Sidharth was standing outside Sana's room. He didn't had the courage to go inside. He sneaked inside the room through the window. He saw her standing infront of the mirror lifeless. Something broke inside him seeing his Sana like that. She looked like a totally different person. She doesn't even seem alive. A lone tear escaped from his eyes. But soon his guilt turned into rage when he saw a hand on her shoulder. He fisted his hands. His attention was caught by a pair of eyes gawking at her with lust, which boiled his blood. Her fiance Vikram held her shoulder and was about to touch her face when Sidharth broke inside the room leaving them shocked. Sana was startled hearing the bang but when her eyes spotted Sidharth, her heart bled. He looked at her with his red puffy eyes which showed nothing but pain. Pain of being apart from her. While she looked at him with dead eyes. Her face showed no expression, hurt, anger, fear not even love. That killed him even more. She doesn't love him anymore? Had he lost her forever?

"Hey? Who the hell are you? Teri himmat kaise Hui?" Vikram broke the last string of control he had. Without even spearing a glare, he punched hard on his face. He fell on the ground, with his nose bleeding.

Sidharth's anger had no boundaries. He was not done. He sat on his knees and held him by his collar.

"Haath kaise lagaya tune usko? Haa...." He roared like a wounded lion throwing another punch on his face. His other hand still on Vikram's collar.

"Meri hai wo... Sirf meri. Aur tune usko haath lagane ki himmat ki?" He yelled with tears. Vikram was not even in a state to defend himself. He was hardly concious. But that didn't stop Sidharth from making him spit blood.

"Meri Sana ko choone ki himmat kaise Hui Teri?" He grabbed Vikram by his neck. That scene was horrible. Sidharth seemed not less than an animal who's harming an unconscious man mercilessly. But Shehnaaz was watching all this with a straight face like it doesn't bothered her at all.

Sidharth dragged a Vikram covered in blood, out of the room and closed the door locking it. He turned to see Shehnaaz standing there motionless. That raged him even more.

"Kya hua ye teko? Aise kyu khadi hai Sana?" He asked but her expression doesn't changed a Lil bit.

"Haath kaise lagane di tune usko? Haa... Tu tu... Meri haina? Meri Shehnaaz haina, sirf meri? Tujh pe sirf Mera haq haina? Phir phir... Usne kaise tujhe haath lagaya? Aur tune kuch bola kyu nhi?" He stammered.

"Kyu bolti?" Sana finally spoke something. But there is no trace of a single tear in her eyes. Seems like her eyes dried up. "Mangetak hai wo mera... Shaadi hone wali hai uske saath meri. Kaise bolti?" She asked plunking his heart.

"Kya? Kya boli tu?" He asked as he pushed her backward. "Mangetar? Ye kya bakwas hai Sana... wo koi nhi hai tumhara... Mai hi hu tera sab kuch... Kisi aur ko aane bhi nhi dunga Tere paas... Mai kaafi hu tere liye... Tum...-" He froze at his place, not being able to utter a word, as she showed him her engagement ring on her right hand. Of course, she won't wear it on her left finger.

"Mai kisi aur ki hone waali hu Sidharth. Yehi chahte the na tum...?" She asked looking straight into his eyes.

"Nhi nhi... Ye sab bakwas hai" He wiped his tears. "Ye ye... Utaaro tum...utaaro isse abhi ke abhi..." He shouted as new set of tears made their way down his eyes. He pulled the ring out of her finger harshly and throw it somewhere.
"Mere siwai kisi aur ka naam bhi nhi aana chaiye tere khayaal mein... Samjhi... You are mine god damnit". She didn't seem affected by any of these. She smirked suddenly.

"Sab Khatam ho gya Sidharth... Tere hisab se hi ho rha hai sab kuch. Dekh, mai kar rhi hu kisi aur se shaadi... Ab mai teri kuch nhi lagti Sidharth. Mai chali gyi Teri life se.... Sab khatam ho gya". She blabbered with her dead face.

