song reccomendation: hornylovesickmess - girl in red (yea I was doing a Taylor and listening to the album on repeat)

"Open up!" Jimin yells, banging on the door to Jihyun's room. "It's 12 PM, get out and stop moping over whatever angsty gay fanfiction broke you last night!".

"It wasn't a fanfiction!". Jihyun yells back. "Believe it or not, but I actually have a life outside of-".

"Yeah, yeah, now let me in. Which straight boy broke your heart, then?".

"You know, I don't only  fall for straight b-".

"Jihyun, you fucking dumbass, stop acting like every female rom com protagonist and let me the fuck in.".

"Ugh, fine.".

Jimin smiles triumphantly as he hears the lock click, and a messy-haired, puffy-eyed Jihyun rolls his eyes at him.

"What do you want?".

"Let me in, dumbass. You're my twink brother, I need life advice.". Jimin eyes his bare, red face and baggy jeans and raises an eyebrow. "Looks like you do, too. You look terrible. Like, even worse than usual.".

"Fuck off, I know.".

Jimin laughs, sitting down on the edge of Jihyun's bed and props himself up on his elbows.

"So, what dumb shit happened at the party that made you cry like a bitch?".

"I-".

"Don't lie, tell your big bro what happened.".

Jihyun sighs.

"Fine, fine. I had my first kiss.".

"Your... first?!".

"What about it?".

"Jihyun, you hot bitch, why was that your first kiss?!"

"Uh, because I'm too socially awkward to go out and date? Why is everyone making fun of me for this?!".

"Okay, okay, sorry. Anyways, was it good? Was there tongue?".

"Yes and yes.".

Jimin squeals, jumping up on Jihyun's bed and he winces.

"I'm so happy for you! Your first kiss! Oh my God, my first one was ass, the guy shove his tongue down my throat and grabbed my ass, like, calm down Brian we're fifteen I don't want your white ass humping me. The worst part was that he was straight.".

Jihyun decides against saying anything and just stares at his brother, who shrugs.

"He told me he was bicurious or something. But, God, he was a terrible kisser, and that's all I remember. Anyways, who was it?'. Jimin asks happily, propping himself up on his elbows.

"Promise you won't be mad at him? Or me?".

Jimin rolls his eyes.

"Duh. Unless he breaks your heart, then I'll kill him and make it look like he died of autoerotic asphyxiation.".

"... Okay.".

"C'mon, tell me.".

"It was Taehyung.".

Jimin pauses, blinks slowly, opens his mouth to speak and pauses again.

"Oh.".

"Yeah.".

"Oh.".

"Uh-huh.".

"Ohhhh.".

"Are you planning on staying anything else?". Jihyun asks nervously.

"Right. That was, um, unexpected. Actually, the more I think of it it makes sense. Okay. That's not too bad.".

"So you're not mad?".

"Nope. Well, only if Tae's the reason you're moping like this.".

"It's not his fault.". Jihyun says quickly. "Only sort of. We were, uh, kind of drunk and he clearly didn't mean it the way I did-".

"He played you?

"Oh my God, no. But he just... probably doesn't have, you know...".

"Feelings for you?".

"Exactly.".

Jimin sighs.

"We both have a knack for getting ourselves into the shittiest relationships, huh?".

"I thought you and Jungkook were happy?".

Jimin sighs again, dropping onto the bed and rolls over to hug one of Jihyun's many life-sized plushies.

"We are, I guess. But Jungkook and I, like, we talked, right?".

"You talked? I thought y'all just fucked like bunnies all the time.".

Jimin glares at his brother, squeezing the stuffed pandas neck tightly.

"Okay, we talked after sex, but that's not the point. Anyways, I told him I felt like I was leading him on because we both know this isn't a whole relationship that's going to last, you know? For fucks sake, school's ending in a month and we got together to prove a point to mom and dad after hooking up and smoking in his car. But, like, I don't have a problem with that. He's hot as hell and like, right now, I have feelings for him, but it's just a matter of how long they'll last. Eventually, we'll get tired of each other, but for now we're stupidly in love. Thing is, I can already see our relationship end. I can see him being with some girl in college and me dating someone else, I can already see us breaking up. And he knows it too. We're not even dating thinking we're in love, like I said, we just did it to piss of mom and dad first, and then realized we had some sort of attraction towards each other, but it just doesn't feel like fate or anything.".

Jihyun nods, wincing as Jimin continues to strangle his panda as he keeps talking.

"But what I'm scared of is, like, that we're going to end up breaking each other's hearts, or that one of us is going to fall in love or some dumb shit like that.".

"Ah.".

Jimin groans.

"Are you even listening to me?"

"Yes, but at the moment I'm more concerned that you're trying to murder my stuffed animals. They've been through a lot, they don't need added trauma.".

Jimin rolls his eyes, falling back onto the sheets, and releases the panda from his chokehold.

"I'm assuming that trauma was mom trying to throw them out because she thought you were too old for them?".

"Mhm.".

"Can't believe you cried about that.".

"Okay, fuck off.".

"Yeah, yeah. Anyways, back to your love drama. You and Tae kissed while you were wasted and you're scared he doesn't want to dick you down as much as you do.".

"Uh-".

"Or is it more of a wanting to make out in the rain sort of relationship?".

"I-".

"Cuddle under the stars?".

"Make out in the rain, I guess?".

Jimin nods pensively.

"I see. Did he specially tell you he doesn't like you or...".

"Well, no, but-".

"You're an idiot.". Jimin says cheerfully. "Tell me everything he said.".

"Okay, so, I don't remember half of it but he said something about not wanting to do something because I'm your brother and it was really weird and then, uh...".

"Then?". Jimin prompts, and Jihyun frowns.

"I forgot.".

"Wow. Dumbass.".

"Fuck off, I was drunk. But, like, I don't know how, but eventually we sort of made out?"

"And after that?"

"He got really flustered and apologized and said he shouldn't have made a move and left.".

"Fuck.". Jimin says, and Jihyun grimaces.

"Agreed.".

"You're in deep shit, little bro.".

"I know".

"What're you gonna do about it?"

"Uh... run away from my problems and hope they never catch up with me?".

Jimin picks up the panda and throws it at him, and Jihyun lets out a shriek.

"Dumbass.".