It's been 1 week and 4 days i last saw him, he didn't came home after our fight that day. He knows he's at mistake yet he didn't apologized nor he tried but how will he apologize because he is one hell of the egoistic and dominant man.

I don't want to think about him yet i just can't stop my mind to wander around, he is all over my thoughts and unintentionally my heart too.

To tell you the truth i unexpectedly fell in love with him and so damn hard that i can't even know how to stand up now. But that don't give him the liberty to break my trust, i never demanded to see those papers because i unknowingly trusted him and he.......

Maybe if the situation was different i would've denied my feelings for him but not seeing him for a total of 11 days is making me restless day by day, this feeling is so unbearable sometimes that i can't control my emotions and they flows out in the form of tears and anger.

A sigh left my mouth as i closed my book which i was trying to read for many days now but i just can't stop thinking about him. I sighed again and putting the book back in it's place, i made my way out of the library to Zimal's room. I am going to sleep with her tonight.

I chuckled as i saw Zimal sleeping posture. She was sprawled on her back and with her partly pouty lips, she was looking damn cute. I shooked my head smiling and brushing her hair away from her mouth, i softly placed a kiss and laid beside her hugging her softly.

And in like no time i was pulled in the deep slumber of sleep.

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I slightly woke up with feathery soft kisses on my face, they were so light and delicate that i was falling selflessly in the abyss of pleasure.

My forehead, my eyes, my nose, my cheeks, my lips, my jaw.....the soft wet sensation was repeated over and over again making my throat to dry up, making me want it more, making me thirsty for it. The overwhelming and pleasurable feeling was enough to get me out of my half broken sleep.

The first i saw was his closed eyes just an needle apart, i was trapped in his arms as he was hovering over me and his lips were sending tickling sensation to my core. His soft delicate pecks on my each feature of face was very pleasurable and his hold was very light as if he was holding a very precious thing.

I wanted to stop him, push him away but i was spellbounded and couldn't get myself to open my mouth to stop him.

He was still kissing me softly without any worry of the world, he didn't even realized that i had woken up. After a last peck on my lips, he placed the kiss on my side on the neck just below my earlobe. As soon as he kissed me there, unconsciously my hold tighten on the bedsheet. He licked it, then started sucking it softly yet fiercely and as the pleasure rustled like a electric current in my body, a slight pain made me hissed and it was so intense that i blew out a heavy breath.

The next second, the warm touch of his lips was gone, my eyes were closed from the slight pain on my neck but i knew his eyes were on me as i can feel his soul piercing gaze on my face.

I slowly opened my eyes to fall in love with his aquamarine blue eyes yet...again. We kept looking at eachother in pure silence, i didn't uttered a single word nor he initiated any word. Seconds passed liked minutes when he broke the silence in his deep, rough and husky voice "You can't even imagine for how long i wanted to suck this mole on your neck" I sucked in a heavy breath as he softly started to rub his thumb on the mole he just kissed. I was completely breathless under his intense gaze.

Without a single word more, he slammed his lips against mine. I was feeling numb at my neck and his soft lips just evoked a foreign desire to made me feel out of the world. The kiss wasn't soft, he was ruthlessly sucking my lips as if hungry from a lifetime. While his lips were doing the sweet torture, his hands slid in my kurti making me moan out aloud "Umm" he squeezed my waist roughly closer to him before his lips invaded my mouth. The feeling was so intense and unbearable that i felt my insides were clenched together. He explored every nook of my mouth while his tongue perfectly mingled with mine making me tug him closer holding his hairs in a fist.

When i was totally out of breath then only he let my lips go. Taking heavy breaths against his rigid breathing, i closed my eyes and felt his forehead against mine with his soft breath teasing me for more "I will never be sorry for kissing you because........." He mumbled slowly against my surely swelled lips.

I slowly opened my eyes for him to complete his sentence but his eyes were closed against my forehead. I let out a deep breath to clear my clogged lungs but he opened his eyes for a whole butterfly zoo to spread across my stomach.

I instantly averted my eyes down as i can't afford to lose myself in his eyes but the second i averted, my chin was softly lifted up "Yuhaan....." I trailed off at his soft yet commanding tone "Keep quiet" just as his words left his mouth, his lips yet again slammed against mine. He wasn't kissing me just repeatedly pecking my lips softly.

What is wrong with him tonight? Do men with desire are like him?

"Yuhaan Stop!" I softly pushed him a inch away by placing my hand on his chest or i say at his abnormally beating heart. I was immediately going to pull my hand away but he placed his hand over it to stop me "Feel it" I kept looking at him. When i didn't uttered a single word, he softly let out a sigh and placing my hand away softly he wrapped his arms around me, hugging me tightly. His legs were already tangled with mine and now i was completely trapped beneath him or i say against him because his body was glued to me like my second skin.

He softly placed a kiss on my neck before snuggling his head in the crook of my neck "I missed you" he mumbled slowly stopping me to push him away and unknowingly my lips curled up. I wanted so many answers from him yet i kept quiet.

After a few minutes he stood up himself without me asking him to get away, without making an eye contact he walked out of the room. I narrowed my eyes at him before sitting straight against the bedtake. I swear if he again disappeared without a word after kissing me like that then i am going to kill him with my bare hands.

But before i could've burst out in anger, he walked in with a file in his hands, he forwarded the file to me and narrowing my eyes at him, i took it from his hands "Although they aren't valid now but you can still file a case against me" It was our contract papers! Of course the one with only my signature on them.

