I opened my eyes slowly to see the familiar popcorn ceiling of my trailer. My face felt dehydrated. I touched my eyes, the puffiness becoming too noticeable. It was hard to blink as I cried out all my tears what felt years ago. I woke up more tired than I've ever felt, drained more or so. My eyes felt like I opened up my blinds one bright Sunday morning and my eyes weren't quick enough to adjust to the lighting.

I looked over at the clock hanging on the wall across me. 4:29 p.m. , it read. I've been asleep for almost 5 hours. I don't even remember how I got into my bed, I peeked under my covers to see I was still wearing my clothes I had on during the scene.

All of a sudden, a loud snore from the corner jolted me from my trance. The face was looking downward, making it harder for me to recognize who it was. I tried to squint from my position, but my eyesight was just too blurry.

I finally was able to get up, making my way toward the person when I stopped at my mirror. I was still wearing the wrinkly clothes, but my face was wiped clean. No smudges or runny makeup were left on my cheeks, only the red puffiness around my eyes. I stood there staring at my reflection when I heard someone cough.

"Look who finally woke up." The deep voice greeted me. They stood up, making their way towards me when I was able to put a face on the voice. Of course, it was Louis.

"Um yeah, how'd I even get here? I don't remember walking back to the trailer." I asked him.

He sat down on the edge of my bed facing me as I leaned my body against my vanity. "You knocked out when you sat down after your scene. Timo carried you back to the trailer and I removed your makeup. We didn't- we didn't want to change your clothes." He looked down at his hands while I looked away cringing.

"Well thanks anyways, I really needed that nap, but where's everyone else?" I questioned, realizing he was the only one in the room with me.

He scratched the back of his head. "Willie is doing his scenes, I finished around 30 minutes ago. Timo went to pick up some stuff for dinner cause he's cooking apparently, Jo and Alex went back to their apartment." I nodded at him, letting silence take over.

"Do you want to go for a walk?" I looked up at the boy, and nodded.

He led me out of the trailer towards this trail away from the production site. The sun was beginning to dip into the sky, yet it was still high up. Beautiful colors filled the scene around us. Mixtures of pink, blue and yellow crowded the airspace, while beautiful shades of green covered the land below us. We walked in silence, though we looked around in awe.

I was too busy appreciating the scenery, that I didn't notice we had arrived at a park. Louis and I sat on a bench, a table in front of us. None of us spoke, comfortable stillness.

"That was an amazing performance Ami, I really can't tell you how much emotion you put into it. It felt so real and easy for you do." He whispered softly.

I smiled to myself, "Thank you Lou, that means a lot to me." He didn't have anything else to say, so silence was among us.

Until I spoke up, "You wanna know why I managed to do that scene so well?" I felt his body turns towards me, though I didn't face him.

"I was already all too familiar to the fight we had during the scene you know? About being in the medical field but not wanting to." I said, Lou nodded at me. "Also it reminded me of Dylan, the physical parts of course."

Louis pulled me into a hug, rubbing circles on my back and rubbing my hair. I put my arms around him, drawing him closer. Once we parted, my eyes grazed his lips, as he looked at me. I quickly turned round, putting my face into my palm.

"My parents have always said since the minute I was able to understand the words coming out of their mouths, that I'm going to be in the medical field. No matter what it was, a doctor, surgeon, nurse, whatever. As long as it had to be something related to medicine." I rambled, my voice starting to crack, Louis still had his hand on my back, he didn't say anything, but I knew he was listening.

"Though I don't want to be in the medical field. Maybe I do, but I know I never want to work with patients, so basically the stuff my parents don't want me to do." I faced him, I felt tears starting to build up. Louis stared into my eyes, pity showing. "I mean I'm afraid of shots, like deathly afraid of them, mention them and I start to cry. I'm 16 years old, but I will kick and scream if you try to stick a needle in any of my body parts." I tried to laugh to get rid of the thick tension. Louis slightly chuckled as saw a smile appear on my face.

"My parents say they'll support me, but they always pressured the idea of being a doctor on me. And I don't have an idea of what else I want to do because I haven't really been expose to any other careers. And I'm so scared, I mean I'm a junior in high school already, I should have an idea of what I want to be, but I don't. And I can't go to college undecided, that's not an option for me. And I'm scared I won't be successful doing what I love in life, or I'll be stuck with a job that I hate with every inch of me." I breathed out.

