SECRET'S SAFE WITH ME...

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𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄
raziela.
• the lord's secret ; hebrew.
xu.
• chinese surname meaning "slowly, calmly".

𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐒𝐄𝐒
commonly referred to by peers as raz.
her third father figure named her jian, and she went by this name for mang, many years. jian is a piece of chinese folklore and is what a ghost becomes when they die again.
when using code names, raziela tends to switch up between a couple of different ones. all have some form of significance fo her, and her top two include:
•bambang (chinese, meaning knight or soldier, usually a boys name);
•and taipan (species of fast moving, highly venomous snakes).

𝐀𝐆𝐄
twenty-three.

𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐄
the spiderweb / spy.

𝐁𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐃𝐀𝐘
august 28th.

𝐙𝐎𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐂
virgo.

𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑
• biological sex: female.
• gender identity: female.

𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐒
she/her.

𝐒𝐄𝐗𝐔𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘
• romantic orientation: panromantic.
• sexual orientation: bisexual.

𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄
(updated fc lmao) zhu zhu.
•height: 1.7m / 5 foot six.

𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘
raziela is a resourceful and diligent young woman, with a knack for eavesdropping on people. she may be quite tall, but such would never bar her from using her smaller frame and quick feet to sneak around. being as resourceful as she is, raz finds clever ways to sort out problems, usually quite quickly at that. you could definitely call raz a problem solver, for she absolutely solves problems in most cases quite efficiently. she's also a careful young woman, who shows great care for her work as a spy. she keeps her codes and information organized neatly, is always punctual when it comes to timelines, and simply just treats her job with as much consciousness as one can.
raz is a persuasive young woman, who tends to find new and creative ways to get what information she wants out of people.
one quite interesting thing about raz is how dogmatically she speaks. she speaks as if every word leaving her mouth were inconvertibly true, even if she's lying or bending the truth. her tone of voice and her way of speaking never adjusts or modifies itself as she effortlessly switches between lies and reality, making it much harder to detect such lies. her voice is sharp and her words are distinguishable, with the hint of an asian accent at the tip of her tongue.
it wouldn't be incorrect to call raziela sort of... enigmatic. she has an alluring aura about her, once that leaves people wondering what brought her to this point and how. raz has an enticing, tempting femininity and a soft drawl to her words. the innocence in her dark eyes is what truly draws people in, because everybody knows she isn't innocent. she knows how to use her sex appeal at times, but often ignores it. she finds it degrading to be only useful when in sexual situations and thus nearly completely avoids them, which is honestly a driving factor in how dissident she is today.
the most notable feature from face value of this young wan is how aloof she always seems. she's insouciant, her facial expressions always kind of bland and uncaring. those who work in her field would have to know better than to let themselves become too emotional, in her opinion at least. with that being said, it becomes clear why raz tends to have a general lack of concern for others, and in many situations, would put on a brave face and to try and push that same general lack of concern upon herself.
another thing to note is that raz is, at most times, a stoic. she's endured many pains and hardships, all with a straight face. she doesn't show her feelings by crying, or complain by groaning about cramps. she keeps it all to herself, and keeps it all held in with a straight face.
the most notable externally undetectable feature of raziela xu is her dishonesty, the second most being her disloyalty. raz has transformed into a wonderful liar, one might even call her a compulsive liar in the amount of little fibs and lies she tends to bring into conversations. the way she speaks, once again, makes her untruths very difficult to detect by most, which tends to give her an upwardly advantage in nearly any conversation. the one exception to her constantly pushing her lick with lies would be her work. when it comes to her work, raz takes herself and her duties very seriously. she would never lie when it came down to her work; she would never take that chance. in every other aspect of her life, however, she lies for her own advantage and just to generally please others, at times. she says what she thinks wants to be heard.
now, to her fickleness, her dishonourable lack of loyalty. this tends to tie quite directly in with her dishonestly, mainly for the fact that if it all boiled down to it, raziela would say or do anything and everything she could if it meant she could save herself. her loyalty is fickle as a result of her morality, which tends to change with the temperature. raz is self-driven and self-absorbed in the sense that most everything she does must benefit her in some way, whether directly or indirectly. she does whatever she deems better for herself in the long run, regardless of possible consequences or the context of the situation.
raz is never one to outwardly reveal her thoughts or her feelings. you would never find her talking about how she feels to somebody, nor does she ever reveal her thoughts. this is what she thinks will keep her one step ahead of others: by never revealing herself, she maintains a mental advantage over everybody around her.
her disloyalty is immense, but raz is, in a related way, quite treacherous. only morrigan would know, sure, but raz is, essentially, a traitor to the crown. a double agent, if you will. raz considers operating under multiple facets to be extremely self-beneficial, which is why she does it - this is not out of character for her. only one of the immense benefits is that she knows that she will always have a backup plan to fall back on, no matter how dangerous or morally wrong her treason to either side could be, or - in the case of already being a double agent - already is.