"Nhi baby... Ye sab Kya bol rhi ho tum?" He asked cupping her face. He was looking like a maniac, a psychopath. "Kya khatam ho gya khatam ho gya bol rhi ho haa...? Kuch khatam nhi hua... Aise kaise sab kuch khatam ho sakta hai? Tu.... Tu meri sab kuch haina? Aise kaise jaane du tujhe meri life se? Aise kaise kuch nhi lgti tu meri? Mai sirf tera Sidharth hu na... Aur tu sirf meri Shehnaaz. Koi nhi hai mera Tera siwai... Aur shaadi???" He chuckled coldly like a mad one. "Kisi aur ke saath shaadi karne ke baare mein soch bhi kaise sakti ho tum? Dekh... Ab tera Sidharth aa gya na... Mai mai...mai theek kar dunga na sab kuch...". He could hardly speak with his tears.

Shehnaaz removed his hands from her face. "Der ho gyi Sidharth... Shaadi hai kal meri kisi aur ke saath... Kal Mai kisi aur ki ban jaaungi... Vikram ki...-" before she could complete, Sidharth slapped her tight yelling-

"Shut up!!! Shut the fuck up..." He held her by her arms. His fingers digging into her skin but she didn't flinched a bit. "Teri zubaan pe mere siwai kisi aur ka naam bhi nhi aana chaiye..." He said being closest to her.

"Tune mujhse waada kiya tha na... Ki meri hai tu, sirf Mera haq hai tere pe... Sirf mai haath laga sakta hoon tujhe... Haan? Bol na baby..." He said crying again. This time her eyes also filled up seeing which he relieved a little bit.

"Phir tu kyu kar rhi hai baby aise?" He was begging.

"Tumne bola ki ab meri zarurat nhi hai tujhe?" She asked as tears spilled from her eyes.

"Tu pagal ho gyi hai? Maine bola aur tune Maan liya? Haan?" He rubbed his tumb on her cheeks wiping her tears. "Sidharth shayd saas liye baghair jee Sakta hai... Lekin apne Shehnaaz ke baghair nhi. Tune Soch bhi kaise liya ki mai tere bina zinda bhi reh paaunga?"

"Tumne....meko...bola...shaa...shaadi karne..." Sana couldn't find her voice. She was chocking after every word.

"Sshhhh.... Nhi mera baccha.... Please mat ro... Tere aansu maar rhe hai mujhe.... Mai aa gya hoona baba". He said before pulling her into the tightest hug. His heart felt peace. All his fears, pain, sorrows, wounds were vanished upon her touch. She was his medicine. She sobbed hard into his shoulders making his shirt wet.
"Pagal ladki... Mai jaane bolunga to tu chali jayegi".

"I was angry at you. Isiliye aa gyi unke saath... par ab Bohot der ho gyi Sidharth...." She mumbled. He broke the hug and looked at her trying to stay steady.

"Kya?"

"Shaadi hai Sidharth kal....".

"Fuck it Shehnaaz... Tu koi shaadi waadi nhi kar rhi hai uske saath... Tune socha bhi kaise ki mai tujhe kisi aur ke saath dekh ke... Fuck! I can't even think about it". He groaned in anger.

"Sidharth... Engagement ho chuki hai usse meri. Sab ko pata bhi hai ki mai Vikram ki hone waali wife-"

"Don't you dare..." Sidharth cut her off pointing his finger. "To hell with this shit, tu mere saath chal rhi hai abhi". He said sternly.

"Kaha?"

"Mumbai... Aur kaha?"

"Itna aasan nhi hai Sidharth.... Meri family, ristedaar sab aa chuke hai... Unke izzat ka sawal hai". She said.

"Are you fucking serious right now? Do you even realise kya bolna chahti ho tum?" He looked at her in disbelief. She is still thinking about her family's so-called reputation.

