Inspired by the movie 'Chemical Hearts'

Rye POV
I was talking with Mikey and Sonny at my locker but I wasn't really listening to them. I was in my own thoughts when a boy caught my attention.

He looked a bit like a loner, someone that enjoys spending time alone but something about him interested me. Maybe his golden hair that made his skin even more white or the way he was dressed in the oversize jumper that made him look so cute or probably his light blue eyes...I don't know.

"Guys...guys, who is that?" I asked interrupting Mikey and Sonny's conversation.
"Ah, he's the new kid and he's actually in a couple of our classes" Sonny said.
"He actually has a strange story. Apparently, he's gay or he had a boyfriend and he died in a car crash about a year ago. People say that he changed school cuz he couldn't handle being in the school of his dead boyfriend" Mikey added.
"Wow, that's crazy" Sonny commented.
I couldn't believe it. That's a lot to handle and I felt really sorry for him.
Then the bell rang and we walked to class.

Timeskip -after school-
I wanted to get to know Andy, yeah I found out his name. He looks different and maybe he needs some new friends.

After school, I saw him walking away so I ran up to him leaving my friends behind but they are gonna be ok.

"Hey" I started.
He just looked at me and kept walking.
"I'm Rye. I saw that we have a few classes together so..." I continued.
"So you decided to talk to a random person that you don't even know just for fun?" he asked and I didn't know what to say.
"No, I just wanted to be friends. You seem nice"
"No one thinks I'm nice and I don't have time for friends. Now let me go home" he coldly replied and walked away.
I stood in the middle of the road kinda shocked, I didn't expect it.

When I arrived home, I just did nothing but the conversation between me and Andy didn't leave my mind.

The next day I tried the same thing and even the days after.
He kept pushing me away but I noticed that he was giving in slowly.

"I was thinking that we should hang out one day, maybe today?" I suggested out of nowhere while we were walking.
"What is it, a date?" he asked raising a brow in confusion.
"No no, I mean only if you want...but em I just want to spend some time together..." I kinda panicked.
"Ok...but today I can't. I have to be somewhere else" Andy replied with his typical cold tone.
"Ok then we'll go another day" I said and we walked home in silence but a comfortable one, I guess...

Timeskip -later that day-
I was extremely bored so I decided to go for a little car trip.
It was rainy when I left but I kinda liked it, with my sad playlist it created the perfect gloomy atmosphere.
I decided to go towards the southern part of town where no one usually goes so there are fewer cars.

But while I was driving, I saw someone on the side of the road kneeling down in front of something. Maybe they needed help so I stopped the car and got closer.
Then I realized it was Andy and he was crying.

"Andy? What are you doing out here? It's raining and it's cold" I said taking off my jacket and giving it to him.
He turned around and I saw that he was broken, his red puffy eyes said it all.
I engulfed him in my arms and let him cry on my shoulder, I also noticed that he was shivering and shaking due to the cold.
"Come on, let's go in the car or you're gonna get a cold"
So we walked towards the car and got inside.

There was a moment of silence cuz both of us didn't know what to do or say. Then Andy broke the silence.
"This is where the car crash happened. W-where my boyfriend died..." he said low almost starting to cry again.
"I'm really sorry Andy. Genuinely sorry" they were the only words that came out of my mouth.
"It happened a year ago and we were just driving around cuz I love car trips but something went wrong and the second after he died. Each month I always come here and sometimes I can't help but blame myself for what happened. I'm here living my life while he's dead" Tears started to stream down his cheeks.
I wiped them away and rested my hand on his to comfort him. he grabbed mine and looked at me.
"It's not your fault. You could have died too but you're still here and it doesn't depend on you" I said still looking at his stormy eyes.
"Can I stay with you tonight? I don't want to be alone " Andy asked after a brief moment of silence.
"of course" I said and started to drive home.
I held his hand the whole time in case he got anxious.

We arrived at my house and we went to my room right away, thank god my parents were on a business trip so I didn't have to worry about them.
I have Andy some of my clothes and a towel so he could have a warm shower.
In the meanwhile, I tidied up my room a bit since it was a mess.
After about 20 mins, Andy came out of the bathroom with my oversize hoddie on and I thought he looked adorable.
"Stop staring at me" he said glaring at me.
"Wasn't looking but you can sleep on my bed while I'm gonna sleep on the couch" I said leaving my room.