𝐎𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒
• on: the witch hunts
raziela honestly doesn't care. sure, kill them. as long as she isn't involved, she doesn't really have much of an opinion.
• on: sexism
raz knows that there aren't many female spies. she just doesn't care. she knows that she can do equal, or even better than men can do, and is determined to prove that she's right. raz is disgusted with sexism and would surely attempt murder on anyone who tried to objectify her for her body, for she's spent so long trying to prove that she's so much more than that.
• on: homophobia
as someome who is not straight, and has also dealt with some extreme homophobia as a young teen (see backstory), raz would ultimately kill anyone who showed that sentiment in front of her. the anger of her past always comes back when someone is openly homophobic. she loses her composure far more easily than usual.

𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐆𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃
(this is honestly a tiny bit rushed and super duper condensed oops)
raziela was born into a middle class kind of lifestyle. her parents were not nobles, nor were they peasants. raz's father was a young armourer, who took the job after his father died. he'd been doing it for many years, and was quite good at his craft. when raz was born, her mother was four or five years younger than her father, and they'd both gotten married after about two weeks of formally being in contact with each other. it seemed like a fast movement and a naive pairing, but they were soulmates.
raz's mother was never a notable lady, at least not in her story. raz honestly hardly remembers her. she grew ill around raz's fifth birthday, and from then on, she would hardly see her mother. the one monumental thing she supposes her mother did was birth her and her twin, a boy who she named bambang. raz and her brother became best friends, even as toddlers. they ran around their property and played with sticks, pretending to be knights and warriors in battle. they play fought all day and every day, even more-so once their mother fell ill and their father had to continue working.
her mother was going to die anyways, but raz was never expecting the rest of her family to. she was seven, maybe eight years old, when a house fire erupted from an unquenched candle. raz was the only survivor, having been awoken by the smoke before she inhaled too much. she crawled along the floor and had to exit through a window, her only way of escape. the fall wasn't too far, quite luckily for her, but that concluded the first near death experience of her childhood. nobody but her survived. not even the dog.
she was taken in by a family friend of her mother's, so so so luckily for her. the man's wife had died six years prior, leaving him and his several children to fend for themselves. the man was a farmer, as well as the older three siblings, who were all strong males who could lift and help around the farm. she became friends with the oldest daughter of the man, and they struck up a bit more than a friendship, eventually. maybe it was wrong, maybe they were meant to be more sister-like figures for each other since raz had been taken in by them, bur neither of the young girls cared.
skip forward a little and both girls are around thirteen years old. raz's girlfriend's father was extremely homophobic, so he was quite unaccepting of their relationship together. as it got worse and worse, raz saw an exit for both of them.
an assassin'a eyes were wide as he stared at the pile of money the little girl had placed in front of him. "is this enough? can you do it"? the man was too shocked to speak. he'd never had... young... female clients before, and was at a loss for words. it took some convincing, but eventually an assassin was hired to kill the man keeping raz and her girlfriend from being together. too bad the man found out, for when raz got home there was utter silence across the entire house. utter, complete, traumatizing silence. then, there was a man standing over the body of his daughter. the body of raz's girlfriend. she screamed and the man turned, flashing a bloody knife at her. raz was chased from the property, and screamed and cried all the way back to the bar so she could get her money back.
now, this was the second time a stranger was about to adopt her into his life. he called her jian, her two near deaths being symbolic, to him at least. she was an undead ghost, having lost her family twice. what did jian have left to live for? for herself. the assassin wanted to teach her how to be strong, how to be cunning and useful. he taught her everything she knew, up until the time when she was finally accepted into the spiderweb. then, she finally got some real, formal training.
now, the rest is pretty much history, but it's worth noting that she was approached later on to become a double agent for morrigan, and has accepted the offer. so, that's where she is right now.

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I'LL SHOW THEM ALL.

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TO KILL A KINGDOM.