, myself. I'd ruined my own chance, our chance at being something. I'd basically just served her up on a silver platter for Liam and I had no one else to be mad at but myself.