Laney's POV

I hate this
Missing you hoping you're somewhere missing me
I hate this
Hoping you'll call, hoping I'm awake when it rings
If we took this break to figure out what we wanted
Well I want us back don't need another night to sleep on it

Cuz I know we said we'd just be friends
I can't lie and I can't pretend
Boy I've tried and bottom line
Is I still love you and I hate this
Mhmmm I hate this

I lay and stare up at the ceiling. It happens to be the only interesting thing in my life right now. With Buffy out of town, all the vamps disappeared. Willow had been hanging out with Xander, and Cordy got tired of me moping around so much.

~Flashback~

Cordelia paces in front of me as I sit on the edge of my bed looking at the wall. I've learned to blocked out her yelling which makes her angrier.

"Laney?! Are you even listening to me?"

I shake my head, "What? I'm sorry..."

Cordelia groans and sits on her legs in front of me. She holds my hands and looks at me with a serious expression.

"Laney I love you but I can't just watch you throw away your life like this. You're moping around about Xander. Xander Harris... do you know how many guys you could get. Men not boys. You are a strong independent woman. You're gorgeous, fit, and popular. You can do better than that loser. He wants the slayer fine let him chase after her while she chases after Angel. His loss. You are better than this. I'm done watching you sit here and do nothing. When you get over him and finally realize who the hell you are then I'll be back."

Cordy stands up and kisses my forehead then leaves out of my room. As the door closes, tears start to fall down like a waterfall.

~Flashback over~

I've cried so much it's a wonder I still have tears. I wanted to be over Xander so badly but it was like something was still pulling me back to him. It was probably the animal instincts I still felt from the hyena possession. I yearned for him but I knew that wouldn't do me any good.

My hearts breaking, I can't take this
Time and space it Sucks, I hate this
My Hearts Breaking, I can't take this
Time and Space I swear, I hate this

I know we said we'd just be friends
I can't lie and I can't pretend
Boy I've tried and bottom line
Is I still love you and I hate this

Here I am running into you trying not to touch
(Mhmm I hate this)
Acting like it's not killing me when it does

Hearing tap on the window, I walk over to it and pull it open. A figure squeezes through and stands in front of me. Sighing, I walk over to my radio and turn it off then sit in my bed. The person clears his throat as he leans against my closet door.

"You still listening to heartbreak music?"

I glare at him, "For your information Angel it's not heartbreak music... it's country music. And I'm fine."

Angel raises and eyebrow, "Really?"

I shrug with a light nod. Angel scoffs and storms towards me. Flinching away as he leans down and grabs my arm, I don't even have time to wonder where we are going. He pulls me over to my bathroom and makes me stand in front of the mirror.

"Look."

I look up and gasps lightly. Bags were heavy under my red eyes. My hair was dry and looked like it hadn't been brushed in weeks. My cheeks were sunken in slightly and not only that but my eyes reflected back a dead stare. The lively gleam was gone.

"This isn't the Laney I know."

I glance beside me in the mirror and frown not seeing Angels reflection. I had forgotten vampires didn't have reflections. Turning around, I almost runs into Angel's chest with how close he was.

I look up into his brown eyes with intensity. He looks down at me with an expression that I can't decipher.

"You need to eat... I know you haven't in a week."

Frowning I squint my eyes at him, "How do you know that? You been keeping tabs on me?"

"Just making sure you don't do anything stupid."

I scoff then look at my shower curtain. Maybe I have gone a little too far. I know my self worth. If Xander wants to follow after Buffy like a puppy dog then I should let him. I shouldn't put myself through hell because of him.

"I'm taking a shower... get the hell out of my bathroom. I mean unless you'd like a show."

Angel's lip slightly raises as he smirks, "There she is."

Chuckling lightly I glance back at him, "Thank Angel."

"No problem."

He goes to move away until I hold his wrist stopping him. Standing on my tip toes, I kiss his cheek. Backing away slowly I let go of his wrist and look up at his blank face.

I never knew what he was thinking. But I didn't need to know. He likes Buffy too. There's no possible way that he could even have a slight interest in me. And I refuse to go down the same road.

"Now really get the hell out."

𝚆𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚍𝚘 𝚢'𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔... 𝙸𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚊 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚙 𝚊𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚍?

𝙷𝚘𝚠 𝚍𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚘𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝙱𝚞𝚏𝚏𝚢 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚜 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚜𝚞𝚖𝚖𝚎𝚛 𝚋𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚔.

𝚆𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚐𝚞𝚢𝚜 𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚠𝚊𝚛𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐? (𝚒𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞'𝚟𝚎 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚠𝚊𝚝𝚌𝚑𝚎𝚍 𝙱𝚞𝚏𝚏𝚢 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚅𝚊𝚖𝚙𝚒𝚛𝚎 𝚂𝚕𝚊𝚢𝚎𝚛 𝚢𝚘𝚢 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠.)

JUST FOR FUN

Laney's Outfit
(minus the shoes)