I hesitated before speaking aloud, "And I just feel like my parents don't love me," I felt his head snap towards me. "I mean yeah I know they love me, but I don't think they love me enough. I don't think they realize it, but they put my brother's needs before mine, not really paying attention to what's going on in my life. I mean they didn't even want to come with me here, let alone stay with me in the airport until I got to my gate. They weren't really that supportive when I accepted the role either. I just feel like I disappoint them everyday."

Somehow there were tears flowing down my face, I've cried so much today I need to stop. Louis didn't say anything, he just sat there with his hand on my back.

I didn't need him to say anything though, I didn't even know I was going to go off on him, but I've been holding in this fear, this uncertainty in me for so long. It felt good to finally let it out, like a breath of fresh air.

I turned to Louis, studying his face, looking for any sign that he was listening to me or to see if he was feeling anything. But instead he grabbed my face and put my head on his shoulder.

His other hand held mine. Interlocking it. I felt his arm on my back reach around my shoulders so I was closer to him. So close I felt like I was about to sit in his lap. "No matter what you decide in life, know I'll always support your decision and I'll stand by your side the whole way." He said into my ear. "And I'll be here to love you when your parents aren't enough." I felt my heart drop.

I put my face into his chest, his cologne filling my nose. Though Louis and I have known each other for around 4 months now, we've grown so close. I'll always treasure our friendship though the fluttering feeling in my stomach, wishes otherwise.

Louis's phone that sat on the table, lit up. I peered at the screen as he was still holding my body against his. His lock and home screen looked familiar, then I realized.

It was the picture of us hugging.

I kept a smile on my face as he finished replying to the person and he looked back down at me.

"Why are you smiling?" He questioned.

I grinned up at him, "Your lock and home screen is kinda cute." His face turned red. He let go of my body as he turned his face away from me.

"Heyyy why'd you let go of me?" I sat on the table, putting his arms around my waist. He laid his on my thighs as I combed my fingers through his hair. As I was doing so, I couldn't help but wonder what he meant when he said he'll love me when my parents aren't enough. Does that mean he loves me? Like as a friend obviously.

"Ami?" He interrupted my thoughts as he looked up at me, grabbing my hands and interlocking it with his.

"Mhmm?" I looked back at him.

"You're my favorite person." He whispered, kissing the insides of my palms and laying back down on my thighs. I felt my cheeks go warm, I didn't do anything but stare back at the boy in front of me. The insides of stomach going crazy, and the beating of my heart felt like it was running a marathon. 

"You're my favorite person too Louis." I whispered back.

We stayed in that position for awhile. He laid on my thighs, playing around with my free hand, as I combed through his hair.

All of a sudden he perked up, gabbing my phone that was sitting in my back pocket.

"I have an idea." He then pulled me up, putting my back against his chest.

"What the-" He rested his head in the crook of my neck, causing shivers to go down my spine as his hair slightly tickled me.

"Smile!" He placed the camera in front of us as we smiled. Some we smiled at the camera, some we did goofy faces. He made me laugh until I decided it was enough that he spammed my phone.

We sat down together, swiping through the pictures, giggling at them, our hands were interlocked.

"Hey send me that one yeah?" Louis got up, dragging me behind him, "Come on, we gotta get back to set soon."

I walked slowly behind him, admiring the boy. Appreciating all the things he's done for me in the short time we've known each other. I truly care about him and I know he cares a whole lot about me. I glanced back at my phone staring at the picture.

I was smiling at the camera as Louis was looking at me, a small smile at his lips and something filled his eyes, they were bright. I made it my home screen and decided to make it my lock screen as well. I smiled every time I turned on my phone. Sometimes I'd just turn it on to see his face looking at mine.

While we got back to set, he kept our hands together. I couldn't help but look at him and wonder why my stomach would go haywire whenever he touches me. Or whenever he says my name or my nickname. Or whenever he's nearby. I can't...like him right? No, no that's crazy. I mean I just probably feel like this because we hang out so much. Plus it's not like he feels the same way about me.

A/N

hi guys! hope you like this filler kind of chapter! anyways today's thanksgiving and I'm grateful for all the readers who read this story and to all the friends I have made on this app in the past month, I love and appreciate you <33

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- jules