Brook POV
"Maybe we should go on a holiday...just the two of us...you know what I mean"
"Mmm...interesting but I have to check my agenda...you know, I'm a busy man"
"Oh well, if you say yes I'll repay you with something really-"
"Please stop!" I interrupted.
"All of this is making me sick and I'm not drunk enough to handle it"
"You're just jealous..." Andy glared at me.
He has always been the cold type but since he met Sonny, he's all cuddly and soft and disgusting.
"Yeah, cause I want to talk about my plans on fucking my boyfriend in front of my friends too" I rolled my hand eyes, sometimes I can't handle them.
"Someone is in a bad mood..." Sonny whispered but I heard him.
"Well, talking about something else...are you coming to the party?" Andy changed the subject.
I arched my brow at him cause I wasn't aware of any party.
Sonny sipped his drink while making a face and Andy pinched the bridge of his nose.
"What party?"
"Ok...I mean you don't have to come if you don't want to, it's just that-"
"A party for Jack" Sonny cut off his boyfriend mid-sentence.
I tried to stay calm like it was nothing but on the inside, I stopped functioning, my lungs stopped working and my heart was beating way too fast.
I wasn't feeling ok.
"Ok and...?" I managed to say without giving away the fact that I was panicking.
"Well he has been in Norway for almost six months and now that he's coming back, we want to throw a party for him" Andy explained.
"Oh yeah that trip he went to that I found out about just the day before his departure. Yeah, how could I forget about it" I said with a sassy tone.
Andy looked at his boyfriend and I knew what they were thinking about.
"Yeah, I'm still sore about it...so what?!"
Andy sighed then grabbed both my hands.
"Listen...Jack should have told you but it's been six months and you two weren't together anymore when he left..."
"You don't get it. I know we broke up before he left but we promised to stay friends and that nothing would have changed. Then he decided to leave and not tell me. Imagine if Sonny did it..." I rested my back against the chair and took a sip of my beer.
"I know that the breakup was hard for him but it was hard for me too ok?!" I was getting frustrated by the topic.
"Ok...no need to get angry" Sonny stepped in and Andy rested his hand on his shoulder to calm him down.
Jack was Sonny's best mate, still is...
"Well, we are gonna throw the party anyway so if you want to come and move on feel free to...I won't force you ok?" Andy said with a soft tone.
I simply nodded and we carried on with the night.

That night I thought a lot.
I laid in bed and stared at the ceiling for god knows how long.
Jack bought me a star projector cause once I said to him that I love stargazing, mainly before falling asleep.
He always paid attention to the little things and I'm gonna admit it, every night I turn on the projector and while looking at the stars, I think about him.
We didn't fight when we broke up, it was just sad.
Sad because we were perfect, he was my person but I wasn't ok...
I thought I was but all my negative thoughts, my inner voices were killing me and I was killing us.
So we broke up.
I worked on myself since then cause I promised Jack to and I was getting better but when he left, my world fell apart...
I was mad at everything and everyone for no reason and now that he's coming back, I don't know how to feel.
It was all too much so I turned off the projector and nuzzled into my pillow, my eyes focused on the empty spot in bed next to me where he used to lay...

-party night-
I agreed on going to the party, don't really know why but a part of me wanted to be there.
Andy and Sonny organized it at their house and there were more people than I expected.
Jack always had a lot of friends, he loved to socialize and I remember that when we used to date, I always loved looking at him while he talked to people cause he was always so happy and free while doing it...
I thought it was a cool party but I was too nervous to enjoy it.

"You made it!" Andy hugged me as soon as he saw me.
"Here take this and enjoy yourself ok? He should be here any moment" he shoved into my hand a flute of champagne then went to hug and greet other people.
I looked at the bubbles of the drink and repeated to myself 'it's gonna be ok. You're strong enough'.
Then I chugged down the liquid.