When I closed the door, I expected him to tell me to stay but he didn't. I told myself to not overthink it and to go to sleep.
At first, I struggled to fall asleep so I stared at the ceiling for a while but eventually, I was able to sleep.

Timeskip -3 a.m.-
I woke up cuz I felt someone tapping my shoulder.
"Andy? What are you doing awake?" I asked still half asleep after I recognized Andy silhouette standing in front of me.
"I-I can't sleep...I-" he stuttered but I knew that he had cried.
"Come here" I said making room on the couch for him.
He cuddled my side and rested his head on my chest while I ran my hand through his golden locks.
"Do you want to talk about it?" I said low even tho there wasn't anyone else in the house.
"Sometimes I have nightmares about it...about him..."
My heart ached for him so I kissed his head to make him feel better, to let him know I was there for him.
He turned his face towards me and his blue eyes looked even lighter due to the moonlight. He was a beautiful creature but also a broken one and no one is noticing it. He just suffers in silence.
I wish I could do something to stop his pain but I didn't know how to do that.
I got so lost in his eyes that I didn't even notice his lips were pressed against mine. I didn't even know how to react to it, I was kinda frozen.
Andy rested again on me as nothing happened and eventually fell asleep while I struggled.
The kiss felt a bit wrong, I mean I like Andy and a lot but apparently, he isn't over his ex yet and to be honest I don't want to be a replacement, someone who can fill that empty space. I want someone that loves me for who I am.

Timeskip -next few days-
After that episode at my house, Andy kinda opened up with me but he didn't act like himself.
"Andy are you ok?" I asked pulling him apart at lunchtime.
"Yeah, why?"
"Nothing. I just feel like you're being weird" I confessed.
"What is that suppose to mean?" he started to get pissed.
"No, nothing but since what happened the other day, you don't seem like yourself" I calmly said since I didn't want to argue.
"Rye if you don't like me just say it for fuck's s-" I cut him off with my lips and he kissed back right away.
"Obv I like you. I just need to get used to this new more open version of you, that's all" I smiled and grabbed his hand and we walked towards the cafeteria.

Timeskip -a month later-
Today is our 1 month anniversary and I prepared a simple but special date at the beach for us.
We live in England and obv it's always rainy and cold but Andy loves this weather so it's perfect.

At school everything went as usual and after, I dragged Andy towards my car.
"We need to go somewhere but if you're not comfortable, we can walk. it's up to you"
Andy looked a bit worried and after a minute o thinking, he replied.
"We can use the car but can I hold your hand?
"Obv" I said and unlocked the vehicle.
We drove about 20 mins and we listened to some music.

Once there, we walked hand in hand near the shore and we just enjoyed each other company but midway Andy got cold so I gave him my jacket.
"Now you're gonna get cold"
"Don't worry, I'll be fine" I reassured him.
We sat on a big rock and looked at the sea.
I looked at Andy and everything was perfect but something made me curious.
"Is that necklace new?"
He acted like it wasn't but I've never seen him wear it.
I tried to see it but he stooped me.
"Rye, stop it. I said it's not new" he replied annoyed.
"Then if it's nothing let me see it" I raised my voice a bit.
Eventually, he gave in and it was a ring.
"Why do you have a ring? Who is it?" I was getting jealous.
Andy stayed in silence and looked down.
"Andy answer me" I firmly said.
"It's my ex's ring!" he snapped at me.
I just looked at him confused...
"it's the last thing I have of him and you can't ask me to get over him this quickly. He fucking died Rye and a part of me still loves him" he added out of breath.
"I'm not asking you to forget him but at least be honest...why are we even dating if you still love him?" a tear ran down my cheek.
"Cuz I love you Rye"

At that moment I didn't know if I should believe him...I love him too but I'm not sure he loves me as much as I do.
I got up and walked away, Andy following right behind.
"Andy, I need to think. Leave me alone" I said sternly.
"Rye please..." he begged grabbing my hand.
I pushed him away but he hugged my torso tight and I just cried harder. We stayed like that for a couple of minutes then I spoke.
"I think we should take a break at least till you figure out what you want" I weakly said.
"N-no Rye. D-don't do this. I want you and only you, I swear" he cried.
"I still love you and I'll wait till you're ready but I can't continue this. I don't want to be in your ex's shadow"
It broke me to see Andy like that but it was the best for us, for him.

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Note*
This has a lot of time skips and it's extremely long but I haven't posted in a week so I needed to post something. Also I have another story ready just have to find the time to edit it. 💙