It wasn't a very usual morning for Kei.

Instead of waking up on the right side, he woke up on the left side of the bed. While trying to turn off the alarm clock, he accidentally knocked down his favorite book to the floor.

First thing he saw was a beautiful morning sky, painted with orange and pink colors. He decided to go with a weird morning vibe and opened his window, letting the cold morning breeze in.

Instead of a burning hot shower, Kei took a mild one, which actually felt really good. It was as if his skin didn't understand whether it was hot or cold water, which created a sensation that made his skin riddle with goosebumps.

After that he looked at himself in the mirror, usually he would style his hair, but this time he left his golden locks dry without styling them. Kei kinda missed his wild, curly hair.

"Ah... What should I wear?" he asked himself as he stood in front of his closet. He could have gone with black pants and a white button-up shirt, but instead he picked sorta-skinny dark blue jeans and black button-up shirt. He was still young after all, and that outfit suit him a lot.

Kei checked his phone, but there were no notifications. He deleted all his social media after he started working at the hospital, first one he got rid of was Tinder.

Kei walked downstairs and as always picked up his newspaper first, but instead of reading it he tossed it on the sofa and made himself a cup of tea. This day was going to be special, he could feel it, last time his morning routine was messed up like that he passed his exams with perfect 100's.

Maybe a cup of hot lemon tea wasn't so bad after all.

His mind wandered off to Yamaguchi. Damnit, why did his feelings have to grow like this? He wasn't supposed to like him in  that way. And that question yesterday... Does that mean that Yamaguchi feels the same? Shit, Kei needed to cool the situation down..

Glancing at his clock, Kei finally jumped into his shoes and his coat, before walking out of his home and heading towards the hospital.

Today was going to be special.

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Yamaguchi woke up with half of his body on the floor, half on the bed. It was a surprisingly comfortable position.

He wasn't sure what time it was, but the morning sky was oddly beautiful today, to Yamaguchi it was a sign that something weird will happen.

He heard the door unlock and a nurse walked in, putting a tray of food on the tiny table. Yamaguchi thanked her and took that weird porridge.

For some reason, it tasted sweet this morning, did they add sugar or was it something else?

After eating it, he took the cup of tea they have brought. Before they only brought him water, since Yamaguchi used to hurt himself, but with Kei's approval Yamaguchi finally got to drink tea. He hadn't drunk it in a couple of years so when the warm liquid went down his throat, he couldn't help but feel happy. Damnit, it was good.

Yamaguchi was still sleepy, after all he didn't really sleep that much, he couldn't stop thinking about Kei's words. Did by "that person" Kei mean him?

Was it because Yamaguchi was a patient of his or because he was a patient in the mental hospital? Why couldn't Kei be with him?

He spent all night trying to figure out his feelings, trying to realize what that weird urge indicated.. He did figure out his feelings, but that urge was still a mystery, so he simply pushed it to the back of his mind.

Yamaguchi suddenly heard the door unlock and Kei finally walked in. Shit, he looked stunning. Unlike Yamaguchi who only had hospital clothes, Kei looked like a model, he didn't have his file with his this time.

"Good morning Yamaguchi. How are you feeling this morning?" Kei asked as he sat down on the chair.

"Great! I got tea for the first time in a couple of years, it was a wonderful experience. How about you?" Yamaguchi smiled.

"I'm great too. This morning... There's something weird about it, don't you think?" Kei asked, Yamaguchi nodded slowly.

"I didn't bring my file with me, I decided on a different kind of session. Today, I want to talk about something that has been bothering you the most. Just so we can get rid of it, okay?" Kei flashed another handsome smile at Yamaguchi, making the other blush.

"Sure.. Something that has been bothering me...huh..." Yamaguchi didn't know whether or not he should talk about his feelings towards the young doctor.

"Anything, I'll take it" Kei waited for Yamaguchi to start talking, and yet somewhere deep down he knew what Yamaguchi was going to say.

"Well... Ever since I started caring a bit more about myself and since my feelings and emotions came back.. I've been feeling something, and it's bothering me, because there's a possibility that those feelings will never be returned.." Yamaguchi said.

"Go on.." Kei encouraged the younger male, he knew he was getting himself into a big big trouble.

"It's a feeling that's bothering me the most. It makes me feel vulnerable and weak, makes me all flustered and shit. I don't know what to do, I can't get rid of them.." Yamaguchi felr his heartbeat speed up.

"You have to try, feelings like that might end up being bad for your health again" Kei wasn't sure what to expect after his reply.

"WHY CAN'T YOU LOVE ME?!" Yamaguchi suddenly exclaimed, his eyes were wide and he was breathing heavily. Kei was a bit shocked by the question, but decided to answer anyway.

"Yamaguchi, calm down. It's not like I can't, you're my patient. Doctor-patient relationships are forbidden here." he tried to calm  him down.

"But Tsukki, I can't help it! I've never felt like this before! And it hurts... It hurts more than anything else. When I think about the fact that we can't be together it's as if someone stabs me right in the heart.. You can't do this to me.." tears started rolling down Yamaguchi's cheeks, his vision got blurry.

He felt Kei wipe away his tears and place a kiss on his forehead.

"Please.. Calm down.. It hurts me too, but I can't do anything about it, it's a strict rule" Kei was barely holding himself in place.

"Can't you do something? This feeling is what healed me, but it can easily break me again.. I don't want to be like that ever again... Please.." Yamaguchi cried into Kei's chest.

Kei wrapped his arms around Yamaguchi's body and stayed quiet, listening to soft sobs escaping Yamaguchi's mouth.

Damnit, it hurt.

"Yamaguchi.." Kei said, Yamaguchi lifted up his head and looked straight into Kei's eyes. "I'll... I'll figure something out... When I think about it, this love might break me too"

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I think this is the best confession scene I have ever written. I love this chapter. Though, only epilogue is remaining.

-hatari.