I chuckled before making an eye contact with him "And Mr. Yuhaan Hamdaani, the king of Peninsula estate will readily go behind the bars"? I asked arching an eyebrow at him to which he seriously nodded saying "I deserve to be punished because i broke your trust" atleast he knows what he did was wrong, i kept the urge to smile in and placed the file on the side table mumbling "Okay!" Well Mr. Iceberg, you will definitely be punished but not from anyone else but from me.

"Why i am in this room"? I asked and the reply he gave, made me avert my eyes from him a bit shyly "Because this is your room and i can't kiss you when Zimal was right beside you, now can i"? Why did i even asked, even though my question was kind of unnecessary for the situation i am in but still he is too direct in his words.

"What was that kiss for"? I asked keeping my gaze on his every little expression but as usual he was expressionless and replied in an honest tone "I missed you" he surprisingly repeated his words again.

I softly sighed and started playing with my fingers when he laid on the bed placing his head on my lap and i instantly gasped in surprise "Yuhaan....." I trailed off as he requested politely "Please can we not fight tonight"?

I sighed again as he kept looking at the ceiling quietly before breaking off the silence, the room was still dark but the moonlight was enough to illuminate the room.

"I had a sister Husniyah, she was 3 years younger than me. In that palace, she was my only light, my happiness
............ but she....d-died at the hands of her own father, he killed her right infront of my eyes, she took her last breath in my arms, her last smile is still as refreshed as the morning. I couldn't save her, what kind of brother am i?......My mistake, all f*cking my mistake........." I instantly placed my hand on his hand as i felt him shiver slightly. He took a hold of my hand with both of his hands and closed his eyes as tears started to roll out of his eyes.

My heart clenched seeing him like that but he have to let it out for once and for all "I know it's not your fault....." I trailed off as he snapped open his eyes "I was going to die that night but she came in between, it is my fault to let her come in between........ She was supposed to be sleeping soundly in her room that night, why did she had to look for me for a midnight game?......just why"? He started off in anger but his voice cracked in between. I cleaned his tears but kept quiet because right now he wasn't in his right state of mind to listen anything.

"After that 'She' «His mother» also left, leaving me and my brother all alone. I begged her to stay but she didn't listened to me, she divorced her husband, my so called father the supposed King. Although he wasn't ready to divorce her but with the help of my grandfather she escaped leaving me in that hell hole. That b*stard never raised his hands on my elder brother because according to him, he was the future king and i was the only one for him to let out his anger"

"My grandfather was a great man, Although he helped to get the divorce but he couldn't do much for the custody of the children because the blood running through our veins was royal and unfortunately we both brothers were the direct heirs of that kingdom. My grandfather used to help me alot, for the punishment to his son, he dethroned him for the rest of his life and resumed the throne by himself. But that b*stard just couldn't take this loss laying down, he took his anger on me but in more extreme methods. I can't even explain he......" He trailed off and his hold tightened on my hand.

"Leave it" I mumbled in a soothing manner getting his attention towards me. The fear in his eyes was like a tale of his soul piercing pain, i again cleaned his tears softly and he also cupped my face cleaning the wetness on my cheeks then only i realized i was crying "Why are you crying"? He asked in his hoarse voice and i mumbled a reply slowly "I don't know"

Unintentionally i started telling him about my past life "My father was an alcoholic and a complete corrupt person, he used to beat me alot when under the influence of alcohol and without alcohol he was always disgusted with my mere existence. According to him he wanted a son but i was borned, a girl. He always opposed my study but books were my solace and how can i just leave my only peace. So, i used to hide from him to study, there was my mother too but she was pulled in depression with his behaviour. In start she used to save me, help me but as the time passed and with her two miscarriages in a row, she lost her sanity. I didn't had money to take her to a doctor, there were times when i slept with empty stomach and no one cared except Sumaira aunty «Afreen's Mother»" I sighed placing my head on the bedtake and continued.

"After my mother's condition got worse day by day, Aunty took me to her house, she filed a report in police station but you know how the Pakistani police work, they only work for the people with money. They weren't rich at that time so she couldn't do much but i was happy that at least there was someone who cared for me. My Allah was always there for me. On my 19th birthday, my father died in the accident under the influence of alcohol. Aunty borrowed money from one of her friend and admitted my mother to the hospital and from then on she slipped in the coma" I completed and looked down at him who was just staring at me blankly.

"How could you still smile after all those mishappenings in your life"? His voice was low and deep. I smiled and answered softly "Because i have my Allah with me"

"I never hated my mother who neglected me when i needed her the most because i can't even imagine what kind of pain she was going through. I didn't even hated my father because i knew my Allah will settle all the scores with him. I got my freedom, my life back after turning 19. Everything i am today is because of my Allah" He kept quiet but his blue orbs were staring right through my soul.

"Can you try to f-fogive your mother"? I hesitated but still asked him in a requesting tone. His expressions changed but before he would utter a word i hurriedly requested "Please for once don't think from your point of view but from hers. Believe me when i say that i truly understand you because i too faced all this but can you for once put yourself in her shoes and think all this with clear mind. I know you will get what i am trying to say"

His intense gaze was stilled on my face, he kept quiet and after a minute he closed his eyes turning his face towards my waist and wrapped his one arm around my waist. I stiffened when his warm breath invaded my thin layer of clothing and in no time his soft snores were resounded in the room.

Unknowingly my lips curled up, i softly brushed his hairs away, the dark circles under his eyes were very prominent giving me an hint of his many sleepless nights. Without thinking anything else i placed a kiss on his forehead just to have him snuggle his face closer to my waist. I let out a sigh and placing my head on the bedtake, i didn't knew when i slept holding his one hand protectively.