you know ever since you left

you left a hole in me

that couldn't be fixed or tamed by anyone but

you.

you consume my every thought and emotion

so much time has gone by just wishing

you never feed into my delusions.

i wish i was enough for you to believe in me and stay

you made me believe i was

you said you would

i almost believed it

but since i wasn't i'll be here forever grateful for the memories

for the nights of laughter and even for the pain

no one, even you, will ever know how much i loved you

and if you did...

you wouldn't have left.

~ 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 ~