"Sidharth... mai unko bohot hurt kar chuki hoon.... Ye shaadi bhi sirf unki Marzi se hi hone waali thi...." She said when he cut her in between.

"Hone waali thi matlab?" He narrowed his eyes. "Tumhe lagta tha ki ye shaadi hogi? Tujhe laga ke mai nhi aaunga?"

She looked down and said- "Honestly, mujhe nhi laga ke aap aaoge...." She continued looking at his now angry face. "Kyunki... Mujhe pata hai ke aap iss duniya mai sirf mujhse pyaar karte hai. Aur aapne mujhe isiliye jaane Diya taaki aapki wajah se mujhe kuch na ho. Mujhe laga ki aap mujhse itna pyaar karte hai to humare saath rehne se zyada important mera safe rehna hai aapke liye".

"To galat lagta hai tumhe". He said, hands on hip. "I don't love you enough to let you go.... kyunki Mai selfish hoon. Tu chaiye mujhe... Mai deserve nhi karta teko, tere liye 1% bhi sahi nhi hu mai... Par meko tu chaiye.... Tujhe mere baghair khush dekh ke khush nhi ho sakta Mai... Itna mahan nhi hu mai. Mahan banne ki koshish ki thi... Tabhi teko jaane bola. Par nhi ho sakta mere se wo. Mere se door rehke agar tu khush hai to mai bardaasht nhi kar pauga wo. Itna pyaar nhi karta Mai tujhse... Mai selfish hi theek hoon. I know it's a fact that you're better off without me, even if I don't want to accept that. Lekin tujhe mujhse door bhej ke mahan nhi Banna hai mujhe. Tu mere baghair shayad khush reh paayegi par meri Khushi sirf tere saath hai. Aur mujhe apni khushi ki zyada padi hai". He cried like a child when she kissed his forehead and placed his head on her chest. She caressed his hair and he felt home again.

"Mere paas mera kuch nhi hai Shehnaaz... Sab kuch tujhe de Chuka Hu Mai... Even my fucking soul. Tune sab kuch cheen liya mujhse... Aur agar tu hi chali jaayegi to kuch nhi hoga mere paas". He said as a few drop of tears fell on her chest.

"Mai huna aapke paas...". She said. He felt his heart will come out. He stood straight and faced her.

"Agar aaj mai nhi aata to? Kya tu Kar leti shaadi usse?" He asked praying her answer to be No. And she nodded in negative making him relieved.
"Mana karti shaadi se?" She again nodded in negative.

"To phir?" He asked. She turned to her dressing table and he saw her opening the drawer. She picked a bottle and handed it to him. He was numb. New set of tears formed in his eyes. He looked at her with anger and love while she kept a weak smile.

"Waada kiya tha na tumse... Tumhare alawa kisi ki nhi hungi. Tere alawa kisi aur ke saath mera naam jodne ke baare mein mai soch bhi nhi sakti... Mujhe maut manzoor hai lekin tumhare bina jeena nhi. Aaj meri aakhri raat thi Sidharth. Tu nhi aaya hota to mai ye zeher kha kar-"

"Chup!" Sidharth shouted at the top of his lungs, pulling her into a bone crushing hug. "Ek dam chup! Khabardar agar isse aage ek shabd bhi aur bola to..." He let out a sob. "Kya karne chali thi baby tu? Aise kaise soch sakti hai tu? Mujhe chod ke jaane waali thi tu? Tune ek baar bhi socha ke mera kya hota? Mai kya karta...kaise jeeta tere bina? Haa..."

"Tu to strong haina? Mai nhi hu tere jitni strong. Tum hi to mujhe bolte ho na ke mai gadhi hoon, bacchi hoon, akal nhi hai..." She said, in his embrace.

"Jaisi bhi hai... Meri hai. Aur aintha aisa socha bhi na... To-" he started crying on her shoulder. She shushed him patting his back while he sink his head more deeper into her shoulder.
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thehappysoul_22 & with_love_Anu