drip
drip

the blood dropped from my arm
onto the bathroom flooring

drip
drip

I had placed the sliver blade onto the sink
turned the hot water tap on

drip
drip

I had let the water gush onto my skin
the sink filled with red

yet my mind
of nothing

past the closed door
I heard my phone faintly ring on my bed

I thought it was Jeongguk
he liked checking up on me

as the ringing stopped
I looked in the mirror at myself

my lifeless eyes
my dark bags

my frail body
my pale skin

yet no one questioned my appearance
so I turned to something which would bring me some sort of feeling

for my numbed senses

yet how can something meant to be so painful
bring me no pain?

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