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𝐠𝐮𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭 𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫!

ELIJAH HEWSON X FEM!OC
social media / real life

❝ i think that i love you a little more then we agreed.❞

    valerie casablancas hated love. well, she loved the feeling of loving others, but the second she felt like they loved her back she was gone. it wasn't so much the 'loving' aspect, but more of the fear of being seen. all the guys she had been with since the age of fifteen swore they seen her, but they didn't. all they saw was a pretty face and a trust fund. that wasn't love. that was greed.

    valerie was known for putting her all into people. it was her little addiction. everything she had in her, she gave away - most of the time to people who did not deserve it at all, and every single time she did, she would be left trying to pick up the pieces of her broken heart.
   
    the feeling of tears streaming down her face because of a guy who was definitely not worth it was something she craved more then anything. every time the tears stopped, she was back at a random club in new york with her heart on her sleeve.

    it was toxic and unhealthy, but she didn't care. it wasn't like she left them... they were the ones who would slam the door of her apartment and block her on everything. if she left them, then maybe she would consider seeing a therapist and talking about how the last two years of her dad and her step-moms marriage fundamentally changed her brain chemistry, but she wasn't! so she didn't have to!

    elijah hewson was a lover. in the sense that he loved being loved and that he loved loving. having parents who loved each other more than breathing probably helped him figure out how to love others. it didn't fuck him up. it gave him something to look forward to.

    the thought of growing old with someone was something he couldn't wait for. now don't get him wrong, just because he liked the thought of love did not by any means mean he was good at it. in fact, he was quite shit and unfortunately he had no one to blame but himself.

    don't get him wrong, he tried to give it his all, but sometimes that wasn't enough. friends would look at him as though he was insane, girlfriends would scoff before picking up their shoes and slamming his front door on the way out, but every time he would be left with his head in his hands, kicking himself over what he did wrong.

    it was something they had in common.

    from the moment she met him, she was sure he could break her in ways no one else had. little did she know, instead, he healed her heart instead of cracking it into thousands of little pieces.

    from the moment he met her, he was sure he could love the fuck out of this girl. he was gentle, caring, he did everything he could to not fuck this up. he wouldn't. not again.

STARRING . . .

" VAL "
portrayed by juliatpe
VALERIE LETTIE CASABLANCAS

❝ you can't just whoosh my heart away because you can play guitar... do you not know who i am? ❞
☾︎           22     CAPRICORN      IT-GIRL          ☽︎
𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐩𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐲!

all celebrities as mentioned
inhaler as themselves
the goat julian casablancas as himself

diana silvers as isobel thatcher

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❝ i'd settle for a lack of pain.❞

❝ is it a crime if i don't want something more
to be happy with simple and plain? ❞

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━━━━━━━━ DISCLAIMERS.
obviously i do not own these people, i only own my characters and their stories.  also this amazing theme belongs to the one and only -cupidszn

━━━━━━━━ WARNING.
this book will contain foul language, talks of mental health and illnesses, drinking. Ect. there will be NO smut because this is a real person with boundaries and i have my own boundaries and i am not comfortable with that!!!!!

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i love this fic already.

thank you lahoteslvr iadymcbth  for letting me rant about this fic! (and silverslinings )