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My Dearest Moonbin ♡

It's 5 months now and I know I am late for my letter but...
I miss you so much.
Your beautiful smile always made me feel so loved and happy.
Because of you, I felt happy even in hard situations.

I still cry every day and every night.
The thing is, I don't just cry because of you.
I often cry because I remember that if I feel so down, how did/do your family and friends (especially sanha, eunwoo, Sua, seungkwan, and sin.b) feel?
It always breaks my heart again and again when I read the letters your friends and family wrote to you.

Also, the thing is, sanha's >wish< just hits differently since the day you left us.
It feels like the universe knew it all from the beginning.

I know that the death must be respected, but there is one thing I want to say to him...

>Fuck you, death!! Why did you take him?
What was the reason? He was just so young and had so many things he wanted to do.
Why are you doing this to us? Why are you doing this to his beloved ones?
Just tell me why? Why couldn't you just take me instead of him? Just tell me your fucking reason for this damn torture!<

If I could turn back the time I would tell eunwoo to stay in korea so he could've been by your side.
(By the way, I am not saying that it's eunwoos fault or something!)

Every time I look into the moon, I think about you and the other ones that left us too soon.

And if there were one thing I could say to God, it would be:

> Please, just please take good care of our little stars that left too soon.
Please give them in their next life's an enjoyable, happy and beautiful life.
They didn't deserve to leave us this soon.
Please take care of them and make sure they will shine bright on the beautiful night sky and in the whole universe.
Amen 🙏 <

Please always shine for us as bright that the whole universe could see you.

Rest in peace, my beautiful binnie.

For our other bright stars, I wish the same.

I also wish all of your family and friends the best, and I hope they can be happy again.

Lots of love >josi< ♡

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𝓡.𝓲.𝓹 𝓜𝓸𝓸𝓷𝓫𝓲𝓷
26.01.1998 ~ 19.04.2023