i feel so dumb.

how did i not realise that he was filming? ugh.

its been 2 weeks since Xavier leaked it, and everyday i hope that he doesn't show father, i would be dead. literally.

Father knows that i'm not a virgin because he caught me with one of the driver, chef, security guards-- the list goes on, but its different when its a tape, and at SCHOOL!!!

i have been going school, and i hate every second of it.

"Why is D not speaking to me? I literally didn't even do anything." I tell Cassie.

"It's Dilara to you, only my friends can call me D." Dilara butts in.

"Fine, dilara, what the fuck did i do too you?? you're acting like an asshole, even though it was me in the sex tape not you." I say to her, cassie rolls her eyes trying to stop us. Shes the inbetweener.

"You didn't do nothing," She smiles, "but my boyfriend hates you, so, i hate you too."

"Boyfriend?" I ask. please do not tell me its him.

"Yeah, Xavier, then one you fucked?" She rolls her eyes.

"What!" Me and Cassie both say in unison.

"For how long have you guys been a thing." I say in anger. Surely she wouldn't date him behind my back...

"Like a week."

"D, you do realise he just wants to sleep with you right?" Cassie says.

"So what? It's not like I'm a virgin." Dilara rolls her eyes.

"Let me get this straight," I shake my head in confusion. "you've been dating Xavier for a week, and you've been friends with us for years yet your acting petty and hating me for something HE did?"

"Pretty much, yeah." Dilara says and walks off.

"What a bitch."

"There's nothing you can do." Cassie shrugs, munching her lunch away.

That was a bit sus.

"Did you know?" I turn to ask her and by her facial reaction i got the answer. "You knew, and didnt even fucking tell me?"

"I knew by accident... i saw them having sex in the the gym but they didn't see me."

I dont know whether i should believe her right now but i can not lose another friend, so if it means pretending to trust her then thats what i will do.