taehyung,

hi, it's me. i have a lot of things to say and i don't where to start but here it goes,

first of all, i know you can't read this because you're dead and i guess i must be crazy since i'm hoping that you might be able to read this once i tie this note to a balloon and let it fly to you.

second, how dare you not say that you have a fucking illness?! i asked your ex's sister about it and she told me that you had brain tumor ever since before you met me and that it only developed as time passed by. i don't know if that's your reason for breaking up with me but nevertheless, i still hate you for keeping secrets to me.

third, i heard about your girlfriend after me and i know how much you love lisa. her sister told me how you always clinged onto her, how you always hugged and showered her kisses and how you always told her out of the blue that you loved her. (that made her sister disguisted though.)

to be honest, i kind of felt jealous because you never did those things to me before since we were an awkward and "lame" couple. i didn't even know if you really did love me back then but if you ask me, i loved you a lot that i almost died when you broke up with me.

thank you for all the smiles, for all the laughter. thank you for all the days, hours, minutes, and seconds you spent with me. all those were unforgettable. thank you for everything.

sorry if you felt that i wasn't enough and if i wasn't as beautiful or as lovely as lisa. i hope you spent your last days with her well, holding her hand and telling her how much you loved her.

and i hoped you did the same to me when we were still together.

i love you so much, i still do.

all the love,
jennie