Harper POV
"Earth to Harper..."
"Sorry what?"
"You zoned out for like 2 minutes...are you ok?" Sonny asked concerned.
"Nothing" I lied.
"Baby...we've been together for a whole year and you're a terrible liar, probably the worst. What is it?" He sat on the bed right in front of me.
"...I'm scared...I know it's the right thing to do but what if they hate on me and I end up alone? Without friends? I can't handle that..." I confessed looking at anything but Sonny.
I know it's stupid and completely irrational but in my head it makes sense.
"Listen to me" he grabbed my hands.
"You're gonna be fine, we are gonna be fine. Nothing bad will happen and if something happens you will always have me ok? I'm not leaving you"
I knew he was being sincere cause Sonny never lied to me so I decided to trust him and go for it.
"Ok, I'll drive you there and will wait for you outside. If you need me I'll be there" Sonny said and with that, we left.

My friends are the only family that I have so their support it's important to me, more than anything.
When Sonny stopped the car right in front of the house, I gulped loudly.
I just need to go and do it, not that complicated right?
When I stepped into the apartment my heart was beating way too fast but once I saw my best friend Dave, I calmed down.
"Mate!" He hugged me and I had a good feeling for a moment.
"Come in. We were just chilling. I missed you, it seems like it has been forever since the last time I saw you" he patted my back.
I smiled at him and joined the others on the couch.
We chatted for a bit and I truly missed it.
Since I moved in with Sonny, our group hasn't been the same but not because of Sonny.
I decided that it was best to keep the two things separate cause I wasn't ready to tell them, so actually it was my fault.

"Guys...I have something to say..." I interrupted Dave's story halfway through.
Silence fell in the room and I felt everyone's eyes on me.
"Ok...so...shit I don't really know how to start"
My hands were sweating.
"You're getting married?" Cleo asked.
"No- I'm not but I'm...with someone right now..."
It was harder than I expected.
"Ok so who is the lucky girl?" Michael asked smirking.
"Emm...it's actually a boy...I have a boyfriend..."
No one dared to say a word as there was a spell in the room that didn't let them talk.
"But I'm not...gay...I mean- yeah I'm attracted to men but I- I identify myself as pansexual"
Now the truth was out but the silence was still there between us.
I didn't know what to do...honestly, I didn't expect them to stay quiet.
A couple of them shifted uncomfortably in their seats.
"I- I wanted to tell you guys before but I wasn't ready..." I managed to say hoping that it could get rid of the weird mood in the room.
Their silence was killing me inside.
Then Dave cleared his throat and I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding.
"Well...I don't know the others but em...I'm kinda confused. You do you obviously but I don't really know what to say. That's why you've been so distant?...you changed..."
I stared at him and said nothing.
He was looking at me like I was a stranger and not his childhood best friend.
But he was joking, right?
I've been hiding all this time and now that I found the courage to be myself he has the nerve to say that I changed!?
I couldn't take it anymore so I just left.

Once I stepped outside the building, I just let it go.
I felt like a huge weight was pressing on my chest and hot tears rolled down my cheeks, they didn't stop.

Sonny POV
While I waited patiently for Harper I listened to some music, played with my phone, counted how many cars passed by and looked at the clouds in the sky.
He was taking forever and I was a bit worried but I had faith in the universe.
After a while I saw someone stumbling out and keeling on the ground, it was Harper.
I rushed out of the car and kneeled right in front of him.
"What happened?" I was thinking about the worst obviously but still, I hoped it wasn't that bad.
"They...they don't-" he couldn't even finish the sentence.
"Shh...I'm here now...I'm here..." I engulfed him almost like I wanted to protect him but the damage was already done.

Once I managed to bring him to the car, I started to drive home and on the way, I looked at him.
Harper looked...lifeless and it wasn't only cause of the crying that drained him.
The light that used to characterize him was gone, his bubbly and happy personality faded away...
I didn't know what to do or say to make it better, I felt powerless and useless.

