27 - Don't Do This
{AHSOKA'S POV}
I couldn't even begin to accept the fact that (y/n) is willing to give up her life to her own brother in order to save mine... I can tell now that Anakin will be less than happy about this new development also, but I had a strange feeling that told me that (y/n) would not actually tell him. Yet another thing for him to be angry about later on.
Not that there's going to be a 'later on' for her...
I just wish I could change her mind.
I am more than willing to sacrifice my life for her; it's technically my duty as a Jedi to do whatever I can to keep the sole ruler of the Solarian people alive, but it's not exactly as if I have followed the code myself completely up till now. Which also links to my other reason of being willing to save her: my emotional attachment to her as she has become almost like a sister to me over the past month or so.
Despite the fact that my life was currently in jeopardy, as I sit in this cold prison cell, my thoughts are primarily focused on my Master and how he was going to react when he either finds out (y/n) has sacrificed herself to Ayzel or he had to watch her do so. Every time I think about the pain he will have to endure if she goes through with it, an excruciating pain hits my heart. Anakin was almost like my big brother to me, and to see him like that... well let's just say it feels like complete torture.
I know as well... about them, that is. About how they feel for one another.
I've known from the moment I met her in the training room as I saw how Anakin looked at her; his eyes were overflowing with complete and utter adoration for (y/n). I noticed his failed attempts to win her over, his awkward flirtations from time to time and his constant compliments. I silently observed how his mood drastically changed whenever she was brought up or if she so much as walked into the room, as if she was the light to his darkness and without her, he would just eventually flicker out.
Don't even get me started on (y/n). She may have seemed oblivious to his not-so-subtle feelings for her and she may have pretended to act as though she thought nothing of it; but I knew that wasn't the case. She always had the same look in her eyes for him as he had for her and even though she was incredibly skilled at concealing it, she couldn't fool me. She especially didn't help matters when she poorly tried to excuse herself when I found Anakin's robe in her bedroom closet.
{FLASHBACK}
"What's this?" I said, holding the large robe out in front of me. "This isn't your size, and your robe is brown, (y/n)."
I smirk in amusement at her as she frantically searched for an answer, "Uhhh Skywalker left it on the floor, I was going to return it to him."
I raise my eyebrows in disbelief. "But Anakin arrived here without a robe, and found one outside of your bedroom when we came to find you. Meaning... you had it!"
{FLASHBACK ENDS}
I snigger to myself as I relive the memory of that day, remembering just how flustered and panicked she was thinking I was going to actually use my common sense and figure it out. Anakin was never that good at concealing his feelings either... especially on that night where Ayzel had kidnapped (y/n) at the ball and he got so distressed that his emotions simply just got the better of him.
{FLASHBACK}
Anakin suddenly jumps up immediately and yanks me by the arms to bring me up with him. I shot a look at him as though he was crazy as he frantically looked around the courtyard.
"Uhhh, Master? What are you doing," I ask him, holding out my hands to steady him as though he was a spooked animal.
"We have to find her!"
"Master you need to calm down-"
"Ahsoka, no-"
"Anakin, please stop for a moment and think!" I urge him, but he pays no notice to him. I notice him becoming tenser by the second, looking as though he was about to explode with hysteria due to his emotions.
"I have to find her, I love her!"
He finally snapped.
{FLASHBACK ENDS}
Sighing, I place my head in my hands, my mind throbbing from my uncertain thoughts whirring inside of my mind as I try to keep the scenario of what would become of Anakin after (y/n) gives her life to Ayzel. He would lose his mind, maybe even his last thread of motivation to continue his role in the Order. The worst thing was, was that I couldn't even signal to Anakin to warn him of what (y/n) and Ayzel were planning to do.
Why?
Well of course, it was due to this Force-restrictive cell (y/n)'s simply charming brother had thrown me into after he paraded me in front of the hologram just to push (y/n) that tiny bit further so she would finally give into his wishes... No matter how much I tried or no matter how hard I concentrated, I couldn't connect with (y/n) or Anakin.
I was completely and utterly powerless.
I can't help her.
I can't help him.
And now they're both going to suffer immense pain by losing one another even though they haven't even had the chance to even have each other in the first place. I know that I wouldn't have told Obi-Wan or the Council... I just want them to be happy. They have already suffered so much over their lifetimes: Anakin with his mother and Master Qui-Gon, (y/n) with her parents and even now with her supposed-to-be-dead brother.
Speak of the devil.
"Good evening, little Jedi. You did splendidly before by the way.. you know, in convincing my sister into finally letting me destroy her," the evil smile of Ayzel comes into view as he closes the door behind him, walking up to the blue-ish tube cell he was holding me captive in.
"If you're here to torture me, let's just get it over with."
"(y/n) said that if I don't harm you, she'll give herself up. Contrary to what I assume you're thinking, I am a man of my word and therefore I will not lay so much as a finger on you."
"Why are you doing this to her," I snap at him, trying to not let the pain I was feeling inside to show.
Running his bruised hand through his tousled hair, he rolls his brown eyes at me as he smirks and chuckles lowly to himself, "I would've thought because of your obvious close relationship with my sister, you'd be more aware of the situation, young Padawan."
"No, no, I know why you want to do it to her, I just just don't know why you still want to actually go through with it. I know you might think otherwise, but she doesn't hate you and has no form of resentment for you whatsoever. She doesn't want to harm you in any way and if anything, she wants to help you and restore what is left of your relationship. Ayzel she loves you and just wants her brother back so please... don't do this. Don't do this to her," I try my best to reason with him, pressing my hand up against the translucent blue divide between us.
For a moment, I see Ayzel's face soften due to my words, his eyes losing their evil edge, his grin falling into a genuinely saddened frown. He lowers his head and turns his back to me, folding his arms across his chest. Annoyingly, because of the force restriction on the tube, I wasn't able to sense his emotions and how he was really feeling inside. Despite this... from his body language, I could tell he felt something.
"This is happening, Tano. I have to do this, so just prepare yourself. She'll be here within the next 48 hours and we're finally going to end this. I am way too far from saving, this-this is the only way," I heard him say, his voice soft and quivering at the end of his sentence, making me come to a form of realisation.
Ayzel is still in there.
"Ayzel, please.. It's never too late. She needs you and she wants you! Please, I beg you," I plead to him as he comes to a halt at the entrance to the room, shifting his head to face me and look me in the eyes, a broken expression pasted upon his face. I place my other hand on the surface of the blue cell-tube, as if trying to reach him from inside.
"I have to go and welcome with my um... reinforcements," he says to me in a hushed voice, giving me one last look before completely disappearing outside of the room and into the darkness.
Reinforcements? Ayzel what have you done-
I rest my head upon my hands and squeeze my eyes shut, allowing a single tear to stream down my cheek.
I'm going to lose my sister.
{ a/n: this was incredibly short so I apologize, I just felt like adding a chapter in Ahsoka's POV to show how she was dealing with the idea of having to sever such a close bond in such little time. If you liked this one don't forget to vote/comment your thoughts, I love love love hearing your feedback and reactions! Ily all <3
- Big, massive, huge thanks to mae_skywalker for all the love so far!!! }
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