quite honestly, i think i miss you. we didnt have a healthy relationship. i know it, you know it, our friends know it. but i can't get over you. it's been killing me lately.

im not leading you on. im not making suggestions. i dont even know if it's you that i'm missing. maybe im just missing a warm body by me, someone to confide in. maybe i miss crumbling underneath your touch or melting under your gaze. i mean hell, maybe i'm just lonely.

but whatever it is, i've been thinking about you a lot lately. i've been going insane. i hardly have the energy to talk to people anymore. my will to live has been in shambles lately, too. it angers me how much control you have over me. 

i know you'll see this. i don't know if i want you to realize this is about you or not. will you talk to me? will you ignore this? do you miss me too?

i only have thoughts about you. it's like i can feel you still clinging against my skin. i don't want to feel that anymore, as if it's an echo. i'm tired of the echoes.

i just want you back. 

-s.