:( i'm a brat and i'm seriously having a panic attack rn over absolutely nothing
i just really don't want to die, yannow? and hanging around old shriveled people is taking a toll on me and looking at photos of me with dead people and being around people who are about to die
i just really don't want to get old or die guys and i can't believe i'm having a panic attack over such a stupid fucking thing rn
and i watched a good crime doc today but now i can't stop thinking about that sleepover and her dad and i just keep crying in small bursts
and i got called a whore by my brother today, which apparently i might be because my mom also seriously asked me if i was pregnant today... so i probably need to stop eating again to make myself look not pregnant
all of my friends are better at drawing and doing school and sports and fun than i am and i just- i try so hard and spend so much time and honestly everything about me is the same level of shit it was two years ago so i just feel like a failure in that sense too
i really thought i was getting better about all of this but i'm just getting my head shoved into the mental toilet right now

yeah so you can see, i am such a brat that i'm crying over absolutely nothing so ignore me!