Before I could even realize it, we were all hiding around Andy's house to surprise Jack.
I was in the closet in Andy's room and I didn't want to come out, no pun intended.
For some reason I felt ok there, surrounded by the darkness and Andy's fancy clothes.
Probably I needed some time away from all the chaos.
Then I heard it 'SURPRISE!' and the music was back on.
I sat down between Andy's pair of shoes that always look brand new somehow and stared at nothing.
I didn't know how much I stayed there but at one point someone turned on the light and opened the door.
I looked up to meet a pair of eyes that I looked at so many times that I'm sure I have memorized every little detail about them.
"Brook..."
His voice changed.
I got up and stood there awkwardly.
"I- it's good to see you again"
His hair changed.
And his clothes.
And everything...
"Yeah...I mean surprise?" God, I wanted to slap myself at that.
"Yeah...Andy and Sonny did a great job but I hate surprises..." he looked down.
"I know..." was all I said.
We stood there in silence and I didn't know if it was uncomfortable or not.
"Well, I needed a shirt and Sonny said I could borrow one...I didn't mean to disturb...whatever you were doing..." he reached behind me to take a shirt and his hand was so close to my face.
He got a new tattoo.
"A new tattoo" I whispered.
"Oh yeah...I met this really cool girl that has a shop. She did it"
"It's cool" I said maybe with a hint of jealousy.
Once he got the shirt, he changed in the middle of the room and I had to look away.
"It's not like you never saw me naked before" he laughed but I said nothing.
"How have you been?" He asked seriously this time.
"Well apart from the fact that my best friend went away without telling me, I've been great actually" I spat even tho it wasn't my intention then went to leave.
"I'm sorry...I truly am"
I stopped, my hand on the door handle.
"I...I had to leave ok? I got a job there and...but I had to come back..." he tied to explain but it was even more confusing.
"Why you didn't tell me...?" It was all I wanted to know.
"...I came back cause I wanted to see how you were doing..." he breathed in "...and I didn't tell you cause...we broke up, I didn't want to worry you. I knew that were gonna blame yourself, maybe you were gonna think that you fucked up everything when in reality it was my choice. But it's been six months and I had to see you..."
My mind was thinking about a million things.
"I blamed myself anyway! I blamed myself cause I thought I ruined us, I ruined our friendship and what we had after...I-I was so mad. Mad with the world for making me like this...so fucked up. Mad-"
"You're not fucked up" Jack cut me off.
I looked at him.
I looked at him with the 'you-know-it's-not-true' look and tears in my eyes.
He got closer and just hold me, he hold me close and I missed it.
He was the only one able to make me feel safe no matter how bad it was in my head.
"Shh...I'm here now...it's ok" he rubbed my back and kissed my head.
I was crying and sobbing and tired...so damn tired...
"When I was there I had a great time but my mind always wondered how you were doing...how my person was doing..."
We were now sitting on the ground.
I looked up at him and asked "why?"
"Cause I had a flicker of hope...for us" he quietly said and kissed my forehead.

-next morning-
I woke up in a bed that wasn't mine but the feeling of home was there.
I turned around and saw Jack fast asleep next to me.
He looked as always while asleep, small and vulnerable but I loved it.
His long eyelashes touched his rosy cheeks, his disheveled hair and his arms always around me.
"Stop staring. It's creepy" he said with his morning voice, deep and raspy.
"Nope"
"Ugh...you always do it and I don't get it"
It was true, I always loved watching him sleep, sometimes I even woke up earlier to do it.
"If you want me to stop then wake up" I said tugging at his shirt.
"Nope" he rested on my chest.
"I forgot how grumpy you were...also where are we?"
"Guest room" he mumbled.
"About yesterday..."
"Shhh...it's ok, it's not like something we haven't been through before" he said calmly like nothing was actually wrong.
"That's the problem. We broke up cause I didn't want you to deal with it, cause it was killing us and you didn't deserve it"
"No...it was killing you and it made you push me away but I'm here to stay this time. Going away was dumb" he started to play with my hair.
"What about Norway?" I asked scared of his reply.
"If you want to move there for me it's not a problem. If you want to stay here, we will stay here. You decide"
"Really?" I couldn't believe it.
He sat up and straddled my lap cupping my face.
"I'll stay with you from now on. I don't care if you push me away, I'll stay"
I wanted to kiss him so badly so I did it.
Jack made me feel whole, I felt empty without him and that kiss...it was exactly how it used to be maybe even better.
His lips still felt the same against mine though.
"Fuck the voices in your head ok?" He said resting his forehead against mine.
"Yeah...fuck them"

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Note*
Not me fucking up my updates schedule and not posting for weeks🙈 Sorry guys.
Wish I had something exciting to say as an excuse but I just studied since school started.
This one could be one of my fav fics so I hope you guys love it as much as I do.
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