Jeon Jeongguk
a nice name now that I think of it

he walked up to me during the funeral
he was the only person I knew

other than Hoseok's distraught parents

wearing black
concealing all the skin that I assumed to be pale

like mine

"so... how do you feel?"

I shrugged
not having the energy to communicate properly that day

he nodded in response
I watched as he inhaled deeply before saying

"I feel like a six out of ten"

immediately
I had furrowed my eyebrows
completely confused

he came closer to my ear
with his hand creating a makeshift barrier from his mouth

"I won't lie
I feel lower than six but it's a song soooo"

he stopped himself and giggled awkwardly
"sorry I'm strange"

I shook my head
saying that it was fine

that we'll all be acting atypical for a while now
he actually understood what I meant

"yeah... well
please talk to me whenever you need"

I nodded
reluctant inside

he gave me a swift goodbye
before going over to some of Hoseok's relatives

I didn't
was that selfish too?

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