This was a request from jetblacklovesong
It was really fun to write and I hope you like it xxx
TW: mentions of panic attack.

Sonny POV
It's been 3 months since I joined the band and it's been the best 3 months of my life, they remind me of the Overload days but with Roadtrip is better.
The boys are amazing and the whole vibe at the house is incredible.

The first who I had a serious conversation with was Rye, he's really caring and he's actually a good listener. Since day one he made me feel at home and for some reason it's really easy to open up with him, I really like Rye.
Jack and Brook are more mental but they are hilarious, somehow they always manage to light up the room and spending time with them it's always good.
Then there is Andy... me and Andy met before since he was in Overload with me and we always had a special connection but when the band ended we went separate ways and we lost contact but we are here again. He has always been a bit cold and distant with people, he doesn't really show his affection but deep down I know he's happy that I'm here.
So as I said before those 3  months have been a blast but I guess that nothing lasts forever, right?

Those few months I've tried to fit in and to build a solid relationship with the boys, sometimes we jammed in the cinema room at 2 am but nothing serious.
Now, we need to put on a show cuz tour starts in less than a month.
I'm gonna be honest, I'm nervous cuz I'm the new member and what if the fans don't like me?
Or what if I mess up on stage?
I haven't performed on stage in years.

"Sonny get it together. We need to be prepared for tour" Andy said.
"Sorry, I zoned out for a second"
"Ok but focus now. We need to be perfect" he firmly said.
I know that Andy is a perfectionist and that when it's about work, he's always serious and everything but I've never seen him like that.
In a way, he made me even more nervous but I know it wasn't intentional at all.
We did rehearsal for a couple of hours and it went pretty well even tho I was exhausted.

After we drive home and Rye started to cook for all of us while I showered quickly.
When I finished, I changed into new clothes and then someone knocked on the door.
"Come in" I said while looking for a shirt to put on.
"Hey..." Andy shyly said stepping inside the room.
"Hey what's up?"
Andy just stared at me for a second and it was a bit weird then when I put on the shirt, he was back.
"Sorry...I just wanted to say that I didn't mean to be harsh on you today at rehearsal. I'm just a bit stressed out but yeah, I just wanted to let you know that" he said.
"It's ok. I know that tour is important so I'll try to focus but don't stress yourself too much"
We hugged each other and it felt really good. For some reason, it felt different than the hugs with the other boys but in a good way.
"Well, dinner is ready so let's go downstairs" he said once we pulled away from each other.
Then we headed downstairs and ate all together kinda like a family.

Time skip -the day of the first show-
We arrived at the venue pretty early cuz we had a lot to do.
First was soundcheck then we had to sign tons of posters for the fans and after the meet and greet.
We managed to do everything as planned and we actually got some extra free time before the show.

I was chilling with Brook and I wondered where the other boys were so I asked Brook.
"Rye went to Starbucks to get a tea quickly, Jack is probably somewhere around getting ready for the show and Andy I don't know" he replied then looked back at his phone.
"Ok, I'm going to look for Andy. I'll be back" I said and left the green room.

That place was like a labyrinth and I almost got lost but I found the stage and decided to look at the crowd for a second.
The venue wasn't full yet but there were already a lot of people, I didn't expect that many fans. Yeah, we sold out the place buy it's scarier when you see it with your own eyes.
I wanted to look away but my eyes were glued and I felt my breathing getting uneven. I haven't had a panic attack since my first performance with Overload and I hate this feeling.
Then a hand touched my shoulder and I got really scared.
I fell on the ground and I was about to cry but the worst part was that I couldn't breathe at all.

Andy POV
After Brook told me that Sonny was looking for me, I went to find him.
After a while, I found him near the stage so I tapped his shoulder to get his attention but it was a bad idea.
He was having a panic attack and it was pretty bad.
I got them before so I know how awful they are.
"Sonny, hey. Look at me" I said cupping his face and looking at his scared eyes.
"It's ok just do what I do and focus on me" I said with a calm tone.
I breathed in and out and he tried to do the same but he was struggling.
I tried to comfort him by stroking his cheeks with my thumbs and after a bit, he calmed down.
I engulfed him in my arms and his head was pressed against my chest while we were still on the ground.
I kissed his head and played with his curls hoping that it helped him feel better.
We stayed there for a while then Sonny broke the silence.
"Thanks"
"No problem. I got scared for a second but now you're ok" I said and our faces were actually really close.
Our eyes were lost in each other and then he kissed me.
I obv kissed back and it felt right.
"Sorry, I shouldn't-" he said but I cut him off with another kiss.
"You don't have to apologize" I said still looking at his lovely eyes.
"We should go on stage " I continued.
Then we walked hand in hand to join the others to go on stage.

I lost count of the times I smiled at him while performing but he had that effect on me.

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Note*
This was actually my first request and it was fun for once to create a story with the idea of someone else since all my stories are 100% original. If you guys have more request don't be afraid to put them in the comments.☺️