I like to forget. Forget the way he makes my skin crawl. The way he looked at me that night. I like to forget that he's anything other than a loving and caring boyfriend. He still loves me. He just has a...different way of showing it.

I see mouths moving. I see stretching smiles and a bottle being passed around. I see bodies shaking as laughter erupts out of them. I wish I could hear them. I wish I knew where I am or how I even got here. I blinked and I'm somewhere new. I teleported. That's my superpower. I'm a superhero. But right now I don't feel so super.

My eyes dart around barely recognizable faces, going in and out of focus. My mind kicks into overdrive as I realize I'm numb. Everything feels numb. I think my mouth is moving. Are words coming out? A hand rests on my sweat-slicked skin. I can't feel it. I can't feel anything.

I can't feel...I can't...I....

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Maggie Lindemann as Phoebe Hertz

Grand Army Cast as Their Respective Characters

CONTENT WARNING: mentions of drug use, addiction, sexual abuse, rape, terrorism, and a bunch of other stuff that's already present in the show. if any of this stuff triggers you, i don't suggest reading this (though if that stuff triggers you, you probably didn't watch the show anyways). if at any point you find something triggering in this story that wasn't listed, let me know in a comment or feel free to private message me.

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a/n: not me creating ANOTHER story when i certainly do not have the time to update it lmaoooooo. started thinking about grand army the other day and thought up an idea for a fic so......yeah. i feel like this show doesn't have too many fics, and a good amount of the ones that do exist are for like george or luke which.........ew. yeah so this story won't have a love interest. everyone in this show is either already taken, too abusive, or too mentally unstable for a relationship.

just a warning, updates will be slow, but hopefully you'll stick around and bear with me! hope you enjoy! byyeeeeeee!!!!