"Do you want to take a hot bath? Maybe it can help...somehow" I whispered that last word.
Harper just nodded, he didn't say a word the whole time.
Once the tub was full I smiled at him and headed towards the door but Harper's soft hand stopped me.
"Stay...please..." his voice was so fragile and weak that I wanted to cry.
I couldn't say no so I joined him.
He sat in between my legs with his back pressed to my chest.
I knew he was silently crying but I kept on washing his hair lazily cause I knew he loves it whenever I play with his golden locks.
"I just want to stay at home...with you..." Harper whispered.
"Ok" I simply replied and wrapped my arms around him.
He started to play with my hand and if it wasn't for the gloomy atmosphere I would have thought that it was perfect, the two of us...this close like we needed to feel the warmth of our bodies on each other's skin more than air.

We dried off when the water turned freezing cold and moved to the couch.
As the night went on Harper kept getting closer to me as his life depended on it but I didn't complain at all, I wanted to be there for him.
"What about a vacation?" I suggested out of the blue.
Harper turned his head to look at me.
"We could rent a small cabin on the mountains and stay there. Just the two of us" I caressed his cheek and he closed his eyes at my soft touch.
He simply nodded.

Harper POV -trip time-
Sonny thought that a holiday could help me feel better and I was a bit skeptical but decided to trust him anyway.
During the car ride I couldn't stop thinking about my friend's reaction, I mean I just wanted some support just like Sonny did with me but no.
Their silence genuinely hurt me and the thought of facing them again felt like a knife twisting in my heart.
Maybe being away alone with Sonny was the solution to all my problems.

The cabin was small but cute and cozy, basically perfect for us.
"What do you want to do?" Sonny asked as soon as we stepped inside, our boots still covered with snow.
"Cuddles and kisses" I said getting closer to kiss him softly.
"Ok we can do that" he smiled and dragged me on the sofa.
Whenever I'm with Sonny it feels like home, like we are in this bubble that keeps me safe, that's Sonny's effect on me.
When I came out to him he just kissed me, it was like nothing changed for him, I was still Harper to him.
"I love you so if that's who you are then there's no reason for me to stop loving you" was what he said and at the thought, a tear escaped.
"Hey...why are you crying? Are you ok?" Sonny asked concerned.
"Yeah...sorry I was just thinking...about stuff" I shook my head to get rid of my previous thoughts.
"If it's about your...friends, I know it hurts but they don't deserve you. If they can't love you for who you then fuck them. You're still Harper, no matter what" he wiped away the tear.
"I was actually thinking about you...about what you said when I came out"
"Oh" Sonny clearly didn't expect it and for some reason, he was getting nervous.
"I was thinking that I got so fucking lucky...you always loved me and if my younger self could see me now he wouldn't believe his eyes" I confessed resting my cheek on his chest.
"I'm proud of you" he simply said after a moment of silence and I smiled at that.

-a few days later-
The cabin became our little world.
Our own bubble where I was able to be myself and where I was loved unconditionally.
I wanted to stay there forever.
We did so many walks in the forest where everything was covered with white and soft snow.
We watched so many films and ate so much popcorn that probably I won't eat them for the next decade.
We spent so many hours on the sofa that the shape of our bodies was carved into it.

"Tell me one of your birthday wishes that became reality" Sonny asked while we were walking down a snowy path, our gloved hands intertwined.
"When I realized that I was pansexual I wished to be loved at least by someone..."
Sonny stopped in his tracks and looked at me.
"And...?"
"And it became reality...I mean you're here right?" I said smiling at him.
His red cheeks were in contrast with his fair skin tone and the beanie on his head made him look even cuter.
"You're too cheesy, I swear" he slapped my shoulder then we kept on walking.
"But it's true...what about yours?"
"To meet my other half..." he simply replied.
"Now who is the cheesy one uh?" I smirked.
"Well I didn't say it was you"
I looked at him offended.
"Shut up"
"Love you too" he kissed my cheek, his lips like ice cubes.
"You're freezing...we should go back"

-last day-
"I don't want to go" I pouted crossing my arms.
"Baby, we have to go home. We can't stay here forever" Sonny tried to drag me out of the room but I was glued to the bed.
"I don't want to go back and face my friends"
"You don't have to see them but we need to go home"
At that point, he literally picked me up and carried me to the car.
"Come on. We are going home" he said kissing away my pout.
I rolled my eyes but he was right, I didn't need unsupportive people in my life.
I'm just fine with Sonny.

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Note*
I know I disappeared but I haven't been feeling great lately so I took a small break.
I chose to focus on my mental health a bit in order to be able to keep writing at least decent stories.
I hope that you guys like this one cause it's kinda personal to me.
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