Y/N POV
Levi walked into the room at, what I assumed was, night.

I sat down on the bed and attempted to look normal. My heart still pounding after what Armin and I did hours ago.

Eye contact with Levi's dark eyes made me look away. I thought I could play it cool. Fake it, and maybe even keep eye contact and hold a conversation with the psycho.
But I couldn't.
Not after what Armin and I did.
In this bedroom, in this bed that Levi got for himself and I and only him and I.

"Y/N." He sat next to me on the bed and held my hand. His fingers traced my bandage wrists. "I'm sorry for hitting you last night."

I forced myself to look at him and give him a smile. It wasn't the first time he had hit me. He had hit me multiple times before while we were still in headquarters and he was trying to talk to me. But last night, somehow, him hitting me felt different.

"Don't apologize Levi. It was my fault." I began my act. "I shouldn't have said that I wasn't your wife anymore."
His stare was intense and it was hard for me to keep eye contact.

"I shouldn't have sighed those papers Commander Erwin gave me."

I looked away hoping my eyes didn't reveal my true feelings, but he grabbed my jaw. Forcing me to look at him. "Then why did you, y/n?"

I didn't know what to say, so I leaned towards him to kiss him.

He didn't kiss back. In fact, he pushed me back on the bed and got up. Looking down at me, his eyes revealed a hidden emotion behind that annoying stare.

Hate? Disgust?

He took off his shirt and got on top of me. "Are you going to answer my question,y/n?" He asked as he kissed my neck.

All I did was close my eyes, resisting the natural urge to push him off me and scream for help.
I close my eyes and the image of Armin came. What we did hours ago before Levi came.

"Why did you get with that brat Armin??!!" His hands travelled to my slit wrists and he held them really tight.

"What do you mean?!?!" I began struggling to get him off me.
Did he know what Armin and I did before he arrived? He's going to kill both of us!

"That day in the women's bathroom....he said you two were together. Why?"

And I stopped struggling as my body relaxed again.

"I was confused....and hurt." My eyes wandered off to the bedroom's ceiling. "Because of what happened on our wedding night."

I quickly looked at his eyes again but looked away. He didn't seem convinced. "But I like you. I've always have." And I forced myself to kiss him again.

But he just got off me and sat on the bed. His eyes traveling to the bedroom's door.

"Ever since I saw you around.... I liked you." I continued lying.
And that sentence must have meant something to him because he pinned me to the bed and kissed me.

"I brought you the clock you wanted." He whispered between kisses but I didn't say anything anymore. I didn't know what to say.

I closed my eyes and let him kiss me. My only comfort was Armin. Closing my eyes and pretending it was Armin kissing me and touching me. Because Armin would never hurt me.

"Please don't ever try to kill yourself again." Levi whispered in my ear but if I pretended that it was Armin whispering those words in my ear, it didn't seem that sinister anymore.

"Look at me." Levi's voice woke me up from the sheltered world I had created in my mind to cope with this situation.

I opened my eyes and he forced me to keep eye contact as he grabbed my jaw to face him, and began to make me his. In seconds, my body began to feel numbed.

It was hard to fantasize about Armin while looking at Levi and having him on top of me. But I saw Armin between eye blinks. My comfort. The only reason I didn't lose it and attempted to kill myself again.

I kept eye contact with him as my hand slowly travelled under my pillow where I hid the small blade from the razor.
In seconds I had the blade in my hand.

One slit to his throat and this whole nightmare is over and Armin and I can finally leave.

"You saved my life, y/n." He spoke again between heavy breaths and kisses. "All my friends were dead, and the ones I have left.... I know they will eventually die because of those fucking titans . And I wanted to die....but then you smiled at me.....you saved me y/n. I love you. I'll love you forever." And his words made my arms weak. My hands and legs tremble.

Another kiss and all the resentment I had towards Levi faded. Along with the image of Armin.